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Sunday, July 05, 2009

i dont understand..

feel extremely dead and irritated. haha.
wish God would just tell me now whats wrong & how to solve it then can move on with life.

many a times we need to take a step back, and then look on our own lives from Gods pov.
then we wont speak rashly, we wont be too quick to judge, we wont fall into things so easily, we will start to learn, start to grow.

and when we grow, we are going to be caught up again in getting our imperfect lives right, and thats where we focus too much on something that we start to miss out on God and His plan. then again we got to take a step back and look at our lives and reflect.

but actually, i think reflecting is something that should be done daily.
it should kinda be a subconscious thing that you dont even realise you were reflecting.
thats helping yourself grow and learn.

you dont need extended hours with your shpd, leader etc sparing thoughts and talking,
you need extended hours with God having constructive conversations, and then perhaps a day or two with your shpd of deep sharing and learning.

because people wont be there for you forever, only God will.
if all is stripped away, no ones gonna be here with you, only Him.

so we all gotta learn to find enjoyment and security in His presence.
not for His sake, but for our own sake. (well then after that, for His sake]

hate the sin, love the sinner.
this is the hardest thing ive been going through.

haha well, price paid for love was high, of course it takes alot to earn the ability to love. thats why the world is in the mess its in now aint it?

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Saturday, June 20, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIIIIIIIII!!!!!!

Hope you had a good 16th {: I enjoyed your 16th though hahahha yay cya tmrz!

Some sneak previews ^^


Ma'am Stamford Raffles!


Really got super alot of photos, wait patiently ah people, patience is a virtue (:

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I need to/want to start studying!!!!!
I seriously cant stand doing nothing leh i realised.

Haha I totally slacked my whole day away (?!) yst doing NOTHING seriously nothing,
and I kept falling asleep ):

Mehhhh stupid stupid.

But I was talking to jolee yst night haha just felt like calling her, then it kinda rubbed off some enthusiasticness, from my sianness so I felt quite good after that (:

Hahah ok im gonna do smth more productive now.

CHAO.

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

GOD I AM ____ SCAREDDDDD.
I DONT KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE LOL COS EVERY WORD THAT COMES SOUNDS KINDA CRUDE.

Anyway, we had a pretty good cg today (:

Besides the fact that there were like 100000 people in istana park itself, having a lunch break from their amazing race(?)

But ah, Goddddd Unstoppable camp is in like 2 days time!!!

I dont know how are things gonna be, but I really can feel GPE coming hahaha.
(like yknow, GPE is like stored energy, which on the days of camp will then convert to KE)

Yeah man, this is how its like. I think the CLM prayermeet was really good, like the kickstart.
What I really needed man (:

Ah God, I'm so sorry that I'm so .. ill-disciplined to be here using com when I SHOULD BE STUDYING/ PREPARING FOR CAMP but ahhhh, i dont know laaa.

Anyway, I really believe that God is gonna do smthhhh in us (:
I'm seriously just expecting alot alot, my myes are in two weeks, i havent done much..
And the time I spend on preparation for this may seem ridiculous to some, but really,
results are just results, it's just paper man.

I wouldn't miss this life-changing experience and this chance of really having my whole life directed, refreshed, renewed, and changed, for my exams.

As much as I am super scared and uncertain of everything single thing, one thing im most sure of is camp.
And since that's a confirmed (Y) thing, then that's where I'm heading.

Regardless of whatever advantages/disadvantages comes in the midst of it, I'm gonna have to take it, coz my eyes are set on something that's above all.

But I'm still very scared about everything haha like,
Dont know if I can stay full time,
NOT PREPARED at all for MYES (2 weeks time)
Not exactly prepared for camp (like not sui sui enough)
Still struggling with discipline.. (which is very bad, cos it is needed in many other things!)

So I'm like neither here nor there.

I really dont know whats next, but like what I read, as I keep trusting, I keep fighting.
Though I still dont know what's wrong about doing it the other way round.

Haha I'll ask God ahaha :D

Alright, seeeyazzz
CG identity tmr yayyyy!! :D
We're gonna pwn \m/

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Saturday, May 09, 2009

From film camera,






dk reminds me of hello kitty here ^^



Sigh.. Time's passing too quickly, I feel out of the world..
4 months coming 5 months have passed, and it's almost half the year gone already!
What have I achieved so far?????
I look back and I'm sad to say, I dont know!

Well maybe I do have things that I achieved, but things that are real I mean,
not like, winning competitions etc...

Gah, how could I have let so much time pass w/o knowing!
And why doesnt anyone do anything about it!! I don't believe everyone is just as busy?!

I didnt even realize the amount of time that has just passed, 4 months is alot ok!
Danggggg. I think I really hate stagnancy (?)..

But yes, I've been managing rather fine (in sch), keeping on par with my work, learning, working, learning, working, chionging..

I've been progressing, but I feel as if I haven't been growing at all.
It's like.. I'm stagnant at where I am, wanting to move, ready to move, but not moving.
These things may be the cause of it yknow. Holding me back. But they shouldn't be.. ):

I was looking through my cousins facebook (he's like primary 3 or smth), he migrated to australia uh.
So the pictures were photos of like, outings, camel rides, kayaking, doing fun stuff..
And I realise, man, I've actually lost that part of me.

Haha the part that keeps me in touch with the world. Not self-submerged into studies..
Well not that I hate studying, I find that I'm getting better at it more and more ;) (studying I mean, not studies)

Just that, I need a change!!!
Change in something, I dont know what!

It's frustrating man.

Ok let's see,
CG - def needs a change
me - def def def need a change
family - we sure could use one
school - nothing else can change can it?
friends - dont exactly need a change of friends, but probably a change in the r/ships


I feel too... bored and empty.
But I dont know what to do either..

I think I need a change in everything srsly.
My entire life and environment etc etc.

Yknow my dad was talking about sending my bros to Aussie to study, and I suddenly, very automatically and naturally found myself being brought into the topic.

He said I could go along too!

Haha didnt think much of it, just that it'd be kinda cool ^^

But then, just a while ago, my neighbour was talking to me about studies overseas, how it would be like, what kinda courses I would be doing if i went there, the kind of study environment, the benefits there and stuff.

I was super interested!!
Hahah I even searched the web for the universities there.
I think I would go and ask around more about studies overseas and see what I should do.

If I were to leave for Australia, my life would change from this period of time.
Hehheh, I know we're not supposed to do things based on things like these, but ah I dont know, it motivates me to do more heh.

Then again, I'm not really sure about where I am supposed to go after O's ):

I mean yeah.. I have my choices like typical people do. But so..?
These may not be the best plan for me too.

I forsee myself dying in Singapore due to the boredom of it.
I cannot imagine what I would be like going through JC and then Uni in Singapore.
Well, I think I can.. it would be just like now I suppose, perhaps magnified effects.

It's not the stress, or the amount of work. Or at least I think so now.

Because those things, I realised, I'm growing to become more immune to the after-effects of it haha.

Ahhh.. I dont know.

Then in australia, if I go over, I would be staying with my aunt and her family.
She and her husband are pastors, it would be so cool!

Then in school, I'd have to make new friends, hopefully people I can clique with even with Singaporean english haha.

But ah, what's all these w/o a purpose inside me.

Okay, I'm going to ponder over this further and pray abt it.

Oh yes, I MISS YDANCE!!!!!
Argh stupid exams i hate euux to the max!


PS. I gotta do smth about my room or smth! It is a really bad QT location >:(

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

NATIONAL CANOEING COMPETITION 2009!
Photos are up!!

Finally. Haha I took super long to upload them luh.
But I think they're so nice!! (:

Sam's polaroid.
Neoprint machine, our tradition every year hahah.
HAHA KISSY FACE. Sarah thought we said KC face lol!

We were trying to take a nice picture aft all the races, and it was quite embarrassing..
Cos we were on the pontoon while everyone else was on shore..

Hahaha sam tan going down for her race.




O lvl inspiration, anyone?
Zanita!
Ahhh I love the colours here! :D
Hahah the world through another perspective.

I like how the water and the sky look, plus the many people add to the colour!
Right after the K4 race.

The ending part of the race!! Thrill thrill!

Oooo i like :D So nice how everything can be squeezed in one photo.

Hahah walao this guy sit there, as if he's mocking me liddat. (camera so biggg)


"Crescent crescent!"

Nice white fluffy clouds (:


Omg I love this picture man! Like *boom* we're proud to be Crescentians!
Sec 4!
Hahaha deborah reaching out babeh!

Capsize! :O


Teeheee, lazy to type much.
Needa go do alot of things already,

Byebyebye!

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Monday, April 20, 2009

I realised, I should stop looking for answers here and there - in books, quotes, internet, peoples thoughts etc.
Though they may be good or insightful they'll never be what was intended for me.

Through all these, it all boils down to what was first close to my heart, just look to Him and Him alone. In Him, all questions are answered, all problems are solved.

Even though we knew it since the first day we converted, we always lose sight of it along the way, and it really is a pity and a waste of time, going round and round in search for an answer when all along the answer is right under your nose.

It's just like forgetting your roots, but in this case, ignoring your roots. & I'm sure many of us have fallen into that as we enter this vast and highly intellectual world where most people get their answers through logic or theories..

But actually, the only theory we ever need in our life, is the Bible and its words.

What other things can compare?

Nothing, really.. Nothing..



Anyway, that just came to me and I regurgitated it out like diarrhea hahhaa (mr tham taught us that about ss today)

Well anyway, my bro showed me this movie on his iphone and suprisingly I got hooked and continued watching till the end. (this is rare cos.. idk its just rare)

Shan't reveal the movie just as yet, you guys will know after this friday after my CG :D

Anw, I learnt so much through the movie even though it was just some thriller/random movie.

And I found it quite cool too, cos my bro had a revelation through a movie too when I read his blog just now! hahaha so cool man (:

I thought I would be the only one (between both of us) but nope, he did too. yay im happy for us haha.

Cya folks!

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Saturday, April 11, 2009

YAY FRIDAY'S EASTER PARTY WAS SO SO SO GOOD!! (:

To all who didn't come:
If I didnt invite you, I'm sorry ):
But to those who couldn't, so wasted kkkk!! It was fun ttm, and literally GOOD FRIDAY! :D

Luckily we decided to sit near the stage area, cos it rained, so we went to sit at the stage!
Then we spent the rest of our day on the stage haha.

We played the balloon game, must step on everyone's balloon and be the last one left :D

I forgot who was the last one standing haha. But I know it was team jessie lol. (we're team james, tgt we're team rocket!)

Then we played captains ball with cabbage!! Haha sadly no pictures of those though ):
The cabbage made a scene I tell you hahah. Retarded thing.

It flew around, breaking into pieces and splattering when people caught it.

In the end, we were only left with the stalk of the cabbage as the ball hehheh.
But it was super funny seeing that green thing flying around.
And the other people on stage were watching us as if we were performing or something hahah.

But we were so into the game that we didnt even notice them until after quite some time.
Ohwells :D

Then we played the fruit game thingy hahah.
Must squash all the fruits tgt in one plastic.
Then the team that wants to win, must squash AND drink!

So I thought we could win, and I went to drink..
It was a mixture of bananas, tomatoes, watermelon.. lol. Luckily no kiwi.
The tomato was piercing I tell you. So grosssss.

But anyway, team jessie won again :/

Hahah. But nvm!
We did alot of retarded stuffs :D There was the donut game too hahah.
Supposed to eat the donut w/o using your hands!! :D

I think this game our team won HAHA YAY! :D

But I didnt dare play, cos I really..... found it kinda puke-inducing..
Heh all the passers-by slowed down to watch our donut game, cos it's quite retarded hahaha.

But we didnt realize too hahah I bet they just wanna join us lor.
Hahah yeah man peektures!! :D


















Really thank God that this party was a success (:
The other friends that came were all super fun and sporting luh!! (:
Good job CC4, good job all those who did planning (teehee, must grow in being more choleric HAHA), good job all those who were faithful with their own piece of work!

Because everyone of you did your small part, it added tgt and made the WHOLE thing a success!!! :D

Yayyyyz, thank God for good friday and it for being so so so good!!

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Friday, April 03, 2009

Yo homieezz!!~

Haha I just read my past posts and I actually feel blessed reading them :/
Stupid noob haha.

I guess it's cos I have so little time to blog, so when I actually DO blog, it's substance stuff babeh ^^

But wtv, I think God has been really good to me these past few days.
Thanks for the 2x a week morning prayermeets (:
I have really gained so much from it man.
And I think we're improving tgt as a CG in terms of the worship atmosphere, good job yall!
Also, thanks for those people who are always on time/early (:

I ought to be stoned :/ I CANNOT wake up one!!!!! ):

But nvm, luckily they didn't stone me.

Haha also, thank God for the friends that I've gotten closer to over the past few days!(Loi, Sarah. P, Chuxuan, Lisa Tan)
Haha you may say that it's just a 'friend thing' that you get to make friends, but I really am grateful for friends that are placed into my life.
Even though sometimes it may be hard to like someone as how they are, but yknow.. everyone has their imperfections.. so its okay :D

Thank God for being there!!
Been able to feel him more now (:

So anyway, school has been... fair.

Even though I have an emath test next tues on 17 topics.. It's crazy I tell you.
They only told us on thurs!!!

I feel so blank. Nothings running through my mind..
Actually, there is. But I don't know how to transfer the format from brainwaves to megabytes.
Yay I shall go bathe now and do extended QT then maybe abit of amaths then sleep (:

Anyway, 2.4 today.

Wanna share smth i'm very proud of!!!

Hahahh Feli came in the FIRST in our class with a timing of 12.42 or 12.52!!!
The thing is, she's not even in a sport cca okay!!

When I heard she was first, instincts told me that she wasn't running on her own.
Right feli? :D
Hahah walao eh, God you're super unfair can.

I know I'm heavier than her, but you carry her don't carry me what's this?!?!?!
Haha no la, you were still there for me. Just that you never carry me, you run beside me :D
So I give you chance k hahah :D

And Sarah Phang too! :D
Yay Sarah haha.
She was sharing with me how she decided to use God as motivation to keep running,
and she felt really happy that she was able to run without stopping!!

Ahhh people...
Who can ever deny, the power of God is ever so wonderful!! (:


Goodnight y'all, God bless! (:

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Wednesday, April 01, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIYING!!!
-insert picture here-
Hahah I've known you since Sec 2 omg!!
And only sec 3 we came to the same class. Haha anw, you've been a really crazy person
as far as I know.. Forever doing retarded actions and noises.
Haha the only time you're quiet is when you're angry/tired/sleeping/sick.
The other times I hear your laughter from super far away HAHA.
Oh well, it's quite sad to have your bday on april fools cos ppl will just link the two events tgt hahaha. But anw, hope you have a happy bday!!! and the class will be singing for you tmr! :D
(eh no pictures in my com at the moment haha)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:D

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