From film camera,






dk reminds me of hello kitty here ^^



Sigh.. Time's passing too quickly, I feel out of the world..
4 months coming 5 months have passed, and it's almost half the year gone already!
What have I achieved so far?????
I look back and I'm sad to say, I dont know!

Well maybe I do have things that I achieved, but things that are real I mean,
not like, winning competitions etc...

Gah, how could I have let so much time pass w/o knowing!
And why doesnt anyone do anything about it!! I don't believe everyone is just as busy?!

I didnt even realize the amount of time that has just passed, 4 months is alot ok!
Danggggg. I think I really hate stagnancy (?)..

But yes, I've been managing rather fine (in sch), keeping on par with my work, learning, working, learning, working, chionging..

I've been progressing, but I feel as if I haven't been growing at all.
It's like.. I'm stagnant at where I am, wanting to move, ready to move, but not moving.
These things may be the cause of it yknow. Holding me back. But they shouldn't be.. ):

I was looking through my cousins facebook (he's like primary 3 or smth), he migrated to australia uh.
So the pictures were photos of like, outings, camel rides, kayaking, doing fun stuff..
And I realise, man, I've actually lost that part of me.

Haha the part that keeps me in touch with the world. Not self-submerged into studies..
Well not that I hate studying, I find that I'm getting better at it more and more ;) (studying I mean, not studies)

Just that, I need a change!!!
Change in something, I dont know what!

It's frustrating man.

Ok let's see,
CG - def needs a change
me - def def def need a change
family - we sure could use one
school - nothing else can change can it?
friends - dont exactly need a change of friends, but probably a change in the r/ships


I feel too... bored and empty.
But I dont know what to do either..

I think I need a change in everything srsly.
My entire life and environment etc etc.

Yknow my dad was talking about sending my bros to Aussie to study, and I suddenly, very automatically and naturally found myself being brought into the topic.

He said I could go along too!

Haha didnt think much of it, just that it'd be kinda cool ^^

But then, just a while ago, my neighbour was talking to me about studies overseas, how it would be like, what kinda courses I would be doing if i went there, the kind of study environment, the benefits there and stuff.

I was super interested!!
Hahah I even searched the web for the universities there.
I think I would go and ask around more about studies overseas and see what I should do.

If I were to leave for Australia, my life would change from this period of time.
Hehheh, I know we're not supposed to do things based on things like these, but ah I dont know, it motivates me to do more heh.

Then again, I'm not really sure about where I am supposed to go after O's ):

I mean yeah.. I have my choices like typical people do. But so..?
These may not be the best plan for me too.

I forsee myself dying in Singapore due to the boredom of it.
I cannot imagine what I would be like going through JC and then Uni in Singapore.
Well, I think I can.. it would be just like now I suppose, perhaps magnified effects.

It's not the stress, or the amount of work. Or at least I think so now.

Because those things, I realised, I'm growing to become more immune to the after-effects of it haha.

Ahhh.. I dont know.

Then in australia, if I go over, I would be staying with my aunt and her family.
She and her husband are pastors, it would be so cool!

Then in school, I'd have to make new friends, hopefully people I can clique with even with Singaporean english haha.

But ah, what's all these w/o a purpose inside me.

Okay, I'm going to ponder over this further and pray abt it.

Oh yes, I MISS YDANCE!!!!!
Argh stupid exams i hate euux to the max!


PS. I gotta do smth about my room or smth! It is a really bad QT location >:(