1. One thing I learnt from fatninjas that left an impact in me was:

Guard your r/ship with God with all your might, because it can be taken away by the devil just like that.
QT is built up the same ways it tears down.

So if you do it daily, you'll find yourself growing more and more each day.
If you don't, you'll find yourself backsliding further and further away from God.

As scary as the word 'backsliding' seems, it's pretty much true.

So maybe if you wanna see how spiritual you are, see how long you can stop doing QT.
And take that number of days divided by your age of your spiritual birthday times 100.

But by the time you're able to calculate that, you'll probably not be here anymore. Hahah.

Ok kidding, but I think the formula is correct :D


2. When trials come and no verses or principles come to me, it's too late to realise that I've been in lack of reading God's word.

3. Doing God's work without God is scary and dangerous.
- scary for those under you
- dangerous for everyone

Yet many times people do His work without Him at all..
Many times, people do their leaders work.
nuh-uh, unacceptable.

4. Valentines' Day this year is going to be exciting/thrilling/heartwrenching (in the good way).
The 12 days we have is going to be nerve-wrecking/heartwrenching(now literally)/energy consuming/God seeking.

I was so scared when I was doing QT just now.
When I start to think about the 12 days. My hair was messy - my hands fault.
My brain was dying but '12' woke me up.
It wasn't cold, but '12' made me go pee.

It's 240am and '12' made me come here.
(I'm blogging standing because of '12' and '240am')


5. Recently I've been scolding myself quite alot..
But I think that's bad for me because I'll get demoralised.
Somehow it happens....?
That's why when Winnie said, "You can't wait for people to encourage you to move on, you gotta encourage yourself!"
I was like "HAH! Totally!"
(they laugh at me for writing letter to myself :( )

But I really felt encouraged and happy, so I kept reading it over and over :D
It works, really. Try it some day!


6. I've been thinking about balance - again.
One thing I realised about myself is that, I cannot multi-task. (not the joannelee kind)
But when I've deadlines to meet for let's say, homework to hand in the next day.
And I've to do my QT before I sleep.
I will choose to do QT, but when I'm doing that, my hw keeps bugging me.
And I keep thinking about how I'm gonna complete it by tmr etc etc.

This is just an example,
but these kinda things happens like continuously, till I really cannot focus anymore..

That's when I started to scold myself for being irresponsible.
And I think I really am.. But I hope I'll get out of it soon.

I realised I'm so far *spreads both arms out* from the fruits of the spirit.
Well I didnt really go and look at each word yet, but when that title came to me,
I was like, oh crap, without even thinking of what the fruits of the spirit were.

Or maybe, hopefully, I'm just advancing into another level.
A higher level of the fruits of the spirit.
That it seems like I dont even have it already.

I wanna believe that's the case :D

Anyway, I was deprived of blogging for so long cos my non-existent to-do list was bugging me everytime, thus, I vomit out everything, in point form with no link of any kind (ok maybe there is one- my brain) to each other, tonight.

I feel much better now :D
Cos now I know what is actually going on in my mind.
(sounds ironic but really man, too much stuff can get you yourself confused)
Yay love my blog haha. Rocks forever.

Goodnight! Tmr die alr.