I was suddenly just thinking haha.
Okay sorry it might be a bit wordy i'll try to keep it short.

Walao some people like to see pictures only lorz.

HAHA k nvm.
I suddenly had a burden for people.

I started thinking of all those around me that haven't got the chance.
And all those that are really corrupted to the max, and they think that they are still above the rest. (those like really NO HOPE) haha ok kidding.

Then I thought if this was considered judging..
Then in the end I didnt know the exact definition of judging so I heck la.
Continue to rant to Him.

Cos its to Him thats why I didnt know if it was judging also..
Okay can enlighten me, but still got other things first.

Then I was thinking of another thing.
Affirmation.

Hahah it suddenly dawned on me that you don't need affirmations if you truly enjoy what you do.

Really eh, I feel its quite true. Right?
I mean, affirmations are like to encourage you to thank you for your efforts and stuff.
But if you enjoyed what you do, and you don't feel that what you do ought to be rewarded..
Then affirmations wouldn't matter.

Haha then I think sometimes maybe we affirm our leaders without thinking about them on their part.
Cos maybe they lead the group and really enjoy it alot alot till it doesnt seem like a burden to them.

Then when we affirm them, we're like saying that he/she sees it as a chore kinda thing.

Catch my drift?

Haha but yeah, just saying luh.
Affirmations do more good than harm anyway! :D

Oh and I had really really tiny glimpses of how His heart aches looking down at from on top.
Like on the last day of camp, when my brother dropped my camera.

I tell you..
My heart felt like it stopped beating okay.
Really.

My camera dropped from like waist level and it BOUNCED a few times even.
I was so angry so so so so angry. (i wanted to scream at him and just blame him for everything haha)
I mean, it was an expensive DSLR that cost $1k+, first of all, and secondly, its just NOT-SUPPOSED-TO-BE-DROPPED.
And tears really started to well up in my eyes man.
(which was why I was in such a bad mood a while after that)

Then my instant reaction was: "God wth is this for!?"

Then it dawned on me,
If my heart ached alr so badly because of material things,
Something of the world that I loved/cherished/protected dearly got "injured" by just abit.(it didnt have dents or anything thankfully)

How much more will His heart ache when he see us fall away from him.
When he sees his people start to do all those sinful things.
(drugs, adultery, premarital yeahh, illegal stuff all those crap)
How much MORE will He feel the pain mannnnn.

Maybe you can identify with me, maybe you cant.
But just think luh.

I felt quite relieved after that.
And principles started coming into my mind.

"Do things by principles not feelings"
(lol it was supposedly my uh passion but I realised its not the first in line)

But anyway, a sentence from a teaching like
"scold based on principles, not values"

Like scold only when the principle is wrong, not when someone is careless or what.

Ah still got alot la.
But this one was the one controlling me the whole time, plus that little vision I got.
It was just so scary.

And you know the first sentence of the verse.

"I see a generation, rising up to take their place."
I really think its so impactful.

Haha each word is so perfect.

A Generation. RISING UP, to take their place.
Place. Their place as CL, UL, DLs? (eh who knows next time the DLs will be the number of CLs!)
Whatever places they can take.

Church planters, pastors, bible study teachers etc.
A whole generation doing that man.
Oh man.. Such a wondrous sight right.

Hahah. During the last night of camp right after Shirley shared her conviction.
I really cried like hell. (I know I so big already but haha okay i shall stop saying this)

I mean, I pictured everything la.
Like our corrupt generation compared to "a generation rising up to take their place".

I really cry like waterfall man.
I'm glad I'm a picture person (:

But anyway, I realised that the reasons why many of us cried are all different.
And the specific reasons are what they feel the most burdened for.
Haha oh man. I wanna know why each one cried. So interestingg.

Mine was people, in general.

But anyway, what was revealed to me through camp was scary and very unrealistic.
Hahah im not saying. I mean, i dont know what specifically it is anyway.
But all I know is that im cut out for so much more.

That's all I managed to conclude.
Yes, this was supposed to be a short post.
But this post was really with lots of thought and heart and feelings.

So if you are one who looks at pictures only then you missed it. Haha.
Not trying to say that my post is very worth your time reading.
But I really wanna share these to everyone..

Anyway, for enlightenment, my haloscan is up there^
The clickityclick thing.
Haha I dont know why Im saying it now cos I've never said it before..

Yeah wtv, just enlighten me yeah!
I shall not use the common word: tag.
Cos I think its soooo... ah lianz.
Haha.

Sorry sorry.
uhhh. un-needed luh huh.

I just need constructive comments or constructive criticisms..
But I'm not saying that you shouldn't say Hi even if you want to!!

Oh crap hahah I think I should just shut up.
The more I talk the more I have to clear up.

OKAY OKAY I HAVE TRAINING AT 8AM GOTTA WAKE BY 7AM ITS 407AM oh yes plus the fact that I had high fever or 39.1degrees this morning SAME AS XANTHE'S! hahaha.
(another point which shows this post is really sincere heehee)

SO GOODBYE TOODLES TATA BYEBYE SEEYOU!