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those who always dont watch the videos posted uh...


I just saw this video on some blog.
It.is.Horriying.I.tell.you.

H-O-R-R-I-F-Y-I-N-G.

In the first place, why does she even WANT a baby?
if she wants, adopt it luhhhh.

i totally sympathize with the mum man.
if i were the mum, i would've sent her to the GIRLS home long ago. (where there were no guys)

Really man.. Not to generalize so much, but I think that some of the things people say about American countries.
like damn wild and stuff.

its really true.
compared to them, we are like how guai man.
and already, there are people who are beyond parental control at the age of what 13?

i think our this standard of BPC is considered normal in those countries man.
they are like drinking at 12, smoking at 10, this at 15.

15 yknow, MY AGE yknow.
totally cannot imagine any of the people of my age doing what she did..

It seems soo unbelievable.
the poor mum is there crying, and she is still proclaiming what she did as if she did nothing wrong.

she can even look at her mum cry and continue talking about her "dream".
how can her mother even stand ittttt omg.
i wouldve like, slapped her all way round.

and i will rather disown her la. hahaha. (with the mentality that she'll come crying home)

but i dont think people do that in the states anyway.
gone is like gone for good man.

but anyway, it really goes to show that discipline is so so so impt.
actually we are lucky to have our parents scold us and stuff.
really we'll never appreciate what we have till its gone.

and now i feel quite thankful for my parents.
haha. not that i like them to scold me and beat me uh.

but for the things they did.

my mumz like some superwoman la.
she comes home from work and still need to do housework.
because no one ever does it well enough. (or even does it)
lol she's almost a perfectionist.

yeahhh and my dad also.
his is must wait until very old then i can truly appreciate one.
cos its hard to appreciate it now.

but actually, i can see a lil change in him (:
very happy :D

but anyway..
about that girl.

come to think of it, she is those kind of people that no one would ever see hope in anymore.
then again, she'll really be a greatttttt testimony.

thinking of it makes me feel so happy actually. hahha.
i mean, she's so notorious..
has these kinda videos everywhere.

although her reputation has been totally ruined.
if there was just someone, someone who is really really really pro.
that is able to see abit of hope in her, is super patient and persevering etc.

and that person were to share with her more about christ,
and hopefully if she accepts.

its gonna be one huge celebration in heaven mannnn.

but after that she has to be growing as well la.
like accept alr but never change, still the same.

then that would spoil another reputation.

hahah. but anyway, thinking on the positive side.
all it takes is alot alot of energy, abit of faith, and alot alot of prayer,
im sure there will be someone out there who will be able to change her.
maybe not now, but sometime later?

who knows..

its quite true actually what daniel said in CLM.
i mean obviously its true.

We will work hard only in things that we believe in.

if you believe you have a chance to win, you would work hard for it right?
if you didnt think that there's even a chance, what are the chances that you will even bother working at all?

the thing about the video is just that i think that she'll be a great testimony if she gets to know christ.

and the only way that can happen, is for someone to have that lil chilli seed of faith. (is it bigger than mustard's or smaller?)

which is the problem with many people.
alot of us (including me yes) do not even believe in people.
we limit ourselves to what we feel we can do.

we seldom try to stretch our limits to see what God can do.
once in a while maybe?
not always, definitely.

but yeah, easier said than done..
it really goes to show the amount of faith we have in general though.

the faith in God, the faith in yourself, the faith in people.
but we always begin by finding faith in ourselves, then after that, if you have, start finding faith in God. (which most of the time doesnt happen cos you dont even find much faith in yourself to do the things you want)

k nvm. haha i know its abit the weird and complicated.
try to comprehend if you might.

but anywayyyyyy,
i was just thinking.

i think i found my talent/gift/skill!!!!!
and me and joanne lee share the same one.

not that we only have one but that is one of those we have in common.
ahaha. maybe only, im not sure if it is even considered a talent/skill/gift.

but i find it very coool. hahaha.
brings me a level above the rest.
yknow like taller - mentally. (:

which if you had guessed, its abit retarded but still, the ability to observe and think very very deep/far/wide.

you have no idea how cool that is. hahah.
maybe other people have also, but i only know of her so far.

like like, when i was young, i always asked why.
like even though i knew the answer, i wanted the EXPLANATION.

so i dont ask like
"Is the tree green cos of blablabla?"

instead,
"why is the tree green?"

HAHA this kinda thing luh. example only.
even some simple stuff that didnt need much explanation i still wanted to ask.

then my mum will always dao me or brush me away. hahaha.
then i didnt wanna tell her why i was asking in this way otherwise she wouldnt want to explain to me next time anymore.

i thought in this way when i was young okay!
like before i went kindergarten i rmb clearly.

cos everyday i would be at home doing nothing..
then when she comes home i'll ask and bug her non stop.

then i do it all the way till now. HAHA.
okay but anyway, i was a cool kid then :D (now still. nth happened along the way fyi)

and you know how some slow people dont seem to catch any signals and stuff.
which was why i found the bus ride in the 11th march post damn fun.

NO ONE BOTHERED GUESSING, thanks man.

it was like a game can. hahaha.
and yeah, so does that make me even more complicated?

cos women are complicated creatures, (as said by men)
and not all women think as deep, maybe some even deeper,
but also some shallower.

but still complicated and hard to understand all the same.
ahaha. but i dont understand myself.
i can be simple minded too.. like sometimes i get fooled by ppl.

okay maybe thats when i dont think or think too much.

hahah anyway, im starting to love that ability of mine.

oh and i was thinking of the 'pretty/not pretty' factor.
not of me luh. - generally, people.
and also not because i was suddenly jealous.

would i rather be pretty (if i was ugly),
or not pretty (if i was pretty)?

then in the present situation i was thinking i would wanna be uglier. HAHA.
because if i was, then i wouldnt have to face any problems to do with guys.

not that i have any, but generalizing (the pretty girls)
i wouldnt have to be sad over my boyfriend ditching me,
my boyfriend betraying me and stuff.

like what those people who get so much attention get.
oh and i wouldnt need to go through the emotional cycle, whereby people like you, and after a while dont like you.

you know those kinda 'raise your hopes' kinda feeling.

if you're ugly your hopes wouldnt even get raised so you wouldnt feel as sad (:
so you have one less thing to worry about apart from studies etc! HAHA.

but then after that i thought that nah, i'd rather stay how i am now, and at least have experienced things i wouldn't have experienced.

at least i get to go through them, and learn things through it.
rather than stay in one corner and be safe from danger.

its called learning things the hard way. hahah.
and esp these kinda things, most people learn it the hard way,
unless they really have a good brain and are mature enough to a certain level..

so actually we can quite see who doesnt have that brain. HAHAHA.
im kinda mean actually.. (but i didnt ask you to go think of anyone, so if you specify anyone, then YOU'RE mean!! HAHAHA yay)
hmmm, k la maybe its not totally the HARD way.

some people enjoy it, but anyway, never seen one that actually lasted.
so that doesnt last. and that source of joy that they got was diminished in the end.

and some ppl get soooo depressed cos that was the biggest source of their joy (in their context).
and actually, some of them are, because their lives have no other kind of joy that is able to make them as happy.

i think i still make sense up to here. as in literally, i think i do.

yeahhh.
and so they try to find that same joy again and again.

and luckily, for those smarter ones.
they stop seeking for that source of joy, cos they know that it'll not last.

those are the smart out of the not-so-smart.

so the not so smart ones, are the ones that actually keep going round in circles..
seeking , then losing, seeking, then losing again x 100.

and i dont know how i came to this topic lol.
but anyway, it was all my thoughts,
so dont be too bothered by it.

but its because i am bothered by it.. so thats why.. hahahah.

Can anyone enlighten me, on whyyyyyyy people, even though they know of the consequences, etc the "smart out of the not-so-smart", still go and seek all these things???

okay, maybe not enlighten, share your P.O.Vs with me.

this is one of the cases that too many cooks do not spoil the broth.
(cos there is no broth in the making to begin with.)

OKAY OKAY ITS LIKE AHHHHHHH 2AM. I AM MAD. OKAY IM SLEEPING BYE! :D
i love cleo man, like really really really (: hahahahahahahahah.

Shutup and die..die..die..... - limhanna.

shit shit im getting abit overboard and its not funnny.
cleanse my of my lameness someone.

G'night!!!!!!