COMMON TESTS ARE FINALLY OVER.
after how long..

SO!
today was spent quite lowly.

school ended at 1245 for sec threes (whooopeeeee!)
and so we were all like quite free.. lol.
k basically.

after school went to watch PS I Love You with sam.
(didnt intend for it to be only us, but well..)
siying and yiping came with us for lunch.

siying was supposed to watch with us, but she was watching with her friend,
so couldnt watch. hahah.

Yesssss.

the show is boring man.
hahah. i wonder why so many ppl find it nice.
nice meh. aha.

i think its kinda sick eh.
like, we are intro-ed to the movies with frenching and kissing and an almost undressed woman..

went to ps after that.
i love ps <3333 hahaha.
its like my 3rd home or smth.

everywhere i turn i see ppl i know. hahaha.
okay not so exaggerating.

like walk walk walk abit, see someone i know those kind? ahhhhh..
met the fairfield + sji + acs + pioneer schs there.
they were playing some game that needed to exchange paper clips. lol.

so i gave away my receipt and my ticket stub.
and i got three paper clips, one of which is bent into some weird shape. HAHA.

anddd yeah, met zj aaron jerome tim choo zeus there too.
they were eating lunch at like 4..? not bad.

hahaha so yeah had dunch (as said by joanne) with her and then we walked around abit, and met more people. lol.
its really a cool place laa k. hahaha.

so we happened to see ang they all at carrefour and went to meet them tooo.
then we went to istana park tgt. :D

OH AND IM TRYING SO HARD TO DO THE DAMN FREEZE THINGY, AND I CANNOT SUCCEED!!!
WHY?!

sherlyn how yall do one?!
hahaha wth man.
i do on bed can collapse also leh. teach me lehhhhh. ahahah.

feel so loserrrr. lol.
yknow when i lean my leg there on my arm, then my arm will have no strength,
and just twist in. hahahha. thus, i collaspe.

and from my head to the floor its quite a distance. lol.
maybe cos my shoulders' too broad? then so far. hahhaha.

blaahhhhh. nvm i shall practice! :D

can one k. if sherlyn can, CLEO CAN. HAHAHAH.
(i mean, applies to anyone lol.)

i think the info that art shared was good.
i really needed it.
its true really, how we are taking advantage of what we have now,
is such a waste of time.

time isnt ever-lasting,
and its so scary to see all those facts being pointed out so true.

but no matter whether its true or just predictions.
it gave me the drive, the sense of urgency.
i really need it man. like alot.

who doesnt anyway?

i feel so encouraged when i was watching the video on zach's blog
showing the millions of ppl getting saved.

they have so much drive, so much faith, even though they are so much less privilleged. we are what, so lucky, so comfortable, yet we do not serve wholeheartedly.

perhaps we need a change of state (not solid liquid gas) to show us what we are really expected to do,
how lucky we are to have all these.
we dont appreciate it, do we?
well its human nature of course, that we always want better things and still do so even after getting them.

we just go about our own lives and forget about the value of everything.
others' lives, people all around the world.
pity they dont get to hear the good news.
isnt it alr a privillege that we get to?

plus, fulfilling the great commission!

focus, really. i think what ang said today really made a point. haha.
we gotta be focused and not distracted by things going on around us.
we cant afford to lose time anymore.

i experienced what it really meant.
its totally different to be serving wholeheartedly and halfheartedly.

i used to have a huge part of my heart that was stuck onto something else and i couldnt bear to let go.
i tried to balance both God and that, obviously didnt work out.
i ended up feeling stressed and overworked.

but priorities are priorities.
since i have set my heart on building the kingdom,
why should i give my other half of the heart to something that isnt gonna last anyway.

it was difficult though.
the letting go part.
i couldnt bear to release it..
it took me a good 2months plus to really break off from it.
and although i cant say im totally broken off,
but i know that it aint gonna be back anymore (:

and after that i felt so free.. lol ironically.
and the difference in serving was a whole lot of difference.
now i gotta adjust my focal lens and set my heart mind soul and everything right.

it is actually ALOT like my slr lens actually.

it takes a long time to focus onto something manually, because you need to adjust everything delicately and make sure everything is clear and sharp.
then only you take the picture.

and its just like that too.
we need to focus properly to make sure that what we do is good and right and done at the best we can.

the thing is that, we can be distracted very easily.
much more easier than focusing.
as long as someone accidentally comes and knocks your lens and it turns.

there, it is off-focus already.
just as easy as it is gonna happen in reality.

something can just pull you off the track of God,
and there you go, out of line, down the hill.
well, seen it experienced it, it isnt easy to keep focus.

it could be a life at stake (yes i truly regret)
and there are still people who reject the idea of accepting Christ.
it is a privillege, not a burden or an obligation.
if you feel the urge, grab it.
why ponder?
this is choosing your future man.

i really cannot express myself about this.
its not about whether you want or not.
its about the main point of it all.

we dont just invite people for numbers..
the numbers are the lives we are talking about.
numbers are just on the surface stuff.

i wish people knew.