Seed meeting and svc then Central C meeting after that today :D hahaha.
so eventful.

Anyway, Seed meeting was nice (:
Felt abit more motivated after that. Hahah.
Its really not a coincidence, their testimonies. Preplanned. Hoho (:

Uh huh, then at 2pm my heart suddenly dropped..
Then it rolled around the floor for a while, then i picked it back up again.
Hahaha. Really a bad moment.

Aarrghzzzz.
Sucks laa. K, nvm, i know i can i know i can i know i can i know i can!!!!!
Coz if things were easy all the time, who wouldn't be able to accomplish things right? :D

Sigh, anyway, today was pretty much okay other than that :D

Spent awhile with the fairfield girls after CC meeting.
Hahaha. They are really a crazy bunch laaa.
It just takes one to start some random stuff, and the rest to back them up.
Then okay already. Hahahaa.

Lizhen was damn funny.
She went and hold onto everyone saying " Yao bu yao bang bang lao ren ah."
Hahaha. In those kind of cracky voice and bent her body down like old man.

Hahaha. She did it like all the way from Dhoby Gaut to Centrepoint.
Well almost. Hahaha. And renting, kept running tiptoe.
Like some handicapped ballet person or smth. HAHA.
Oh nononono, like burglar those kind. Hahaha. Run on tippy toes.

Lol. Me and Clara kept laughing at them at the back.
And we thought Crescent was unglam! Hahaha. (its not a bad thing k!)

But it was fun though (:

After that went to meet my family at Vivo.
I find it weird that all those adults that are still in the past..
As in like, those not cool cool type.
Like to say Vivo as Viveo. HAHAH.

My dad does, and the cousin person.

Hahaha. k nvm.
Yeah went to eat at some italian restaurant.
Was quite good (:

Oh anyway, my dad had some accident.
He was driving the buggy from the passenger's seat, (no idea why)
then he drove up the slope and he was turning right.
(he was sitting on the right, drivers seat on the left)
so he couldnt really control it properly, then the buggy i think the wheels got caught in the drain or smth. hahha. then it overturned.

then he injured his neck and got cuts and stuff.
neck know wth. damn dangerous.

BUT, seriously, thank God that even thought the accident was serious,
the injuries were not.

really man, i was like. omg omg..
NECK eh NECK.
okay anot.

But yeah, but im really thankful that God had prevented further injuries and such.
I mean, the possibility of a more serious damage would be like 90% dont you think?
oh and the buggy overturned towards the side he was sitting on.

So it was a good thing he didnt get pinned down,
his neck got pressed down by a bar or smth.
damn scary.

so its like, ahhhhh thank God thank God.
Im gonna tell him that im gonna pray for his recovery somehow. hahaha.
(cmon let this be SMTH)

if you get what i mean..
ahhhh. Im really really charging up in faith level now.
through the two things that happened today.
(my heart dropping and this)

I really need to know that by my faith in you,
i dont even need to worry!

But i shouldn't worry (:
coz (clara and charmaine rmb?! :D)
its insulting. hohohoho.

Yea and through preventing this, it shows me smth,
that there is much more to his life to come.
he has much more things predestined for him to go through
and not just to go to waste like that so early.

i hope thats not too direct. lol.

But yeah, hmm, actually, is it some kind of warning?
That i should charge up on urgency too?
Its like threatening me. Haahah.

like, "look, see what happened today, i can make it end just like that, but im giving you one last chance."

okay its scary. hahahah.
Yeah, but in anyway, i hope that SOMEHOW, i'll be used by God.

jeremiah 33:3 (!!!!!!!!!)
(its ringing)

hahahha. alright, im really thankful.
oh yes! my bro brought his friend to svc today! :D
So proud of him. hahahha.

starting to see a change already.
thats damn wonderful. hahaha.
and i think im getting closer to him,
well he's getting closer to me.

he's like sleeping in my bed now... right behind me.
im at the foot of my bed. hahaha.

he just now just suddenly come and knock on my door and said these great words,
"ehhh, soccer very boringg.. i dont want, i want to listen radio leh, let me go in."

HAHAH. soccer, boring?
doesnt fit him anyway. hahaha.
no la, i think it was just that particular game my dad was watching.
lol. yeah then he come in and lie there like its his bed.

and he was smsing this girl and she said that there were 2 ppl chasing her now.
one sec 4 and one sec 1. (as in shes sec 1)

THEN YKNOW SHE SAID THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING.
okay to me it is anyway.

i asked him to ask her what's she gonna do abt it,
and she said that she'll try to like the sec 1 guy cos she never like him before.

im like W.T.H. ?!?!?!
is she dumb or stupid!
k sry if im being abit insulting. hahaha.

i just cant understand WHY she will TRY TO LIKE him if she doesnt even at the start.
(actually coz i think she's despo luh)
but other than that, at least go for someone she likes!

omg. young people nowadays. HAHAHA. k im still young k (:
argh, then the sec 4 is totally, PLAIN DESPO, DESPERADO, DESPERATE.

sec 1 leh cmon man!
she ought to be smarter.
hahaha. then i told my bro "WALAO. now ah, shouldnt have these kinda things one."

then he was like, "why?"

HAHAH. innocent, not guilty i hope.
but i think i didnt reply or smth luh.

im glad he's not those sort.. sigh.
go around "can i have your number? pls pls pls pretty please with a cherry on top."
okay of course they are not so gay one la. hahahha.

but its really irritating.
dont understand, really, dont understand.
k this is a really good time to share my thoughts.
mindset more like.

does being attached at such a young age give you experience to be a better mother or smth?
apparently i dont see it that way.
all i see is that,
you get tgt, you get dumped, you get emo, your studies die.

have you seen any married couple, that was bfgf at sec1 or p6 or sec sch even?
no i dont think so. at least JC one.
and mostly its through their WORK.

what are the privilleges of being in a bgr?
you get free cash, you get extra attention, you get to uh, hold hands/hug/kiss?, you get to show off that you're not single.. what else.. uh, you get to know secrets about that person..

hahaha. thats about all i can think of.

okay, those are good in a way.
but do you think they'll last forever?
free cash, what, endless atm? hahha. your bf/gf will soon accuse you of "getting tgt cos of $$."
getting extra attention is the one that kills.
haaha. not only attention from the partner,
but from the friends too.

like they might go "so how's things with your's? i and him are doing well babayye!"
HAHAH or smth like that. thats abit gross. lol.
then you got a person you call every night to burst your bills for you.
just wanting to hear the person's voice or to hear some sweetalk.

then when you feel sad, you'll naturally tell him first, so he'll be the first to know right,
then you'll go like "AW MAN, he's so sweet, he's the only one that knows when im sad."
then they'll start to say that "my friends dont care about me, they dont even know when im sad." kinda things, if let say one of the friends unknowingly said smth wrong.

i mean its quite true dont you think?

and i dont understand why the hugging and kissing and holding hands.
k holding hands not that bad, say aircon very cold uh, hold hand. hahahha.
hugging. aiya passable la. good friend good friend, 10 years never meet.
guy and girl, can hug what, so can la. hahaha.

but the other one... uhhh.
cmon man! first kiss like that throw away meh! hahaha.
people always say, first kisses are very special.

and i think its quite true eh.
aiya go picture yourself okay.

hahah. and you'd never know, you're giving your first kiss to this guy,
who planned to change gf every few months.
normally they act damn well from what i see.

so i really feel so sad for those ppl who get tgt with that guy for his pleasures.
i would feel so disgusting, and wasted, and impure and like a criminal.

hahaha like you have a record of ex-es.
its abit like "woah woah woah, this one this one, playgirl seh!"
(okay la playboy opposite playgirl luh. hahaha)

then next time you wouldn't like give your all to future relationships.
meaning the RIGHT time ones.
like the one that's gonna get you married.

coz you might have this mindset:
temporarily, gonna dump me soon, just getting tgt for my own loneliness.

smth liddat la.
and althought you really really really loveeeee him and he does too.
you wouldn't dare give your all, as much as your first relationship.
cos you dont want to get hurt again BUT you want the feeling of being in a bgr.

ironic la tell you.
be in bgr how to dont want get hurt.
unless its a totally for the "wrong things" kinda bgr.
then thats not even bgr -.-

thats,
Invasion of each other. hahaha.
okayokay let me get back on track!

sigh, i feel so sad for some people on earth and the things they are exposed to.
like some people when they go sec sch, like sec 1s those kind.
if they're pretty, they straight away kena targetted by seniors(GUYS).

then young and innocent.
see seniors all got boy with them at all times, they also want.
kena luh. then die alr lor from there.

hahaha. i mean, i saw on the magazine also,
there was this person who asked for advice or smth.
i cant rmb the qn exactly but this is about there.
she said, "is there really such a thing as platonic relationship with guys?"

i was like OMG WTH YOU ARE MY IDOL NUMBER 1 ALR NO NEED FIGHT.

hahaha. couldnt believe my eyes.
all the guys in the world are my bfs wooohooooo!

yeah thats why uh.
feel really sad for them. hahah.
but its hard to avoid liking people though.

cos at this age we are sort of supposed to be liking people!
hahaha. the LOVE age.
quite cool. lol.

oh i suddenly rmb i quote from daniel. hahahah.

"its not possible to not like people, because now all your hormones are raging i know, but its possible to CONTROL them."

i think its really true.
that one has no argument. hahah.
only you can control yourself right?

no one else will.

oh wellllll.
dont know what to say.
i just told my brother in the end "better bring her to church."

HAHAHA.
then he was like "oh yea! yeah yeah okay."

hahaha. not saying that once you come church you are totally BANNED from bgr.
but its the process of how you come to know God and etcetra,
THEN, it'll be your own decision that you dont want bgr instead of the church forcing you.

Damn misconception.

ah well. hahah.
OHYES. better not forget.
the whole post above is not in relation to anyone at all, its what i feel.
so dont feel offended alright (:
all the best to you and your other half, if you have an other half, though!

if anyone feels angry after reading this post,
it is just you and your guilty conscience,
and if you see no just in what i say, feel free to express. (:

Thankyouverymuch.
oh yes, and thankyoulord.
really really thanks.
truly grateful. hahaha.
nice topic for a testimony too (: