for some reason, the topic sam blogs about is always quite similar to what i intend to blog about.

so yeah. now i know what i wanted to write about already.
hahahah. im such a lazy person. tsk.

so i'll be like having her blog in another tab, then blogger in the other. hahaha.
then when i forget, i refer, then OHYEAH!. continue continue..
okay. so.

got back results.
omg sucks like wthhhh.
okay. nvm.

skip that.
these few days were really like some emotional roller coaster.
quite a few people cried. and some were sad but after that mad and happy.
like mood swing days or smth.

not entirely cos of results also.
and sam tan, not muscle girl k. if i am you x10000 already. hahah.
i was on the verge of tears luh.
looking at it, its like so pitiful those kind.
and you cant help but to excess your water.

but i thought that it wouldnt help much.
like, if you were sad.
then people all around you start to turn soppy, sit beside you and cry together.

wouldnt you feel even more pathetic and sad?
like woohoo, the world suddenly turned black.
even my happy friends are emo now.

yes right?

i think it feels more encouraging to see people trying to encourage you and help you,
with a happy smile, cheerful heart.
then you'll feel like, happier?
in a way luh. like they're telling you to look on the bright side by showing how.
then you'll feel like there's HOPE. ahahah.
not like there isnt but you get what i mean yeah.

sighsigh, im worrieddd.
i dont know what'll happen.
it seems damn serious.
hopefully everything'll get better and improve.
yes i believe it will. but i cant say much cos i dont know like the causes..

like how and why it happened and stuff.
but im sure that if God made this happen.
he is sure that you'll be able to overcome it.
why would he give you things too much for you to handle right?

but even if it is so, i'll still keep you in prayers yea?
sitting back and watching wont help much.
God bless. (:

anyway,
im glad that you talked to me about it (:
i dont know but it feels good when you know people trust you and stuff.
i kinda understand how you feel.
cos i sorta been through the same too.

i realised that, what you feel about something, impacts alot on what you believe abt it.
even if it isnt that true.
okay that was kinda hard to picture.
uhhh..

i dont know what kinda examples.
argh. thats why my thoughts are unable to be voiced out.
people will think that im talking rubbish cos my examples are bad. hahah.
then in the end it will seem like im just some dont know what person who thinks weird.
but most of the time, i am quite accurate k.
and i only know one person who thinks like me.
or at least around there. :D (which is a good thing)

but anyway, for your case.
you gotta know that its sorta like a phase in life.
people will experience it.
at first i thought that, omg am i really so in need of whoever.
then i also felt the same hollowness.

but then i tried to ignore it and not think about it any longer and just continue on.
cos like, the more i think about the past, the more i will feel more and more shitty.
then i realised that its cause im like "addicted" to it thats why i feel this way.
needing it too much.

Gosh, this is kinda eew, but past is past. hahaha. so you better shutup.

but soon i broke the boundaries it caused.
like i didnt feel anything about that anymore.
it isnt that hard really.
you may find it is, so the harder you should try to break free.

and plus, yours you know it will never be able to happen in the future.
like its not practical and such.
so you're fretting over it now right, i doubt you'll be doing the same in the future.

so wouldn't it be better to break from it now
knowing that you will do so sooner or later.
if you do so later,
you will feel the sense of insecurity and fear all those for a longer period of time.
then it like spoils your life and everything.

so since mine has definitely more reasons for me to be super emo over it,
(i can list it for you if you want k! hahha)
and im able to overcome it, why cant you?
its all about what you think actually.
really.
know which is right and stand firm.

oh yeah, to help right,
you can use this point as a positive kinda point.

there are so many people in the world. would you be so lucky as to meet the one you think is the best one of all? the one able to make you happy and click very well with. the probability is like 1 in dont know how many millions right? so just see it in the point of view that that person is not that good, just that your other friends do not click as well as that person does and stuff. that person just appears to click well with you the best amongst all your other friends only.
(note only means that you didnt count the rest of the world yet.)

omg look. another not so good example.
(not so good when compared to what my brain thought luh)
but what my brain thought is this example!!
argh the irony.

okay lets just say that im bad with words. hahaha.
or that my brain functions too well.
too well that i cant be described. omg indescribable. hahaha.

yay i love my brain for that only.
lol. stupid, it gives me so low marks. shit head. hahahaha.
okay no no no. it cant be a shit head, cos its filled with brains.

HAHA means the brain is the shit.
okay i should shuttup.
see what i mean..

anyway, yeah. so those things aren't worth tears.
the price to pay is just those few empty feelings and some sadness, willingness to let go.
once you've paid the price(those said above),
you'll be back to normal again. really really. hahaha.

you dont trust experience!!? i dont know how already.
but you must just keep holding strong to God and know which are the things that is right in his words.
and rmb all his promises and assurances.

they are a great help i tell you. hahaha.
motivational source.

oh yes, and dont drop the two of them.
even if you think you cant.
i think it's good to keep in mind this statement: God gives you tests for you to grow.
so that you know that whenever you face any troubles, its time for exams again (:
and that after the exams, you'll be smarter and stronger in that area.
plus, you can be a piece of advice to another person taking the same test.

if you think you cant make it, then try harder to make it.
like take away what you think is affecting you.
same as taking away your tablet during exams and start studying hard.

if you drop them, its the same as failing the test and retaining at where you are.
cos you didnt learn anything new and grow what.
you just left the exam hall without trying.

God won't give you problems you cant solve.
im sure you've heard of this too right. hahah.
i think its like my favourite sentence or smth already.
very applicable everytime.
okay im more or less done. i think i didnt miss out any part?
my memory is damn bad.
people can testify. eg julian. haha.

yup, and right, the best thing that can happen now at 2.28am on a monday morning,
is this person not knowing that i am actually referring to him/her (!!!)