oh man..
okay first.
can you dont be so negative,
you don't have to kill youself just because of some small thing y'know.
seriously.
you have lived for so long & just because of this you wanna die?
abit not worth right.
just look on the bright side man (:
you will always have another way out.
you said people needs two hands to clap, and you only have one.
well, not only you.
there are so many people out there like this.
i mean,
the hand is just a small part of you, do not waste your life just because of that..
you still are able to survive a whole life without a hand,
if you're forever gonna dwell in this darkness, you're never gonna be happy.
and besides,
you are still young, with many years to come.
things can still wait. the time will come eventually.
its a test of your patience (:
although you say that you really treasure this.
but there may be others that you will treasure MORE.
dont just do it because everyone else does.
it'll affect you like it already has.
if you had continued,
it would've been much worse.
so be glad that it happened earlier.
whats meant to be, is meant to be alright?
yeah. keep looking on the bright side(:
and let nothing affect your self-esteem or your dreams and everything.
even though you think that it will be hard to pretend nothing happened,
you have to stay strong like how you were
and live it through (:
God gives us troubles for us to depend on him to help us live it through,
and he will help us to get past it when we look to him,
or else you will feel more stressed.
he won't give us problems that we cant overcome right?
that'll be like killing us.
in the first place he gave us problems to ensure that our faith in him stays.
and remember as well, God NEVER shortchanges us.
when you trust in him you are sure that he will change your life.
im sure you heard that before right.
so yup (:
PLEASE ah, return to your normal self.
and dont be so depressed.
okayyyyy?



Consuming Fire

There must be more than this
O breath of God
come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray

Consuming fire fan into flame
A passion for Your Name
Spirit of God
would You fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us

Come like a rushing wind
Clothe us with Power from on high
Now set the captives free
Leave us abandoned to Your Praise
Lord let Your Glory fall
Lord let Your Glory fall

Stir it up in our hearts Lord (x3)
A passion for Your Name

even your favourite song is saying it.
"there must be more than this"
"Lord have your way with us"
"clothe us with power from on high"

let me quote more..
" you hold me now, in your arms and never let me go.." - better than life.
" you pick me up when i am down and on my own" - never let me go.
" whenever i cry out you hear me, whenever i fall down you hold me" - never let me go
"jesus i, believe in you, and i will go, to the ends of the earth" - to the ends of the earth.

ends of the earth, so, no dying please.
"saviour, he can move the mountains" -might to save.

so yeah, jiayou!
what do you have to lose ? (:

ohmygawd, its so long. heh didnt realise.