supremityofmine

2010-07-03T00:40:00.001+08:00

Woots.

Another post here in such a long time. Kinda miss blogger :S
Anyhowwwwww.

Toodles ;D

2009-09-27T02:03:00.003+08:00

Moving over to wordpress... For idk how long..

Don't like the smallness of my font hahah.

Click here!

2009-09-25T00:56:00.003+08:00

Pretty scared for O's now. Like seriously.

Lol sad to say, the fact that I　might not be able to get 6 points suddenly dawned on me!! (i know, wth right hahaha)(but eh, cmon, high achiever okay! (or trying to act at least))
It's almost as if I was living in illusion the whole time...

Gosh.

SS, Lit, Eng, Phy, Chem, Chinese.... Arghhh.

These are gonna kill me man.
Meh heh...

Okay, tmr gonna get back Phy and Chem and Egeog and Chinese.
Im scared for my L1R5 ):

Cleo Cleo Cleo Cleo please study harder!!!
Slacker Cleo sleep, Hardworking Cleo emerge!!!!

I'll fill in the gap for them after O's

2009-09-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

Ready for some thinking???

Sigh, it's really amazing what emotions can do to you, right?

It can make you feel like you can overcome anything - srsly anything - as long as you tried.
It can also make you feel like anything you try would fail and has been failing..

And it's also amazing how the devil knows how to manipulate your feelings to deceive you into believing all those emotions of yours. (which are actually, most of the time, false.)
Idk what happened, but I lost my principle of "principles over feelings" (which kinda appeared on my msn nick for quite a period of time last time).

Well not really lost, but it doesnt play the biggest role in my life now. (not that i chose it this way, more like other choices overlapped it)
Rather, I think now emotions and feelings get the better of me. (it sucks srsly)

One moment im like so optimistic & jovial & wanna do everything!
Then, when something disturbs or makes me disappointed or smth, all the optimism that seemed so realistic then becomes impossibility.

I'm like, how in the world did that optimism and drive come and go so quickly??? (& then, awww..wish you were here...) nah kidding not so gay, but argh.

But i now realised, that the devil has very cleverly & subtly manipulated my not-so-worded brain and made me turn the focus to the not so important things. (mainly feelings)
Slowly & very slowly, he shifted my focus onto these things and showed me 'light' into being able to sense the slightest of atmospheric dryness or things like that.

& using the fact that i am not worded in God enough to fight these thoughts, he magnifies them and shoves it in my face. (which makes life difficult and very uncomfortable)

I feel like Laura (from GM) now wtheck. Haha.

But anw, now i know better.
Get yourself worded in God, & back everything up with a verse.
I'm serious. Seriously, serious.

Doing that now, to bring myself back up to competency.
It's hard though, considering the fact that im one who learns ways and methods through watching..(well ain't everyone, actually?)

So when certain behaviour or actions suddenly doesnt seem consistent, i am affected cos in a way, my 'principles' are affected.
because when i see things and derive people's principles by how they do things & they are good & right, they naturally add to my principle/methods bank (in my brain la of course).

So when the person suddenly doesnt follow the principle that has been evident (to me at least) for so long, i feel like im cheated & that what i've been following or doing hasn't been right all along.

Well okay this 2 paragraphs above is just drawing out a strand of my thoughts.
It's a subtle one that I dont really Think about, it just forms in my head..(those kind.. yknow what i mean?)

But now im drawing it out to focus on it & just clear all flaws & also to better understand how 'Cleo' works. hahah.

Well, actually, can anyone identify with me?

Actually, it affects me, not directly like how i would continue to function and everything but it just makes me feel very very uncomfortable when the source of that principle is opposed by the source himself/herself.

It's like "Dude! I was learning from you! & now you're doing the opposite?? So all along has it been the right thing or not?"

Okay, so this is my 1 train of thought.
I think it's rather confusing.

But i think it does make sense.
Sorry if I left you starry-eyed after reading this long chunk of things that you couldnt make out..

But anyway, i'm off to do QT!
If you can identify w me pls tell me hahaha (& tell me "you are not alone..")

Oh goodness, that song during the MJ concert kept playing in my head when i was having SS prelims & the image of the woman hugging MJ kinda scares me..

Ok if you dont know what im talking abt, its MJ's concert. (dunno which one haha)

2009-08-29T01:07:00.002+08:00

Today, I had suuuper bad cramps :<
It started from like 2+,3, then at 4+,5 it was at its peakesttt (hurt like some torture scenes from SAW).
And the best part was, we were supposed to have CG today at 4!):

In the bus on the way to commonwealth, I was turning white, like srsly, pale.
Then I was hugging my bag and crouching (what's the word?) in pain & I kept shifting about to find a neutral position..
Omg I bet the contractions were like 760 mmHg or smth, atmospheric pressure man. (Eh i just saw on wiki, its measurable haha)

We reached commonwealth and I had to go to the toilet, so zuoz suggested Koufu.
So we went in and the toilet was full (& stinky too)!

But they were all v nice people and trying to help, like "put down your bag", "sit down and rest first", "drink some soup..." hahaha.
They were damn cute.

I know my face was like some emoticon, but dont mind me, I was actually smiling inside hahah.
Ok, maybe inside inside. (x2)
Inside(x1) pain like what liddat.

Yeah but anw, they sat me down at one of the tables and I was like squirming from the inside out. Well not that exaggeratingly, but somewhat like that.
Fidgety and everything. They were the nicest people in the world!!

Haha (w no order) thanks Zuoen for trying to help me ease my pain by giving me tips to hug my bag etc haha, wanting to help carry my bag, supporting me while walking, buying toilet paper for me (can you believe it?! toilet paper, the toilet roll kind, is to be bought at 10c! come on man..) & buying pills w char!
Clara, for getting me the hot water from the aunty at 20c, twice.
Charmaine, for being so serving & getting pills for me from idk where!
Jessie, for being my support (physically) and actually held my hand all the way while i slept! Haha i didnt realise lolol.

For everyone for just being there and like, idk man, just helping me w everything even though you couldnt feel the pain i was feeling (:

Hahah, sorry guys we couldnt have cg today ):
What an irony haha, your CL spoiled cg lolol.

But really, they've just brought me back to life & motivated me to do even more.
Haha when I see how these people just so willingly sit and just talk while I slept [& that we didnt have cg in the end (ah i really feel bad over this!)] made me feel so loved and thankful to be in CC4! (:

Haha it changed my perception of things (why didnt yall tell me you were actually so loving people?!) hahah and made me love them more more more (:

Hahah, if it was me, I dont know how i'd have reacted too.. But I really think what they did was an awesome breakthrough & it surely was a new experience to me (:

But I think this cg was the best planned one.
God himself planned it(: Theme, love <3 haha.
& he sure answered my prayers by using me :S and teaching me how to love.
It was still semi formal & everyone had a role too!
I was the agenda, in this case hahaha.

So yay! Thank God for today's CG, it really spoke to me a lot and i did learn from it as well (:
It was:
1) practical
2) brings out the point: "spirit is caught, not taught"
3) had abit of element of fun i guess? (lol what did yall talk about man!)

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it is not self-seekingm it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ... It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Hahah i think we managed to cover a few aspects of love today!!! (:
Yay good job, yall! Hahah.

Thanks again CC4 (:
When mother nature calls, we know it's father nature who called her.
(Sigh sigh haha)

2009-08-13T01:23:00.004+08:00

The Story of the Lost Sheep (dramatized)

Then Jesus told them this parable: "Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.'

God just reminded me of the shepherd and the one lost sheep – the shepherd, knowing that the sheep was lost, left the 99 others and went to look for that one missing sheep.

Even though it was only one sheep, that one sheep mattered a lot to him as well. Thus he didn’t want to miss him out. He was willing to go out to find him despite knowing that he may not find him ever again. He gave his energy and strength and efforts to bring that sheep back to where he belonged. He knew the struggles and fatigue he has to go through in order to find this sheep, but he couldn’t bear to leave him. After all, it was his sheep and it had grown up under him. With the victory over the last conflicting thought, the shepherd took his rod and staff, waterbottle and a little sheep nip if he managed to find him, and set out on his search for the lost soul.

Well and from the sheep’s point of view, the sheep didn’t even know he was heading for danger. Or perhaps ignorance and curiosity got the better of him. He just walked and walked and walked. Well soon enough, a mishap did happen. The sheep had a terrible fall, stumbling into the edge of a hanging cliff as the ground he trod on broke loose and gave way. And at this point of time, the sheep must have been extremely afraid, frightened and terrified, hoping that he shouldn’t have done all those and starts to curse and swear at himself for being such a dimwit for not listening to the shepherd. He just hopes and hopes that the shepherd hopefully will come and save him. But after all the disobedience, would the shepherd come? It was hard to say.

But alas, the shepherd did come! And the sheep is really touched and amazed. The shepherd looks at the sheep with such love and compassion that his rod and staff didn’t even appear! The sheep was teary-eyed. The shepherd then walked over to the sheep which could have very well fallen off the cliff if not for a loose branch lodged between him and the oh-so still air beneath. The shepherd’s shadow loomed over the fearful one and the sheep watched the shepherd with such anticipation. Is he going to push me over? Is he going to kick me like a ball? Is he going to reprimand me for not listening?

Is he going to save me?

The tension of the moment came, as the shepherd reached out his hands towards the sheep, with fear and trembling, the sheep felt the warmth of the shepherd’s hands under his belly. At that moment, he knew and knew all too well, that the shepherd was his hero.
The shepherd pulled him in to safety and dusted away the twigs and leaves that got caught on the sheep’s fur. Then, with all gentleness and TLC, he prepped the sheep on his shoulders, making sure it was comfortable and not in any form of pain. As he walked, he caressed the sheep, talking to him as he did. “Dear little one, why were you so silly as to wander off on your own? The whole flock’s worried sick about you! But there there, you’re alright now. I will nurse your little wound there as soon as we get back.”
“Mehh,” the sheep replied in a soft voice, knowing that his shepherd loved him even more than he did himself. He was safe in his arms, in his warm embrace.

The sheep felt so loved, so cared for, so special, that nothing could ever replace this feeling in his life. This very small act that his shepherd had done, touched him deep down under and it will never be forgotten, ever. Any thought of leaving the flock vanished from his mind because he knew that in this special flock, there was this shepherd who loved him too much. The shepherd who truly cared for him and there was no one else out there that he could find that could ever replace this shepherd, this love in his heart.

It just makes me think about how I've been a good shepherd to those around me.
Do I go all out for them? Do I treasure them the way He does?
Can I comfortably say that, yes, I've impacted someone in this way, so much so that a life changes?

2009-08-07T23:45:00.003+08:00

I love 4G3!!! (:

(esp the joy in this picture!)

Happy National Day y'all!

To love - genuinely
To serve - w perseverance
To grow - consistently
To mirror Him - photocopyingly

(:

I cannot risk getting my path messed up and vision blurred.
Really.

2009-07-28T00:15:00.002+08:00

A few things I need haha: (aka you could get these things for my belated bday HAHA)

Personal growth needs:

- BOOKS!!!! (dang, im under-reading. jeya scolded me for aiming A1 for O's now i know why hahah)
If anyone has a good read, pls share!!!!
(I know many of your closet bookworms are out there, stop hiding pleaseee)

Well I dont prefer anything, as long as the english is good and its not a bimbo book with no substance haha, anything would be fine (:

Then the next kinda books would be those from:
John C. Maxwell, Joyce Meyer, Lee Strobel etc etc.

I am currently interested in books abt thoughts, people growth, improving skills, motivational... etc?
I dont know what else is available ):

Currently I have with me (borrowed):
The 21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership - John C. Maxwell
Developing the Leader Within You - John C. Maxwell
Winning With People - John C. Maxwell

Haha well I think his books are popular, huh?

Hmm, yep yep! (: I think I should start reading more now.
Otherwise I'll be forever stuck at this stage of growth and also at the mark of 21/30 for all my essays ):

So if you do find any good reads or know of any, do let me know!
(oh, by the way, recently i saw that borders had 20% on all John C. Maxwell's books.. Do you think you could go check it out?)

Well, it'd make a good and useful bday present (:

ok moving on,
Non-Personal growth needs:
- New backpack
- New pencil case
- New pens hahaha

Lastly,

I am thinking of selling my Nikon D40x!
Not sure how much yet, but if you're interested, do let me know! (:
Selling price will be nowhere near cost price so, fret not.

Okay, just a quick one ^^

Thank you all you peeps for making my bday a great one (:
Thanks for all the smses and wishes!!!
(I saved them in a folder in my phone teehee)

It was really touching cuz many messages came from people whom I hadn't been in contact with for quite long (and to think they still rmb!!! awww..), even though they prolly had facebook reminders and all, but nah, doesnt matter.

And I felt so happy cos I had contact with people I didnt talk to for so long again!
One of my friends owed me macs since sec 1 when it was my bday hahaha.

Thanks CC and those who planned (im guessing CC4 and some others?) the entire amazing race I had around meridien. I bet around 2-3 rounds..
Hahah even though yes.. At the end my hair became permed and I almost touched someone wrongly when I was blindfolded (!!), it was fun walking around HAHA.

Firstly cos I couldnt see anyone (so that's pretty much self denial)
and secondly cos 'random' people said happy birthday! (:
thridly, the deception that took place during the whole week (or at least on saturday, huh char & hua?) HAHA.
Well charmaine cant lie well, but thats good (:

and lastly, the beautiful cake the clara had made. the design improved from last year man! good job!!! (: (will post pictures when i have time HAHA)
plus the cards (and the initiative behind it) from some people i dont really know very well.. thanks!! (:

ohohoh! and feli! HAHA for holding the blindfold stuck to my head the entire journey (or at least i think so?)
I was wearing heels so her arms wouldve died i think, but idk what happened hahaha.

YAY so thanks peeps!!(:

[this is a brief one so i just recalled the things i can rmb, which mostly are the funny, touching or embarrassing stuffs ^^]

Anw, about birthdays. I went for Mx's bday party and I felt inspired hahaha.
That birthdays should NOT be celebrated for the sake of it, really.
A real celebration that is genuine would show. (like how you really love the person so)
So like, during her bday, she booked this restaurant/cafe place and invited friends.

The nice part about the whole celebration was that her friends had prepared an 'item' to perform for her.
there was guitar & singing, dancing to a song just for her x 2 and sorta a game played at the start & it was funny and fun.(the guess who's secret? game)

Yeah, the whole thing was enjoyable la, even though her guests didnt know each other.
We all bonded coz of her. Haha.
Idk, I felt it was sincere and the people who prepared the item did it out of their own accord and didnt have other people to direct them as to what to do.

This i find many times happening in the unit or the cg.
People do what they are allocated to do and nothing else.
We do it for the sake of it & not because we really love the bday girl and wanna make it the bestest day in her life..
Which is kinda sad luh, cos after the whole celebration,everyone just absorbs into their own world again and do their own things.

To me, if you really wanna celebrate a persons bday, do it well and to your best.
Celebrate, celebrate the whole time you're with her and not just during the "bday celebration" time, if you get what i mean. Haha.

If every bday was like that, it would be such a nice and enjoyable sight to see & occasion to celebrate, dont you think? :>

Oh well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ART! I hope you enjoyed your day today!!! (:

2009-07-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

i dont understand..

feel extremely dead and irritated. haha.
wish God would just tell me now whats wrong & how to solve it then can move on with life.

many a times we need to take a step back, and then look on our own lives from Gods pov.
then we wont speak rashly, we wont be too quick to judge, we wont fall into things so easily, we will start to learn, start to grow.

and when we grow, we are going to be caught up again in getting our imperfect lives right, and thats where we focus too much on something that we start to miss out on God and His plan. then again we got to take a step back and look at our lives and reflect.

but actually, i think reflecting is something that should be done daily.
it should kinda be a subconscious thing that you dont even realise you were reflecting.
thats helping yourself grow and learn.

you dont need extended hours with your shpd, leader etc sparing thoughts and talking,
you need extended hours with God having constructive conversations, and then perhaps a day or two with your shpd of deep sharing and learning.

because people wont be there for you forever, only God will.
if all is stripped away, no ones gonna be here with you, only Him.

so we all gotta learn to find enjoyment and security in His presence.
not for His sake, but for our own sake. (well then after that, for His sake]

hate the sin, love the sinner.
this is the hardest thing ive been going through.

haha well, price paid for love was high, of course it takes alot to earn the ability to love. thats why the world is in the mess its in now aint it?

2009-06-20T03:38:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIIIIIIIII!!!!!!

Hope you had a good 16th {: I enjoyed your 16th though hahahha yay cya tmrz!

Some sneak previews ^^

Ma'am Stamford Raffles!

Really got super alot of photos, wait patiently ah people, patience is a virtue (:

2009-06-17T10:22:00.002+08:00

I need to/want to start studying!!!!!
I seriously cant stand doing nothing leh i realised.

Haha I totally slacked my whole day away (?!) yst doing NOTHING seriously nothing,
and I kept falling asleep ):

Mehhhh stupid stupid.

But I was talking to jolee yst night haha just felt like calling her, then it kinda rubbed off some enthusiasticness, from my sianness so I felt quite good after that (:

Hahah ok im gonna do smth more productive now.

CHAO.

2009-06-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

GOD I AM ____　ＳＣＡＲＥＤＤＤＤＤ．
I DONT KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE LOL COS EVERY WORD THAT COMES SOUNDS KINDA CRUDE.

Anyway, we had a pretty good cg today (:

Besides the fact that there were like 100000 people in istana park itself, having a lunch break from their amazing race(?)

But ah, Goddddd Unstoppable camp is in like 2 days time!!!

I dont know how are things gonna be, but I really can feel GPE coming hahaha.
(like yknow, GPE is like stored energy, which on the days of camp will then convert to KE)

Yeah man, this is how its like. I think the CLM prayermeet was really good, like the kickstart.
What I really needed man (:

Ah God, I'm so sorry that I'm so .. ill-disciplined to be here using com when I SHOULD BE STUDYING/ PREPARING FOR CAMP but ahhhh, i dont know laaa.

Anyway, I really believe that God is gonna do smthhhh in us (:
I'm seriously just expecting alot alot, my myes are in two weeks, i havent done much..
And the time I spend on preparation for this may seem ridiculous to some, but really,
results are just results, it's just paper man.

I wouldn't miss this life-changing experience and this chance of really having my whole life directed, refreshed, renewed, and changed, for my exams.

As much as I am super scared and uncertain of everything single thing, one thing im most sure of is camp.
And since that's a confirmed (Y) thing, then that's where I'm heading.

Regardless of whatever advantages/disadvantages comes in the midst of it, I'm gonna have to take it, coz my eyes are set on something that's above all.

But I'm still very scared about everything haha like,
Dont know if I can stay full time,
NOT PREPARED at all for MYES (2 weeks time)
Not exactly prepared for camp (like not sui sui enough)
Still struggling with discipline.. (which is very bad, cos it is needed in many other things!)

So I'm like neither here nor there.

I really dont know whats next, but like what I read, as I keep trusting, I keep fighting.
Though I still dont know what's wrong about doing it the other way round.

Haha I'll ask God ahaha :D

Alright, seeeyazzz
CG identity tmr yayyyy!! :D
We're gonna pwn \m/

2009-05-09T00:35:00.004+08:00

From film camera,

dk reminds me of hello kitty here ^^

Sigh.. Time's passing too quickly, I feel out of the world..
4 months coming 5 months have passed, and it's almost half the year gone already!
What have I achieved so far?????
I look back and I'm sad to say, I dont know!

Well maybe I do have things that I achieved, but things that are real I mean,
not like, winning competitions etc...

Gah, how could I have let so much time pass w/o knowing!
And why doesnt anyone do anything about it!! I don't believe everyone is just as busy?!

I didnt even realize the amount of time that has just passed, 4 months is alot ok!
Danggggg. I think I really hate stagnancy (?)..

But yes, I've been managing rather fine (in sch), keeping on par with my work, learning, working, learning, working, chionging..

I've been progressing, but I feel as if I haven't been growing at all.
It's like.. I'm stagnant at where I am, wanting to move, ready to move, but not moving.
These things may be the cause of it yknow. Holding me back. But they shouldn't be.. ):

I was looking through my cousins facebook (he's like primary 3 or smth), he migrated to australia uh.
So the pictures were photos of like, outings, camel rides, kayaking, doing fun stuff..
And I realise, man, I've actually lost that part of me.

Haha the part that keeps me in touch with the world. Not self-submerged into studies..
Well not that I hate studying, I find that I'm getting better at it more and more ;) (studying I mean, not studies)

Just that, I need a change!!!
Change in something, I dont know what!

It's frustrating man.

Ok let's see,
CG - def needs a change
me - def def def need a change
family - we sure could use one
school - nothing else can change can it?
friends - dont exactly need a change of friends, but probably a change in the r/ships

I feel too... bored and empty.
But I dont know what to do either..

I think I need a change in everything srsly.
My entire life and environment etc etc.

Yknow my dad was talking about sending my bros to Aussie to study, and I suddenly, very automatically and naturally found myself being brought into the topic.

He said I could go along too!

Haha didnt think much of it, just that it'd be kinda cool ^^

But then, just a while ago, my neighbour was talking to me about studies overseas, how it would be like, what kinda courses I would be doing if i went there, the kind of study environment, the benefits there and stuff.

I was super interested!!
Hahah I even searched the web for the universities there.
I think I would go and ask around more about studies overseas and see what I should do.

If I were to leave for Australia, my life would change from this period of time.
Hehheh, I know we're not supposed to do things based on things like these, but ah I dont know, it motivates me to do more heh.

Then again, I'm not really sure about where I am supposed to go after O's ):

I mean yeah.. I have my choices like typical people do. But so..?
These may not be the best plan for me too.

I forsee myself dying in Singapore due to the boredom of it.
I cannot imagine what I would be like going through JC and then Uni in Singapore.
Well, I think I can.. it would be just like now I suppose, perhaps magnified effects.

It's not the stress, or the amount of work. Or at least I think so now.

Because those things, I realised, I'm growing to become more immune to the after-effects of it haha.

Ahhh.. I dont know.

Then in australia, if I go over, I would be staying with my aunt and her family.
She and her husband are pastors, it would be so cool!

Then in school, I'd have to make new friends, hopefully people I can clique with even with Singaporean english haha.

But ah, what's all these w/o a purpose inside me.

Okay, I'm going to ponder over this further and pray abt it.

Oh yes, I MISS YDANCE!!!!!
Argh stupid exams i hate euux to the max!

PS. I gotta do smth about my room or smth! It is a really bad QT location >:(

2009-04-25T21:38:00.009+08:00

NATIONAL CANOEING COMPETITION 2009!
Photos are up!!

Finally. Haha I took super long to upload them luh.
But I think they're so nice!! (:

Sam's polaroid.
Neoprint machine, our tradition every year hahah.
HAHA KISSY FACE. Sarah thought we said KC face lol!

We were trying to take a nice picture aft all the races, and it was quite embarrassing..
Cos we were on the pontoon while everyone else was on shore..

Hahaha sam tan going down for her race.

O lvl inspiration, anyone?
Zanita!
Ahhh I love the colours here! :D
Hahah the world through another perspective.

I like how the water and the sky look, plus the many people add to the colour!
Right after the K4 race.

The ending part of the race!! Thrill thrill!

Oooo i like :D So nice how everything can be squeezed in one photo.

Hahah walao this guy sit there, as if he's mocking me liddat. (camera so biggg)

"Crescent crescent!"

Nice white fluffy clouds (:

Omg I love this picture man! Like *boom* we're proud to be Crescentians!
Sec 4!
Hahaha deborah reaching out babeh!

Capsize! :O

Teeheee, lazy to type much.
Needa go do alot of things already,

Byebyebye!

2009-04-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

I realised, I should stop looking for answers here and there - in books, quotes, internet, peoples thoughts etc.
Though they may be good or insightful they'll never be what was intended for me.

Through all these, it all boils down to what was first close to my heart, just look to Him and Him alone. In Him, all questions are answered, all problems are solved.

Even though we knew it since the first day we converted, we always lose sight of it along the way, and it really is a pity and a waste of time, going round and round in search for an answer when all along the answer is right under your nose.

It's just like forgetting your roots, but in this case, ignoring your roots. & I'm sure many of us have fallen into that as we enter this vast and highly intellectual world where most people get their answers through logic or theories..

But actually, the only theory we ever need in our life, is the Bible and its words.

What other things can compare?

Nothing, really.. Nothing..

Anyway, that just came to me and I regurgitated it out like diarrhea hahhaa (mr tham taught us that about ss today)

Well anyway, my bro showed me this movie on his iphone and suprisingly I got hooked and continued watching till the end. (this is rare cos.. idk its just rare)

Shan't reveal the movie just as yet, you guys will know after this friday after my CG :D

Anw, I learnt so much through the movie even though it was just some thriller/random movie.

And I found it quite cool too, cos my bro had a revelation through a movie too when I read his blog just now! hahaha so cool man (:

I thought I would be the only one (between both of us) but nope, he did too. yay im happy for us haha.

Cya folks!

2009-04-11T10:12:00.003+08:00

YAY FRIDAY'S EASTER PARTY WAS SO SO SO GOOD!! (:

To all who didn't come:
If I didnt invite you, I'm sorry ):
But to those who couldn't, so wasted kkkk!! It was fun ttm, and literally GOOD FRIDAY! :D

Luckily we decided to sit near the stage area, cos it rained, so we went to sit at the stage!
Then we spent the rest of our day on the stage haha.

We played the balloon game, must step on everyone's balloon and be the last one left :D

I forgot who was the last one standing haha. But I know it was team jessie lol. (we're team james, tgt we're team rocket!)

Then we played captains ball with cabbage!! Haha sadly no pictures of those though ):
The cabbage made a scene I tell you hahah. Retarded thing.

It flew around, breaking into pieces and splattering when people caught it.

In the end, we were only left with the stalk of the cabbage as the ball hehheh.
But it was super funny seeing that green thing flying around.
And the other people on stage were watching us as if we were performing or something hahah.

But we were so into the game that we didnt even notice them until after quite some time.
Ohwells :D

Then we played the fruit game thingy hahah.
Must squash all the fruits tgt in one plastic.
Then the team that wants to win, must squash AND drink!

So I thought we could win, and I went to drink..
It was a mixture of bananas, tomatoes, watermelon.. lol. Luckily no kiwi.
The tomato was piercing I tell you. So grosssss.

But anyway, team jessie won again :/

Hahah. But nvm!
We did alot of retarded stuffs :D There was the donut game too hahah.
Supposed to eat the donut w/o using your hands!! :D

I think this game our team won HAHA YAY! :D

But I didnt dare play, cos I really..... found it kinda puke-inducing..
Heh all the passers-by slowed down to watch our donut game, cos it's quite retarded hahaha.

But we didnt realize too hahah I bet they just wanna join us lor.
Hahah yeah man peektures!! :D

Really thank God that this party was a success (:
The other friends that came were all super fun and sporting luh!! (:
Good job CC4, good job all those who did planning (teehee, must grow in being more choleric HAHA), good job all those who were faithful with their own piece of work!

Because everyone of you did your small part, it added tgt and made the WHOLE thing a success!!! :D

Yayyyyz, thank God for good friday and it for being so so so good!!

2009-04-03T23:06:00.002+08:00

Yo homieezz!!~

Haha I just read my past posts and I actually feel blessed reading them :/
Stupid noob haha.

I guess it's cos I have so little time to blog, so when I actually DO blog, it's substance stuff babeh ^^

But wtv, I think God has been really good to me these past few days.
Thanks for the 2x a week morning prayermeets (:
I have really gained so much from it man.
And I think we're improving tgt as a CG in terms of the worship atmosphere, good job yall!
Also, thanks for those people who are always on time/early (:

I ought to be stoned :/ I CANNOT wake up one!!!!! ):

But nvm, luckily they didn't stone me.

Haha also, thank God for the friends that I've gotten closer to over the past few days!(Loi, Sarah. P, Chuxuan, Lisa Tan)
Haha you may say that it's just a 'friend thing' that you get to make friends, but I really am grateful for friends that are placed into my life.
Even though sometimes it may be hard to like someone as how they are, but yknow.. everyone has their imperfections.. so its okay :D

Thank God for being there!!
Been able to feel him more now (:

So anyway, school has been... fair.

Even though I have an emath test next tues on 17 topics.. It's crazy I tell you.
They only told us on thurs!!!

I feel so blank. Nothings running through my mind..
Actually, there is. But I don't know how to transfer the format from brainwaves to megabytes.
Yay I shall go bathe now and do extended QT then maybe abit of amaths then sleep (:

Anyway, 2.4 today.

Wanna share smth i'm very proud of!!!

Hahahh Feli came in the FIRST in our class with a timing of 12.42 or 12.52!!!
The thing is, she's not even in a sport cca okay!!

When I heard she was first, instincts told me that she wasn't running on her own.
Right feli? :D
Hahah walao eh, God you're super unfair can.

I know I'm heavier than her, but you carry her don't carry me what's this?!?!?!
Haha no la, you were still there for me. Just that you never carry me, you run beside me :D
So I give you chance k hahah :D

And Sarah Phang too! :D
Yay Sarah haha.
She was sharing with me how she decided to use God as motivation to keep running,
and she felt really happy that she was able to run without stopping!!

Ahhh people...
Who can ever deny, the power of God is ever so wonderful!! (:

Goodnight y'all, God bless! (:

2009-04-01T00:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIYING!!!
-insert picture here-
Hahah I've known you since Sec 2 omg!!
And only sec 3 we came to the same class. Haha anw, you've been a really crazy person
as far as I know.. Forever doing retarded actions and noises.
Haha the only time you're quiet is when you're angry/tired/sleeping/sick.
The other times I hear your laughter from super far away HAHA.
Oh well, it's quite sad to have your bday on april fools cos ppl will just link the two events tgt hahaha. But anw, hope you have a happy bday!!! and the class will be singing for you tmr! :D
(eh no pictures in my com at the moment haha)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:D

2009-04-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE LEE!!!!!!!!!!!
(super overdue) haha.

2009-03-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

Life's been pretty much on the go.

Common tests are just over, mock tests are coming, followed by midyears. Consistenly.

The school is so smart man really. Hahah. But I think it's good for us as well luh.
We cant really find a time to slack anymore in this year.

Got back the common tests papers already, left E.geog.
And for the first time... I think I feel something for my papers. HAHA.

In the sense that, I wanna do better. Because I have my goals (grades) in mind.

My only pride so far is my chem HAHA.

Let me tell you the secret behind it: Hardwork + God's work.

Before the common tests period I was seriously busy with tons of stuff.
Dance, CG, meeting, svc, tuition and not to mention, my health also.

So I only had effectively one week (march hols) to study properly.
And in that week there were lotsa stuff too :/
(meta, cg, shpding, fatninjas)

But really man, i thank God for putting Angelina into my life, to help me with my studies.
He can bless us through people too! And she's one of them (:

Without God, I'd have NEVER been able to get results like what I got.
And even with limited time to study, I'm able to do better than what I expected! (:

So yeah, I'm pretty pleased w CTs this time round..
And this CTs is motivating me to study even harder for my mocks and MYEs coming soon.

So yes, don't study alone,

Study with God!!! (:

All the best in studying, people!!
We the muggers unite.... :S

2009-03-21T23:15:00.003+08:00

YOOOOOO!!!!

hahah had cg at botanical gardens on wednesday :D

Had alot of fun man ((: prove that number of people doesnt determine the fun that we have!!

Anyway, these are the areas we decided we want to improve in!! :D
So cool right! :D Each and everyone of it makes alot of sense to each of us (:

They were running towards the camera :D

Games!! HAHA super funny I think I rock to the max right feli hahaha.
No actually, Reg was the best HAHA she can run straight blindfolded omgggg.
Emo nemo sensual photo ^^
Tourist Lim :O
Omg, God is totally annointing you now regine HAHA why you hide your face from him!!!
You're at the mountain somemore!
Yay we rock!!! :D

More CGs like these please, just with more people <3

Hahah seeya guys on Wednesday again!!!
And happy school reopening :S

GOOD LUCK FOR COMMON TESTS SEC FOURS!!!

2009-03-15T23:21:00.005+08:00

Yo!!!!
Your Curtain Call was good!! :D

I think all the different dance groups did vvvvvvv well (:
All those who missed it, sigh.... Try next time!!!

Thank God for all you dancers!!
You guys were awesome ttm!!! :D
Loved looking forward to dance practices, even if it meant getting drained and all after that.
Thanks for being so patient with us, DK!! (he was really patient, really)
Cos I know that when we feel sian, Christine and him will feel sian X10..

Yet he still helped us to sharpen our moves, and we did this repeatedly week after week.
Sometimes even the same steps.. :/ heh.

So yeah man! Thank God for him.
And also chialing for her effort in arranging everything.
She was super stressed. Haha but it was well coordinated and everything so yay!! :D

It's so good to be in this kind of community where everyone around lives on biblical principles, and thus produce quality lives.
It really makes this world a much better place.

Yknow at times when you really feel irritated and wanna kill people alr, these are the principles that come to mind. And because of this, everyone enjoy each other's company more (:

It's really a privillege I have.. (:

Yeah man, go Ydance!!!
Go jiali!!!
Go everyone!!

Next up, our april choreo.. Haha. (i really hope i dont die man..)

Back to Your Curtain call:
I was really happy again on that day.
It's been so long (that I haven't seen your face..) that I've seen a convert!!
And really man, memories totally came back haha.

I walked down the steps almost totally oblivious to the surroundings,
knowing that some of my make up and everything was still on.
But who cares haha, it felt good to go down (:

And I really wanna follow up well.....
Ahhh... Use moa!! Me! Wo!!

Really ah, it's your problem already k.
I do my best you do yours. Haha.

And also, I wanna use my march holidays well!
Must follow my timetable!!! (this is extreemmely impt)

I lose track one day I die alr.
Super tight.

But.. I really hope I can.
Ok this week is a discipline growth week for me :S

As sad as it sounds..
Common tests next week & I'm totally looking forward to it - to be over.
Come and go as quick as you can man CT..

Hope I don't even notice you go by.. HAHA. (but that'd mean i'll do badly)

Ok wtv, off to bathe now!!!!
seeeeeyaazz.

2009-03-08T01:39:00.003+08:00

This week's been good (:

Well, better than the previous & the coming one at least..

Special week this week, so we had no lessons from wed onwards, instead, we had
"I am gifted, so are you!", the adam khoo thingy. (I added adam khoo on facebook HAHA he havent accept lor.. sad)

Haha. Learnt quite a lot and I actually enjoyed the whole thing man! (:
I was sharing it with my parents over dinner and I was suprised how much I could remembr when I was talking. Haha amazing.

Anw, I'm inspired by the trainers haha. Interestingly enough.
Partly because of the fact that they are credible in what they teach us.

Part of the course was to inspire/motivate/teach us to build good family rships and both of the male trainers themselves have good relationships with their parents, like how they make an effort to say "I love you" to them and stuff.

Haha it really helps if you do what you teach man.

I think it was through the training from adam khoo that they changed themselves and stuff before teaching us or smth haha.

Whatever the case, it was worthwhile uh. At least money not wasted hahah.
These kinda programs normally ppl will hate it cos it doesn't make a diff, but this was cool. So it did make a difference.

I was so amazed by the crying part haha.
Are we girls so vulnerable omg..

Okay, shall blog another time ):

The time now is really scaring me. 210am.
Tuition at 9am at BUGIS tmr.. :/

Nvm, tmr must be productive!!!! ):
Seeya!!

PS. 6 MORE DAYS TO 'YOUR CURTAIN CALL'!!!!

2009-03-01T00:23:00.009+08:00

Crap I'm falling sick. Haha and I didnt manage to complete the previous post..

Nvm, forget it already, move on with life. Haha.

Anyway people out there!

YOUR CURTAIN CALL

March 14th

215pm

The Nexus Auditorium

Be there for a time of ultimate dance- incorporates bboying, breakdance, hiphop, lyrical dances(!!!) and performances that'll blow you away!
Spice up your this Saturday and you'll see why Life can ROCK. \m/
Above all achievements in school, in life, what OTHER things can YOU achieve?

Come, find out for yourself!
There's this something about you that you long to know,
but you never ever knew what it was. I bet you $5 that you will on this fateful day.

Miss this out, and you willllll regret!!

(Plus I'm in the dance itself!! (: , so I can guarantee you with credibility - it's darn good! No, not because I'm in it, but I've seen them do their stuff. So yeah man!!! At least come and support me?? Haha. You'll never ever see me dance, ever.)

You're free to mock me after that i dont care hahaha.
But yeah, come come come! Hope to see you there!! (:

Email me or call me yes yes? I won't ignore you haha!

2009-02-25T23:47:00.003+08:00

I haven't blogged for so long I've got so much to say!!! Hahah.
And tons of pictures outdated.. I totally neglect them alr ):
Sorry ah ppl.

Recently, school has been a pain in the neck!
Not only the neck, my eyes, too!

My eyes are damn small now.. Like really small. And their starting to droop sidewards! HAHA.

Quite gross but yeah uh. My eyeball around my pupils are not white anymore, their turning red.. And I think it's gonna be stained there forever.

But thank God, that I have Him.
I wouldn't have survived and be still surviving without him.

There are so many blessings, I dont know where to start.
Maybe I should bathe and get my thoughts on track.
Okay will brb!

2009-02-16T23:42:00.002+08:00

Oh man, first service (i heard) broke out of Nexus!!!
And the even opened some room (asia or africa)..

Jealous jealous!! Haha.

These coming weeks.. They are up to us.
Aiyoooo, I feel so stupid okay.

Nowonder like Daniel ALWAYS says,
"if you choose to not use God's power to do God's work, it's stupidity."

I didn't really GET the whole thing, until quite recent.
The DIFFERENCE man, when you're in tune to God, and when you're not.

I must keep my QT consistent foreverrrrrrrr!!!
Talking to him in the spirit keeps us in tune with him and sensitive to him,
to know what he wants to tell us, where he wants us to go! (:

Yes! So I must always keep talking to him in the spirit.
Because it covers parts that I forgot to pray about (:

So cool man! I just learnt this today hahah.

Yes, so I must keep praying in the spirit even though like, doing it alone in my quiet room sounds weird..

But that's not a factor to not pray k.

Ah yes. Time to move.
Prove to the rest that this is just a phase, come on,
studies vs praising God, studies win?!?!?

Hahahh it's a joke seriously.
Who likes studying in itself in the first place?

So anyway, am kinda looking forward to more this year etc.
If this could happen to them:

ZhengKai. says:
during sat, cause all the ULs need to sit on the floor. then I was sitting and looking at my group. then during worship, we stood up and worship. Then God brought me back to last year valentine service. hahha, that time my group only had 2 people!

Why are we still having empty seats?!!
Our next aim should be to kick our ULs to the floor too!! HAHA.
Ok need to go bathe, seeya guys in the morning tmr ah! 645 dont be late.....

2009-02-14T02:02:00.004+08:00

I'm so tired yet I can't sleep..

Knowing that it's Fall ess tmr makes me wanna kill myself..
Srsly.. How to go in and not feel sad man.

Seeing people from other schools coming in, all except yours.
What a waste..

This week has been a bad week (from all the studies and treatment I get in class), and I really pray that even though there's gonna be no contacts tmr, I will receive A Personal Touch that NO OTHER saturday svcs will give me.

Because I really need it..
And not only me.

Crescent needs it.
First quarter is ending in like 2 months.
That is not long.

Cos common tests are starting on the week after 14 March..
And the whole of next week is Test Week..
THERE IS NO TIME!

Goddddddd, okay I gettit man, I'll have to stick closer to you even more.
Because I will die like this.

Studying is not just a matter of one or two hours.
It's seriously psychological man.. Haha.
If you set for yourself 2h, and your mind is somewhere else, then that 2h is as good as gone.

And normally, when I manage to focus on studying, I wouldn't want to stop and think of other things halfway.. But sometimes there's really no choice..

And it doesn't get better when people in class just keep suaning you about not studying hard, looking down on you.

If I can juggle so many things and get only a few marks lower than someone who is like, super free that he/she has to find things to do, I think that's something I should rejoice about.
Because really, pressure is like super high.
I dont know what's wrong with people - cos they don't help..
Thanks for being so encouraging man.

I should consider shifting to Lisa Yap's sit for the sake of my studies.. Haha.
Even though I might fall asleep and stuff..

Thank God for Angelina once again :} sigh, I really wonder if I can do as well as I want to with so many things going on.

But I have to keep in mind that it's the process and not the ending that matters.

So what, if I score well but forfeit my personal growth?
(of course, not saying that I don't strive to study my best)

I gain nothing.
This decision to prioritize my life is hard, for all you CC4 peepz out there.
I think it applies to you too..
Think about it, with all the forced pressure that is put on you,
teachers, parents, tuition teachers and friends even.
All these pressure is constant and they won't or have the least chance of changing.

Because of how much it's imposed on you, you gotta follow for the sake of it.

Therefore, I don't wanna be another source of pressure on you too.
What good would it do, if I were to force all of you one by one, to shpd sheep, to do qt, to take initiative etc etc?

Of course, then, you would come, but if the heart isn't right, I think there's no need for me to do that.
Cos it'd only take a toll on me, and you too.

Yes, so now I guess we gotta live up to the cross †
Vertical and horizontal r/ship, rmb?

Horizontal meaning our close bond as CC4 and vertical means our close r/ship with Daddy.G (:

I realised this is kinda like doing my QT man! (:

Yea, I wanna grow in love more, it's bleedy hard I tell you.
With so many kinds of different people you have to face everyday, love becomes minute.

Really. Hate. My. School.
It breeds the kinda people that, are really like robots.
Not stereotyping k, but just saying la.

Can't stand it.
CME has become some WORK thing alr.
And morals are not taught.
I realised the way to teach these kinda things is not to tell us the definition or showing us scenarios..-.-
Like, caring, initiative, responsible.
They Do Not help. What's the probability of you facing the same scenario anw..? -.-
(sometimes, I really wonder if the school's breeding stupid or smart students..Cos the way they do things are really TOO methodical. I think I used to be towards the more creative and imaginative side in pri sch, now I find myself being logical and typical and theological, eew..)
I dont need to see myself being Ho Ching to show that I have achievements.

"Abilities take you there, but Character keeps you there."

And it's true ttm.

As hard as it is being salt and light in school, I want to.. I really do.
(btw im able to walk past YO w/o fear alr, when other people have to run away and take the longer route hawhaw)

So anw, back to the topic. CME.
They gotta live it out man!

Who else do they want us to model after?
Even teachers are like... gross.
Attitude and stuff.

What they teach is not through what they say, but by their every single action, no matter how small.
For instance, like today my physics teacher bought us a balloon for vday.
People felt touched, cos even our form teacher didnt.

And this shows what? Care, concern, that she thought about us.
People are so sensitive here, they can sense things so fast!
So how much easier will it be, to do His work man!
Ok, not MUCH easier, but it's to our advantage!

See why I dont like this school... (everytime I say this I feel abit of guilt-like backstabbing)
But, to prove my point, this needs to be known haha.

Need to be under spiritual covering alot, I know..
Need to give more spiritual covering, alot more.

Ahhh, God.... Even though tmr is not the svc for us, in number, I pray that you'll do something out of it for us.

I'm really confused, if people have a burden, won't they take action?
Why are we so passive.. Like couch potatoes..

Sometimes I just wanna shout and throw attitude haha but, I cant.
Doesnt do me any good anyway.

Yes, so now I'm kinda looking forward to tmr (: and I hope that it'll be good, very good (:

Now I know I'm super tired, cos I keep having typos and I don't realise...

But yes, I'm anticipating and expecting (even though they mean the same).
I want you to, twist, grind, wrench our hearts tmr.

Please do.
We need to wake up!

I shall reveal a very disturbing and probably quite hidden fact, we haven't had any new people since somewhere around, a while after OASIS CAMP! *faints and pants like I'm going to die* *dead*

Tell me it's okay.
If you can I can seriously..... just go and sleep now.

It's no ones fault, it's Every ones fault!
But it's just this burden(can i say this?) that's been egging me.
Yet I don't know where to start going about doing smth.

Ok, I shall stop drowning in pity/remorse and get on with life - and the next step now for me is to sleep.

Waking up at 7 tmr for Ess pract (:
(MARCH 14 IS GONNA BE GOOD I TELL YOU, START INVITING NOW!)

Seeya!
(you've just read my thoughts clearly, good job)

2009-02-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

CC 1st Family Day!
Sowwei for not blogging for so long. Cleo has been a busy girl.
Almost drowning in deadlines but always manage to pop up out of it unscathed!

Thank God for that :}

Goodnight for now, FALL ESS, cya there!!

2009-02-02T02:28:00.004+08:00

1. One thing I learnt from fatninjas that left an impact in me was:

Guard your r/ship with God with all your might, because it can be taken away by the devil just like that.
QT is built up the same ways it tears down.

So if you do it daily, you'll find yourself growing more and more each day.
If you don't, you'll find yourself backsliding further and further away from God.

As scary as the word 'backsliding' seems, it's pretty much true.

So maybe if you wanna see how spiritual you are, see how long you can stop doing QT.
And take that number of days divided by your age of your spiritual birthday times 100.

But by the time you're able to calculate that, you'll probably not be here anymore. Hahah.

Ok kidding, but I think the formula is correct :D

2. When trials come and no verses or principles come to me, it's too late to realise that I've been in lack of reading God's word.

3. Doing God's work without God is scary and dangerous.
- scary for those under you
- dangerous for everyone

Yet many times people do His work without Him at all..
Many times, people do their leaders work.
nuh-uh, unacceptable.

4. Valentines' Day this year is going to be exciting/thrilling/heartwrenching (in the good way).
The 12 days we have is going to be nerve-wrecking/heartwrenching(now literally)/energy consuming/God seeking.

I was so scared when I was doing QT just now.
When I start to think about the 12 days. My hair was messy - my hands fault.
My brain was dying but '12' woke me up.
It wasn't cold, but '12' made me go pee.

It's 240am and '12' made me come here.
(I'm blogging standing because of '12' and '240am')

5. Recently I've been scolding myself quite alot..
But I think that's bad for me because I'll get demoralised.
Somehow it happens....?
That's why when Winnie said, "You can't wait for people to encourage you to move on, you gotta encourage yourself!"
I was like "HAH! Totally!"
(they laugh at me for writing letter to myself :( )

But I really felt encouraged and happy, so I kept reading it over and over :D
It works, really. Try it some day!

6. I've been thinking about balance - again.
One thing I realised about myself is that, I cannot multi-task. (not the joannelee kind)
But when I've deadlines to meet for let's say, homework to hand in the next day.
And I've to do my QT before I sleep.
I will choose to do QT, but when I'm doing that, my hw keeps bugging me.
And I keep thinking about how I'm gonna complete it by tmr etc etc.

This is just an example,
but these kinda things happens like continuously, till I really cannot focus anymore..

That's when I started to scold myself for being irresponsible.
And I think I really am.. But I hope I'll get out of it soon.

I realised I'm so far *spreads both arms out* from the fruits of the spirit.
Well I didnt really go and look at each word yet, but when that title came to me,
I was like, oh crap, without even thinking of what the fruits of the spirit were.

Or maybe, hopefully, I'm just advancing into another level.
A higher level of the fruits of the spirit.
That it seems like I dont even have it already.

I wanna believe that's the case :D

Anyway, I was deprived of blogging for so long cos my non-existent to-do list was bugging me everytime, thus, I vomit out everything, in point form with no link of any kind (ok maybe there is one- my brain) to each other, tonight.

I feel much better now :D
Cos now I know what is actually going on in my mind.
(sounds ironic but really man, too much stuff can get you yourself confused)
Yay love my blog haha. Rocks forever.

Goodnight! Tmr die alr.

2009-01-23T19:48:00.008+08:00

Pictures from Singapore Canoe Marathon 09!!
Hehheh, abit late but nvm.

Group picture after the races!

Everyone trying to act tall here ... Yunhui had to jump! HAHA.

We were trying to do timer jumpshots. Lol. We couldn't see the blinking thing, so just tikam tikam "OKAY 1 2 3 JUMP NOW!!

lonely in a crowded place.

Jump in the reflection of the glass.

Other schools boats!

Preparing to go to the water.

HAHA zanita taking off her jacket.

Oh you know I realised you can take home your number plate!!! ): I want lorrr.

Heehee, our number plate.

Jean.. Smiling at who uh...?? ^^

HAHA she looks so cute here right! :D (chirunning)

HAH! Only we have a picture with our boat!

Gathering for the announcement thingy.

People coming out of the water.

So dense! (:

After the race haha.

Clara helping Yvonne (:

HAHAHA this is a nice picture taken (: Our poses all very real man.

The lamppost was already broken when we saw it so it's not our fault!

Cool building !! :D

Walao the car veh cool..

They were fascinated by the shinyness, but it doesnt really show here..

We went to eat sushi while waiting for our race results. Haha it's the 99cents sushi!

Nice serene picture (:

I think that guy is flexing... The one beside the yellow sunglasses guy..
Anw see the clock, very cool!! It's like an half-orange-half-black capsule that rotates.

Art and Deborah!

HAHA we were at the back of the lorry (: Then take picture of them in the lorry behind us.

I realised we got sunburnt quite badly..

Haha whoo, finally..

So tired, I need to sleep already, my hives erupting.

Today went to cine with Clara and Zuoen! (:
Went to play pool and eat and play arcade.

Haha I miss pool!
Haven't played in so long :D

Wanna go again anyone??

Haha okay, must meet Lee at 830 tmr wooo!
We're aiming to be early birds HAHA.
No la but aiya, no time alr.

edit/
we didnt make it in the end..

So yeah, I WANNA GO SLEEP NOW.

BYEBYE!

2009-01-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

In order to step up, I need space and strength to raise my leg.

2009-01-19T10:24:00.003+08:00

Proves the point (:

.-=[ §hÜ wëé ]=-: because
.-=[ §hÜ wëé ]=-: when a relationships gone
.-=[ §hÜ wëé ]=-: it hurts both feelings

Yesterday I changed my pm to "Love is......"
(then i wanted to go find the bible verse so that I can fill it in.)

But then suddenly he replied "love hurts"

That's my P1 prefect by the way :D Haha.
Siya asked me to blog about her, cos she's desperately trying to do her chinese compo now,
and she doesnt know how to write many words!!! HAHA. Chuasiya manz.

It made me recall about the point about people searching for love in the wrong places.
Because everyone tries to search for this love that satisfies them,
they search everywhere in BGR, among friends, in people basically.

The sad thing about this is that, people are not perfect, they fail at times.

That's why the kinda perfect love that they want, is never reached.
And thus, people keep going in this vicious cycle, trying to make sense out of love.
Getting in and out of relationships, hurting themselves everytime something fails.

But the answer to love is right under their noses!
This answer that can satisfy all questions.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

God, is love.

Would you accept it?

2009-01-15T23:11:00.005+08:00

Can't wait for svc!!!!!!!

It's only 16th Jan and it felt like 3 weeks passed D: D: D:
I'm scared for O's already..

I wanna get A1 for Chinese O's in June!! (around there la)
I dont want to retake chinese man.

School sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks the life outta me...

I realised that time will suddenly take flight and soar super quickly from the moment you reach 16, sec 4.

Woah, irony man.
How is this SWEET SIXTEEN?

Bleh anyway, I seriously hope one day Methodist schools will rise up and stand out amongst the rest!!!!
Seriously.

In results + character + reputation (not face) and etc etc.
NOT just beacause of facilities & results and honors...?

Maybe that's why people nowadays are so keen on getting medals and acheivements..?
Because that's what's taught in school.

Achievements are the most impt (because ppl can SEE and RECOGNISE)-.-
Studying hard is also the most impt (because it determines your future)
Facilities are good for students (because it gives them a platform to WORK HARDER)
Working hard should be all that we do (because we are working hard to work harder next time)
Getting a good job is impt (because without a good job we'll lose out)

Where the heck does personal development come in?
What is achievements gonna do, if you don't even have that good spirit?
Who likes an all-time competitive person? Seriously.
What's the use of having a HEART, if we don't use it to the maximum?
(I'm not saying BGR or wtv, I'm saying, your character, your attitude towards others)

I can understand it's because of this competitive society we're in,
but even if that's the case, hardwork ALONE isn't gonna bring you very far.

There's this quote I agree on 200%!

"Skills are gonna bring you there, but character is what keeps you up there." - Torch.

This is the age that principles are finding a place to etch in your heart,
these are the principles that will stay for the rest of your life.

The most heard principle in school is about perseverance.

BECAUSE, the main motive behind telling us that is for our RESULTS.
Seriously, teaching principles comes from the motive of just teaching principles.

Don't abuse it man.

Soon people are not going to appreciate much less welcome them into their lives.

I just thought of something!
Maybe they should implement this.

Those who will be going into the line that requires relating with youths or children, must first have an entree requirement of child psychology.

That wouldn't be sufficient, but at least there's a standard..

I really thank God I was from Fairfield Methodist last time.
Now I finally understand that verse, proverbs smth smth.

"Train up a child in the way he should go,....."

That's the age where we can change the most, the most malleable, so to speak.

I am really so grateful for all those principles they taught us last time in pri sch.
Because I am so appauled.. hm not really, how about disgusted, by how things are taught now.

How can anyone allow themselves to be controlled by what people tell them so easily?!
It has no truth/value in them. (well maybe it does, because people are only thinking for themselves nowadays, selfishness is subconsciously taught).

I was bathing and thinking, and I suddenly got so angry.

Thus I came to blog.
But I can't blog out my thoughts fully now, because I am just gonna get shot down by some authorities or smth..
Cos my thoughts are not fully developed yet, you can call this stage 2 of my thought process.

But this I wanna say:
We should have a suggestion box in school.

Anyway, I pray that God will use this emotional thingy and change it into a burden.

Because now, it's like an obstacle that I wanna kick at, and do it real hard.
But it shouldn't be the way, as far as I know anw..
Cos this is my land now, so I hope these thoughts are part of the growing process of the group and myself.

Dang, it makes me angry really.

But now, I still wanna grow in LOVE COMPASSION and PATIENCE.

I suddenly rmb this badge in one of the teachers'(ms tai) in my pri sch's staff room table, "God, I want patience... And I want it NOW!!"
I can relate to that... I feel like a bulldozer la .. ):

Okay anyway, this is far too messy and loud maybe.

God, tell me the meaning/rationale behind this!!
I wouldn't mind a prayer (:

2009-01-13T22:48:00.003+08:00

Haha it's weird ah.. Really.
I haven't blogged in 12 days (that's really long for me) and my viewership is still going at a pretty steady rate..
And when I actually DO blog, it fluctuates like mad...

Anyway, I've got many things I wanted to share but I've got no time ):

But one thing that's still quite clear in my mind is our CANOE MARATHON 2009!
It was a cool experience man!! (:
Disclaimer: I really don't wanna go into every single detail of it although it's tempting, but please read through yeah? There's a reason for it. Thanks to you {:

I learnt a lot from it even though it was just stupid paddling and colliding into boats.

The first blessing was that I was able to even TAKE PART in it!
I really thank God for sam tan for that (:
Hehheh, cos in the holidays, I haven't exactly been going for training regularly..

Well I didnt pon all!!
I was sick for 3 weeks! (seperately)
So those 3 weeks I didnt manage to attend training and everyone thought I pon..

But oh well, I guess I could've put in more effort into attending trainings when I can so yeah.

So anw, Sam went for trainings la, so she's obviously like super strong and fast.

I started to go regularly aft art told me about what people were saying abt canoeing.. Haha.
And I tell you, it's really so different when you're doing it for God.
I was able to give constant amount of strength for the whole 5 or 6 rounds of pretty hard effort, and I haven't trained for so long!! But of course, I was tired la haha.
So it's like, woah, where did my strength come from?

But anw, when it came for the application for the marathon, coach said that he'd either put me and sam on a T2 or sam alone on a T1, depending on her.

So after much debating with her whether I should go or not, I went.
Then coach sorta like "scolded" me, like "this shouldn't happen again etc etc"

So yeah, then fastforward to marathon day.

I was on bus 14 going to dhoby to take 16 to kallang.
Hahah. I was kinda behind, so they left first..

Then when I reached dhoby, I saw 16 in front!!!

So I was like "Uncle can open the door?" then I pointed to 16.
I wanted to chase the bus uh.

But when I ran, the bus left the bus stop....
Then I was like "Ahhhh.. Crapp"

But the bus 14 uncle told me to get on the bus, then he drove me to chase bus 16!!

Cool right!! HAHA.

Thank God for him man seriously.
He chased all the way to Nicoll Highway, then I caught it :D

Yay so I wasn't late! (:

Then after that, we slack slack abit, then the race was gonna start alr.
So we went down to paddle around and get familiar with the place.

Then all the 'T' boats lined up at the starting line.
It was super messy uh... All the paddles in the air rotating here and there haha.

But anyway, when they gave the signal to start, it was super cool!
Everyone started paddling and since all the boats were like SIDE BY SIDE,
paddles kept banging on people's boats etc etc.

But anyway, Sam and I managed to break away quite quickly :D

Many boats came from behind and kept hitting us off course, and they still scold us..
I shan't mention schools haha, please be guilty.

So anyway, we took off pretty quickly. And this hwachong T2 was in front of us (rmb this first).
Yeap, so we needed to paddle 14km = 3 rounds of the course.

There was this part (medeka bridge i think) that we were supposed to turn.
Coach told us there were what, 3 buoys to turn around to consider it as ONE round.

But at that bridge, there were only 2 buoys..
So me and sam were like omg where's the third one!

Haha we saw one no doubt, it was at the other side of the bridge.
And apparently that was the BOUNDARY buoy....

Stupid thing. So we decided to go around it HAHA.
Only we took a detour and turned, I tell you... It was embarrassing..

So many people overtook us while we were turning. Even our own school boats.

So we lagged behind...
Then we were like, crap.. I think that wasn't meant to be the third buoy.
So we faster chionged to catch up.

And after a while, we caught up with the hwachong T2 HAHA. (see that's where they come in)
Yeah, but it still feels like we were super behind.

So anyway, we paddled hard effort all the way, as hard as we could.
Really, I was very suprised at how much strength I had in my arms.
I don't think it was me that was paddling entirely as a matter of fact.

I was really scared that I would slow us down.. Heh.
So I kept telling God, "Give me strength to paddle! I want to do my best!"
And idk man, I think He really blessed me (:

Even though there were times my arms suddenly felt like it was burning,
it goes away after I put God in the picture heh.
Yknow sometimes you get so distracted till you leave God out..

But after I put him back in place, the burning sensation was hardly felt.

But you know my butt still hurts from that day.
Because we kept going slanted, so we kept paddling on the left side.
And we were paddling so hard and so fast that my butt slipped and sat one the "headlands" of the seat.

Cos you know the seat is "UU" shaped right. HAHA. Like two depressions for your butt cheeks kind.

YEAH, so I sat on the tips instead of the depressions....

SO ANYWAY, during the race many K boats and C boats knocked into us.
I was trying to control my patience quite bad..
The worst thing was, they still went like "T2!" in the fierce tone.

This C boat pushed the tip of our boat from the back after we accidentally brushed against his boat because
1) he was turning diff directions from us (going to portage)
2) the current pushed us..

I apologized lor walao.. Even after he said "T2!" in a frustrated way.
I felt quite good about it HAHA.
Then he didnt even apologize for turning our boat like 90 degrees?!

But nevermind, there were a few nice K2's (:

Yeah, so we ended the last round with a super burst!! HAHA.
It was kinda like those sugar rush kind that we chionged all the way till the end.

The hwachong boat was sooo close in front of us, but we finished behind them haha.

We finished our race, I felt happy, like seriously happy.
Not because we finished.. But I dont know, it's just like a,"ah i love the world!" feeling.

Hahah. After a super long while, it was prize presentation.
We were quite unsure of the results..

Because we realized that even JC and Poly can enter under "Novice" category!!
So we were like, crap... I think cannot alr la.

There are 3 categories: Novice, Junior men/women, Senior men/women.

So novice is the lowest, then junior then senior.

Yeah, so basically, there were 28 schools.
So imagine the number of PEOPLE.

1) Anglo Chinese Junior College
2) ACS (Independent)
3) Bukit Panjang Govt High Secondary
4) Crescent Girls' Secondary
5) Front Catch
6) Gan Eng Seng Secondary
7) Hwa Chong Institute (High Sch)
8) Hwa Chong Institute (College)
9) Innova Junior College
10) Kanoe Sports
11) Meridian Junior College
12) Ngee Ann Polytechnic
13) Nanyang Technological University
14) National University of Singapore
15) National Civil Defence Cadet Corp
16) Nanyang Polytechnic
17) PA Water Venture Club
18) Paddlers Gateway
19) Pioneer Junior College
20) St Andrew's Junior College
21) St Andrew's Junior College Alumni
22) Singapore Institute of Management
23) Singapore Polytechnic
24) Serangoon Junior College
25) Tampiness Junior College
26) Temasek Polytechnic
27) Temasek Secondary
28) Individual member

So then they announced the results, for novice, t2, 14km. (our race)
Sarah and Yunhui got 3rd!!! (they are only sec 3 this year!!)

Guess what we got...........

Like "is this really....?"
"2nd leh!"
"the poly jc uni all so strong, and I never train for so long, can win 2nd?!"
"we went extra distance around the buoy, still no other T2 overtook us?"

Ngee Ann Poly got first position.
Haha. After I thought about it, I realised, God's so fair.

He blessed us with results, but not first, I guess probably to bring down our pride.
I was thinking about it, if I hadn't told sam to "just go around the buoy" and think I know it all..
We might've won. Might have only.

But no matter, 2nd is good!

Really, after reading different people's blogs (from google blogsearch) about the marathon, I've seen how stressed they were before the race, during the race and how much they want the medal.

That drive only lasts for a while, really.
Because after that race, what if they don't win the medal?
What if the medal is ugly and cheapo?
What if smth happens like the boat broke a hole or smth?

It's as good as all the hardwork that the person put in, being taken away.
Because you work hard, and the process of everything is for That Goal.

So if the goal is gone, what has your hardwork and effort become?

Nothingness, really.

That's why, if you don't want to waste your time and effort, set a goal that won't ever diminish, one that will NEVER fail you.

(meaning, it won't disappear or be out of reach for you, it will always be there, just waiting for you to work hard enough to reach it)

I feel quite sad for those who didn't get their expectations met, be it in position or in getting a medal.
Because they just need to know that all these things, can never please them all the time.

Medals are just a once off thing, the second of fame you get when you receive the prize is nothing after a few days.

Who will remember?

To the audience, there will definitely be SOMEONE who get's 1st 2nd and 3rd.

So actually, there's nothing really special about those positions if you're not the one winning.
Thus, people won't rmb. It's logical, I feel.

The only one goal that you can depend on is, God.
He and Him alone.

Other worldly medals will come because of your long term goal, Him.
It's so true isn't it?

And this thing,

I would say, is all His to take! (:

Thank God for that whole day of learning man!
It was a great encouragement to me.

2009-01-01T21:58:00.003+08:00

My last day of 08 was fun (:
Will post more of it soon, if I have time..
(more pictures of fireworks in my facebook)

SCHOOL'S STARTING IN 8HOURS TIME!!!

Panic! Run around in circles!
No more playing, staying up till 4am, waking up at 12pm, listening to radio 24/7, going out whenever you want, playing happily happily, stuffing balloons in shirt, 8h mafia, overnight P&W..
Welcome: homework, ooo-ooo! birds, boring radio podcasts during lessons (makes you fall asleep), tucking in shirt, high socks, long skirts, fringeless hair, small eyes, books and pens..

Sigh, I don't like waking up early.. Heh.

Ok but nvm, I'm quite looking forward to school! :D

Heehee, yesterday, countdown was super cool!
I was at below-the-Flyer, seafood paradise restaurant eating dinner cos it gave a good view of the fireworks :D

Before the fireworks, around 9plus, there was this band playing at some covered shelter so I dragged Shawn to go take a look with me :D

Amazingly, they were a Christian band! The concert was called Hope concert (:
They were called Chapter 1.

Hahah it was damn cool! It was like having p&w during dinner! :D
Then I was so happy hahaha so I kept singing singing and enthu enthu.

There was this group of Christians I think at the left side of the place, they were standing and clapping and praising God!! Haha we were at the other side..
I wanted to join them, but lazy walk there HAHA.

So we just sat at where we were and clapped along.

Everybody praise the Lord

Friend of God

Amazing Grace (my chains are gone)

Yeah man, it was good :D
Even though I missed the night of Esther's Night, I had a night of P&W!
So I guessed it kinda balanced off abit... Just that Esther's night would be better haha.

Alright, Cleo shall sleep now (1104pm) cos tmr got school, must reach on time HAHA.
Cannot be late for first day of school on the last day of the week.

CYA FOLKS'!

2008-12-30T04:08:00.005+08:00

Crescent, for you.

"Prepare your shields, both large and small, and march out for battle!

Harness the horses, mount the steeds!

Take your positions with helmets on!

Polish your spears, put on your armor!

What do I see?

They are terrified,

they are retreating,

their warriors are defeated.

They flee in haste without looking back,

and there is terror on every side," declares the Lord.

I was doing QT on this and I thought I'd share it with you guys (:
I felt this verse was really God given, cos yst night right, I was like.. itching to read the bible.
Haha it's this kinda, "I feel awkward, like there's smth else I left out" kinda feeling.

And cos it was super late alr, like 3am plus, and I have training the next day.
So I was contemplating contemplating

But in the end I was like, ah heck, "God give me a verse k?"
Then I just grabbed my bible, opened it, and my eyes caught those words.

Teehee, as I was reading I was picturing yall by your study desk.
Looking all studious and serious, like there's FYEs the next day.

But instead of late night mugging, it was late night praying, bible studying etc etc.
Then on the big day, we all come, fully armed with our brains, heart, bible and everything.
Standing like 10 musketeers feeling all empowered and ready to take over the world!!!

Then one two three CHIONNNGGG and we go spread our loveee :D
And I'm picturing spread, like really spread.
Like epidemic kinda spread.
(people get weak on knees the moment they see us cos there's so much loveee hahha)
(okay how about this, picture it in cartoon form ok?)

Then at the end of the day, we're all beat and tired, but still smiling (:
We gather at the headquarters and thank God together.

And then God starts throwing people into our "spiderweb" because we've so painstakingly weaved it and made it as sticky as possible!!
Yay so the more effort we put in making it sticky, the more sticky it will become!!
And when He throws people there, they will stick! :D

Cool rightt hahaha.

Anyway, just incase you're lost and confused.
The imaginations are not linked by character. lol.
Meaning, each illustration is by itself.
(for the spiderweb one, we're spiders)

You get what I mean :D
Let's keep growing ourselves, make sure we're not stagnant!!

Imagine this:
1. Satan is always, consistently pulling us backwards, like how gravity pulls us down.
2. Whenever we talk to God, pray, read His word, God pulls us forward, closer to Him.

SO, if we don't consistently talk to God, pray and read His word, we might be still tied to the rope that is connected to God, but behind us, Satan is quietly pulling us backward, inching back bit by bit, SUCH THAT we don't realise, but God sees.
He longssss for you to seek Him again so that he can pull you back, but you must first set aside time to hear what he wants to say!!
Set aside time, so that you can allow yourself to NOT be killed.

He'll come close to you when you seek Him.

JIAYOU AH CRESCENT!!!!!! :D

Good job for reading everything! You rock :D
Dont claim the "you rock" if you didnt >:C

2008-12-29T01:55:00.004+08:00

I have training tmr at 9AM, (I rmb, coach!) and I am not gonna be late!

Dang, it's so annoying, as much as I already knew long ago, when people link everything you do to Christianity.

I'm not blaming them, I just feel so argh at myself and the situation..
Therefore, I've decided, I wanna aim to be salt and light. Encourage me okay!
Don't shoot me, cos I'm very cui, shoot me I will die one haha.

Yeah, I wanna go for training and do my best there,
go to school and do my best in wanting to learn,
do ministry and really ask God for help, not because I have to do it, but because of my conviction or drive or wtv it is. Haha
I wanna be salt and light at home too, and this is the hardest and last on the list HAHA.

But no matter, I must jiayou!!

Thank God for Art!(:
Haha thanks for taking the courage to tell me about that, I dont know if you needed courage or if it was just cos you were captain thats why easier, but I would if it were me.

Anw, she was telling me about training, sorta like a warning to me.
People have been saying that "Christian, all church camp then one time dont go, dont go for one month.."

Well maybe not exactly, but that's the essence of it.
And I really felt very heavy in my heart after that.. I dont know if it's considered a burden.
But I'm like, so ashamed, angry..etc.

Unknowingly, I'm killing God's reputation.

So yeah, really thank God for her to tell me.

Recently, I've learnt alot of things/got motivated by many different ppl.
1) Bridget
2) Dewen
3) Jo Lee
4) Jiaen
5) Zhengkai
6) Xinru
7) Young lives
8) Renting

In no particular order.

I shall continue tmr night, I've said I cannot be late for training tmr.
Considering it's already 315am, and training starts at 9, I feel extremely bad about this.

Plus I slept 5h yesterday night trying to rmb what I've to do for tuition today.

So, I shall sleep now :D

Anyway, thank God for those I talked to online tonight.
Jo Lee, Zhengkai, Zejie.

I've learnt so much!
I love learning!! Haha it's fun! :D
I hope I didnt say this in a burst moment kinda thing.

I wanna keep learning. Haha.
And I feel like I'm subconsciously setting new year resolutions.

That's good :D

Ok, goodnight ppl!!!!
Thank God for God :D

Byezz.

2008-12-27T00:12:00.006+08:00

Christmas svc was good!! :D
Danced for the first and second service, and I am already super tired. Haha.
I can’t imagine those who danced three services.. Kudos to you guys man.

But anyway, thank God for this someone who gave me pills.
Haha I don’t know what’s her name..
But anyone who knows, thank her for me ya!

She gave me pills to kill my cramps. It was like, super suay luh.
Came on svc day itself!!!

Well at least God held it from during camp haha.

Anyway, the whole event prep and everything was so cool! :D
Considering this is my first time performing hehheh.
Ok, I was supposed to reach The Rock auditorium at 10am for make up and stuff.

But I only woke up at 1030am, with 9 missed calls from Bridget and 3 from Jiali, 6 messages from them altogether.
Then I finally woke up when my bro came in my room to wake me up..

Horrible right.. Heh, but I only slept at 5am the previous morning.. So not my fault!!
Chionging cards..

Ok anw, so I panicked and took cab down. I reach at 1050. Haha cool or what.
Just that the cab fare was almost as close as the time. $9.40 or smth.

Yeah, so we did make-up and changed.
The “theme” was explosion.. Lol so all our hairstyles were like.. “booom!”

Hahah. But anyway, I thought it was cool luh..

Heh, I went to collect free popcorn from engwah between the 2nd and 3rd service in that hair and the super getai make up, I think people got a shock or smth.. Heh.

Oh and the facilities backstage was cool luh.
They had rooms. Newly renovated.
So one room they put the projector showing what’s showing on the screens outside.

Then the other room we put our bags and for us to slack one uh.
But it was cool. Hahah.

Everyone was chionging cards backstage between performances and camwhoring. Lol.

The room where we put our bags. Haha. This consists of mostly the drama and dancers..

2008-12-24T00:24:00.003+08:00

Omg i just thought of smth so cool!

I was doing cfm, and there were many ppl hanging around, not here not there.
yknow what i mean?
Not sure whether to come those kind, BUT THEY ARE FREE.

I was soooo arghhh, like how can just because they say dont feel like then you dont push??

So i put my msn nick as "PUSH IT, USE ALL YOUR STRENGTH!!!!"

I wanted to add, push harder, harder, harder!!!
But I thought later it would sound wrong.

But after abit more thought, I came to realise, both are pretty much the same! Hahaa.

Like, if you're conceiving and you're pushing to your hardest,
you won't say, "OK I give up, this is too painful for me, I can't take it anymore."
And then give up conceiving and let the child die halfway out or smth.
Because why?

It is a LIFE.

In the same way,

When that friend is free, but just dont feel like coming or lazy or need to wash socks or whatever,
you wouldn't say, "Ok lor, I shall stop trying since he or she is so hard to win over."

Because why again?

It is STILL a Life.

Difficulties are there, for us to overcome, not to succumb to.
Satan is there, to make difficulties difficult for us to handle.

So if you want to succumb to difficulties, you are indirectly already, succumbing to Mr S.A Tan himself.
So then, which army are you in?

I just realised this myself, hit me hard.
If I just use my brain more, how much more things and revelations or rather... new pictures, can form in mind, can teach me new things?

And, now I really regret for those lives that I missed because of my OWN laziness,
my OWN problems, that Satan put in me.

All those EMOTIONS, that I allowed to stir in me, caused me to not push on,
caused me to say "OK, this infant, I shall let go. I have many more eggs to spare anyway."
(not literally, please)

And because of that, I was in Satan's army for that few moments, and it could cause ETERNAL DEATH, like it already happened to me once before.

Believe me, all you who are in this marathon with me at least, what we're doing, HAS EFFECT.
Maybe we won't see it now, but we know, and we must keep in mind, that in the long run,
We WILL see it. (are you beginning to doubt?)

Because, each LIFE, is not A life.
It's the start of many new lives!!

Therefore, each life, brings about much fruit.
Just like how an ovary brings about much eggs
And then how each egg carries another TWO ovaries.

Get the picture now?

If you dont,
get this clear at least haha.

God is REAL, and what we're doing has eternal effects.
If you're selfish, at least think: Where do you want to stand in heaven?
1) In the toilet
2) In the kitchen
3) In the masterbed room

How much honour do you want to receive?
(if money was the best thing there)
1) $2
2) $100
3) $1000,000
.
.
.
.

For Your sake.

2008-12-21T01:51:00.008+08:00

These are pictures especially for ppl to kope if they want to.
Many group photos (:

This is the furthest my camera can zoom haha.

Confused kid. Haha she looks confused and she also looks like a kid.

Heehee, anw, I like the group jump shot! It's our games group (Shield 6!!).
And we had this photo taken for a forfeit hahah.

Really got alot of attention. Haha like got performance or smth.
Minilution!!!!! We all look disgustingly cute. Haha.
Lastly, CENTRAL!!!!!!!

Wooohoo :D

2008-12-17T22:20:00.004+08:00

Back from Heroes camp!!
Heehee more pictures soon.

My computer ran outta space, so I gotta transfer some pictures into my harddisk first before transferring more pictures.

2008-12-12T01:05:00.003+08:00

Today was a very filled day hahah.

1. Meet JoLee in the morning 11am for shpding
2. Dance @ Toapayoh area at 1pm
3. Cg at BK Orchard Emerald at 240pm.
4. Shirley's CL prayer meet at 4pm.
5. Tuition at 8pm.
6. Camp planning 10pm onwards.

How pro luh today. HAHA.
Anyway, I enjoyed everything I did today :D

Well, maybe except tuition, but it was quite good towards the end cos I wasn't as sleepy.

Anw, today's dance rocked la! Hahah.
There was a new instructor, Awi, from SOUL superband. (just had to add that in)
Normally it's Justis (from SOUL superband also), but today he couldn't make it, so got substitute.

Haha anw, I like his style :D :D
Easier than Justis' but nice lol.

I must rmb today's choreo!! Hahah.
It's to Disturbia-Rihanna.

Anyway, I feel very encouraged/motivated/proud of the crew I'm with.
Hehheh. As in..

Cos Justis said before a few times, like he enjoys teaching us, and loves us because we will really try our best.
Haha as much as that might seem very typical, but I think it really comes out of sincerity too.

Like, even today, in his sms he mentioned that he loves teaching our grp.
I might think sometimes, "it's just to please us", or "aiya, typical"... Those kinda thoughts.

But yknow, somehow I'm quite convinced that he does enjoy us to a certain extent.
Not that I think we're the most fun and awesome people,
but I sincerely feel that there's this joy from him when he teaches us.

These kinda things, you can feel but hard to explain kind yknow? Hahah.

Like you can feel if someone is secretly hating you by their body language, but you can't really state the evidence of their body language, cos it might just mean another thing.

Yeah same thing.

Him repeating the part abt how he loves us also shows something..
He sorta got influenced by Jiali by the talking part.

As in, she talks to us as a group quite abit, like about dance, techniques and stuff luh.
And he must've been long around enough to get influenced by her.

Cos during the lesson quite a while back, he started telling us about techniques and angles to bend those kinda thing. Haha.

And I think he got influenced by us in dressing too heh.
I heard when he first came to teach, he dressed very bombastically. Haha.
I mean, superband what..

Go search his photos and you'll know what I mean.. Haha.

Yeah, but I think, cos for all our sessions, we wear track pants, old shirts that are loose and really unglam stuff luh (but we change out).
I think after seeing how we weren't affected by looks or dressing etc,
he got influenced too, and dresses more normally now. Haha.

It might be too big a judgement for me to make.. But I feel that we did play a part in how he dresses now too.

Anw today Awi was saying that Justis told him some stuff about us, dont know about what uh, but it sounded like it was good stuff by the way he talks to us (:

So yeah, my point being, I'm starting to see how Ydance is different from any other dance group, and how we're driven to dance by a different source.

Ok it sounds rather scary and spiritual, and like as if we're being possessed or smth.

But, I think that's the core principle in all of us uh.
Although we might get lost in it somehow somewhere, but this is what drives us, and will drive us in the right track.

And, really man..
I think if we dance for Him and live for Him, people can see it.
Yknow what I mean?

I mean like...
I'm quite amazed, that he is amazed by us and our effort to learn.
Normally dance teachers just teach and students learn those kind.

But, he actually said something about it!

What I am thinking is:
Dance becomes more than just dance, because we have the God element in us.
And I think people can really feel and catch something from that.

Like they'd be thinking smth like "There's something different about these people that make them so admirable/interesting, but I just can't figure out what...."

And these comes even when
- we are not professional dancers
- we might not even have the experience that others outside might have
- we dont have any background

And really man, this is how we influence others.
Even in minor things.

Like us for example, we could just slack around and give up when the routine is hard.
But few of us do that, in fact, none of us did as far as I know,
and I believe it's because of what we have: That passion for dancing For God, regardless of how fearful we might be.
(I mean, that's why we're even in this ministry)

And because of this little things we do in being salt and light, people can really see, how Christians who live their lives for God are really different from the rest.

I dont know man, but this suddenly hit me just now.
When I was on my way around on public transport.
And I think I'm starting to see how I can dance for God.
(I feel very weird saying it cos I really still... dance like crap.. haha)

And, this whole thing, it's not just about the final product presented on stage.
How we're doing it For God comes with the process.

When we go about learning it, every single session of practice.
That is the biggest part about doing it for God.

I mean, logically its true also.
Practicing takes 1000x more effort and time than compared to what is shown on stage.
Stage time is probably about 5mins or more or smth?

So to glorify God in practice is one thing,
impacting people on stage is a totally different thing.

And I suddenly feel very scared now hahaha.
Cos I just scared myself with what's to come on the 24th Dec..

Oh well, do correct me if I'm wrong in any parts.
Because I'm really just typing what I feel. So yeah ^^

I thank God for this thought that came into my mind!!
It's a very assuring thing (:

Jiayou to all of us Ydancers out there!!!!
Teehee, everyone plays an impt role.

Woohoo!!!
I'm feeling very excited slowly slowly (:

Cos in a few days time, it's gonna be HEROES CAMP!!!!
Then again, I hate that feeling when you're in camp that dies down after camp..

I must make this camp different from the previous camp!!
Follow up, post camp HAHA.

Yeah anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy goodnight! :D
Off to do other stuff that I was supposed to start doing first..

2008-12-07T02:10:00.003+08:00

Im currently shopping for shirts (:
Now I have to sort out the nicer ones out of all the nice ones I pick.
Haha I hate making decisions really, cos I just want all.

Yeah, and recently, there's this seriously bad addiction..

Friends bloopers on youtube.

Seriously, you know the show Friends right? (yeah, i decided to start watching them now)
But anyway, I've been watching the bloopers on youtube for the past few days/nights.

Like whenever I'm on the computer... Yeah... (crap.)

Even though I try very hard not to get into youtube, I'll always end up there.
Somehow.

And the bloopers are FFFFFUNNNNNYYYYY to the maxx!!!
I really laugh OUT LOUD when I watch them.

I think I'm crazy or smth, but I highly doubt so.
Anw,when I show it to my bro, he just watches it and smiles if its funny.

Why doesnt he get it?!?!

Cmon, it's funny!

And I watch them repeatedly even, cos I don't keep track of what I watched (it just links ya), I still can laugh as loud as ever!!

Their expressions are really funny hahah.

I think the bloopers are funnier than the show itself.

*tip: put yourself into the shoes of each of them, dont just watch. hahah :D

For this one I think 1:04 - 1:05 sounds like Ps Shirley!!!! Hahaha.
See 1:49-1:50, HHAHAA their faces are the best.
And then 1:56. Phoebe is (!!!!!!!)
3:00 - "n-n-n-nno.."

Haha I dont know if 0:23 is scripted, but I thought it was at first hahaha.
And I don't understand 1:38.. But it seemed like he said smth that was on his conscience. Hahah.
Neither do I get the cable part, 2:02..
HAHAHAH shit 2:12-2:28 I can never stop laughing, it's the ultimate HAHAHA.
Keep replaying the "kids kids!" part. Hahah i hear the voice until i cannot stop laughing.

Oh and 3:05, he was "supposedly" naked, that's why their reactions were like that.
HAHA but he played a fool and put Ross' picture hahahha.

3:40!! the baby is so cute!! Hahaha.
Hahah at 4:24 she was laughing alr uh. I tell you laughter is super contagious..
But I dont get the "all the colours of emotion part" hahah.
4:43(HAHA I didnt get it until I watched it again the dont know how many time just now)
I realised she said "baa!" at 530, that's what the "bingobango!" was about. lol.

HAHA 5:50 is the start of the funnier part. Cos they're not supposed to speak vulgarities.. So that's where all the beeps came from hahaha.
Look at Joey's face at 6:25 HAHAHA. i thought what man.
Last one, I don't think 7:40 is scripted.. Is it?

HAHAHA the front part where he was banging the door.
I look at their faces and laughed WITH them.
Monica's like.... Hahha has some problem speaking or smth.
All her bloopers are cos of what she said. lol.
Hahaha look at 2:40 when you reach there, Joey was alr laughing to himself lol.
He zhao xia while doing the "yoohoo" HAHA.
2:51 he was talking to the directors lol.
2:54 HAHA reminds me of Daniel.
then at 3:00 Ross was like "dont do that" and Chandler's face reminds me of Bishan gay!!!!
Chandler rocks at doing these kinda things (3:34) he always ends up blabbering hahaha.
Oh then yknow the whole sleeping scene, I was wondering if the laughter was coming from the directors and everything or they put it in. Haha cos it really seemed like from the directors all those.

Okay this is an episode. hahaha funny.

HAHA okay I was just showing which parts I found esp funny etc. Hahah.
Maybe it'd be better if you watch the video first then read the 'comments'.
Otherwise it may spoil it.

Hahah don't care ah. Must watch okay!!! HAHA.
Guarantee you'll laugh.

I feel damn energetic at night, sucks.
3.12am, better go off.

Bye!!!
(actually, there are tons of videos left to watch. So go search them if you need a little chill pill)

2008-12-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

Clare's bday. We "celebrated" for her after training.

Sushi @ Cathay w Fatninjas (supposedly celebration for end of O's but Jo lee wasnt there)
Lim Zuo's wink-or-no-wink? face !!

ITS CAMP NEXT SATURDAY!!!!! I AM TOTALLY NOT PREPARED........
Argh why always like that.
If suddenly my dad don't let me go ah.. Wah...

But I'm very excited for this camp, really.
More than Oasis camp.
I'm so pissed at myself. How can I!!!!!!

When I think about the lives that are gonna be influenced by me, I cant help but be in O:
I realise how impt this is.. And that I am really .. privelleged.

So, don't waste it.

Haha, so true, spirit is caught not taught.
Stupid man you, bluff who.....?

2008-11-28T05:17:00.003+08:00

Just keep walking IN the light.

And anyway,
I just stayed up quite unknowingly till 519am learning how to play some songs on the guitar (?!) while the whole world is sleeping.
This is bad, my biological clock is spoiling!

Argh.. Okay goodnight, or rather, good morning.

2008-11-25T02:14:00.007+08:00

Went to send Inezzzz off yesterday.

Her dad was so generous! He treated all of us to a BK dinner!
All the friends who came.. Clara and I, her sister's friends, her brother's friends..

So honourable.. Going off for holidays still got ppl send. Hahah.
Like a farewell party.

Clara Lee baked brownies for her just that morning!! It's super cool I tell you..
Tasted good too! (:

Haha myamazing tanline! See the contrast between my arms and my shoulder there!
Still got the tanline from the collar.. Haha.
Family photo!Hahah Inez asking for money from her Dad for BK lol.

Anyway, the guy on the extreme left was holding a nikon camera!!!
Hahaha. He had a cool lens too.. ):
Hahah this puny indian girl came running toward me and she was so cute!
Like stumbling here and there. Sian, focus the wrong thing.. Haha.. Otherwise it woulda been good (:

BYE WORLD!

2008-11-24T01:58:00.003+08:00

Omg, I just saw a few blogs, and I really feel so inspired/moved.

It's like almost the same feeling as you get in camp!
I like that feeling haha.

I saw Zach's blog, then Ps Shirley's blog, then the FreeHugs website, then dance blog.

Watch this video:

It's so cool!!!

Haha I really feel like doing many things to improve myself now (dance, ministry etc)
Idk how these two things are linked, I think the link is ME. Haha. Oh well (:

2008-11-21T23:41:00.002+08:00

Hahah you know I realised when people comment using the Blogger comment,
I never realise it.

Only like until today, then I realised comments since October.
Nowonder my haloscan hasnt been alive and kicking. Haha.

As much as it is convenient to just click "comment" at the bottom,
make life easier by using Haloscan on top!!

Hahah it's the (ClickityClick) words in brown font, click on it.

Oh, my dad just told me to spend more time on my work.
And judging by what I'm doing now, it's not enough effort.

At that time I really felt like saying, "but i've got so many other things to do!"
And they're not things that waste time etc.

Idk eh, how much time should I spend on my work at this period of time?
I thought it's supposed to be lesser.

But is it supposed to be kept at that level(like during exams)or smth?

I also couldn't say what I wanted to cos it would start off another superrrrr long conversation and probably end in grounding me or something. Haha.

And I forsee that if I dont do something about my "work" soon, Heroes camp will be at risk.

Because now, I can go for the camp... But come to think of it, my mom paid.
And he doesn't know about it!!!! Oh crapppp. Hahah die..

Andddd I went for training today!!!! Omg say "yay"
My arms are aching like mad now idk why, I'm such a weakfatling.
Really leh, I just weighed myself and I almost reached 70 ):

kidding uh.
Today's sun was real hot, and I got super retarded sun burns which did not stencil anything nicely.
Ask me to show it to you haha I think it's quite funny.

I'm super tired now because today I had a whole day of sports.
Canoeing, Badminton, Floorball.

Hardcore man haha.

My arms are very weak now I couldn't even lift my guitar w/o feeling that tingly feeling on my muscles making me weak in the wrists and almost letting go of my guitar.

Haha it's cool how the body works isn't it?
And now, I'm like droning on and on and forever because I'm just so tired, yeah like physically tired.

Yknow smth?
Today during training when coach told us to close our eyes in the water, I was like "omg! Is this a blessing for me to have a little rest before the Training actually begins?"

HAHA it was so cool.

Cleo is uploading videos of prophesies now. (How do you spell prof-fe-see?)
Be excited to download and listen to your personal one! :D

OKAY IM DEAD BEAT MEAT(FATTY) hahah dont worry I will still eat.... (cos of lack of self control maha)

I just need to exercise more, I'll be Daniel's best friend now cos he loves sports.
Hahaha. Yay to my potential muscles.

Oh yes! Lim zuo's flying off tmr morning HAHA she has to wake up early and reach the airport at 8am cos her flight's at 2pm HAHA quite funny right.

Ok I thought it was rather.. Kiasu..
But anyway, let's bid her farewell and have a nice time in BALI:
"BON VOYAGE LIM ZUO!!!!", says central C. (sorry other units, DIY HAHA).

ok la, stop crapping.
GOODNIGHT!!!!!!

2008-11-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday Peter Truong came down for Central (:

I learnt alot alot alot, and I needa recap before I forget.
Haha. I think he's such a funny person.

Then after that was CLM, I felt that the prophesy that he gave was really applicable man.
At first I was quite unsure how accurate it would be, since so many of them were about general things, like trusting, have faith etc etc.

But I guess, it would hit us individually.
And after I listen to the video and recorded it down on my QT book, I felt it was really overwhelming.

I thank God for him really.

Then today!
Had a good good CG!! (:

One of the best ever :D

I think we were all very blessed people man.
Cos we were allocated 30mins to evax to anyone we see, so we went off.
Zuoen & Clara tgt, Jessie, Char and I tgt.

Yeah, so we got some contacts today too!
That was cool ^^
And they were quite responsive as well! :D

And then, we approached this RJ girl walking alone.
Then she said that she was already Christian, so we were like "oh okay.."

Haha then after that, she told us that we have to treasure our time in high school.
And, don't ever wait. Like dont say "ah wait until exams over then outreach."

Cos she said she kinda regretted waiting for her A's to be over then share those kind.
I wanted to ask why.. Haha but I didnt uh.

So she asked if we were doing street e (evax), then she offered to pray for us!!
Hahah oh man it's so cool to just meet a fellow brother/sister and be blessed just like that.

We were so encouraged after she prayed :D :D
So we wanted to share with Zuoen and Clara after that, but guess what!
They met her too!

Hahah and she prayed for them too!! So cool righttt hahaha.
And I called zuoen and asked her where she was, then she said "oh i see you in front alr"

So both of our "groups" like ran and leapt and skipped towards each other HAHAHA.
Because we both wanted to tell each other about that girl who prayed for us.

And in the end, we wanted to share the same thing! Haha we were so happy man.
I mean, isn't it cool to have someone who understands what you do, and randomly blesses you.
It's like, the same heartbeat man.

If someone approaches us, we should pray for them too!
It'd help alot :D

Yay that's for today!

Tmrrrr, I am excited for tmr!! Hahaha so many fun things happening.
Ok first, training. Not the fun thing luh huh. Haha.

After that there's dance! :D
Although Justis isn't able to be there tmr, we're gonna recap. So yay!
Haha Jiali sent a msg abt it and I got a shock, cos it went like this:
"Hey Justis has been hit by
sinus infection &
multiple viruses........"

HAHA so I thought what, hit by a car or smth.

Yeah, then after that meeting JoLee woohoo! Hahah.
She claims that God has been making her wiser giving her words to speak so I stand to gain too hahaha.

Then aft that there's shpd's meet! :D
And aft that maybe gonna go shooting at night YEEHHAAAA!!
Night night night rocks ^^

Oh yes, a nice thing I realised about after a rainy day in the night (ok smth's wrong with the sentence), the roads are rather reflective due to the water!

So I'm looking forward to taking pictures using the wet roads as an advantage.
Teehee, exciting exciting (:

Oh, and I'm thinking of selling my camera...
To buy a Canon one.
Then I can start getting lenses from Canon.

Ok idk, what should I do?
Cos if I start getting lenses for my Nikon, then I'll be sticking with it for a very long time... Which I'm not really looking forward to. Haha.

Ah yeah, so anyway, if you know any info about Canon vs Nikon or whatever, give me some advice. Hahah.

Okay training tmr hope I dont wake up at 845 again goodnight!!!

2008-11-17T10:57:00.002+08:00

Went shooting yesterday with Renting and Shawn. Hahah.
Quite a cool combi right.

I wanted to go to the Buona Vista train tracks there.
It's a really nice place!!!

We walked all the way to holland or somewhere around there,
then went down the slope to go to the tracks.

But we realised its too much of an obstacle and Renting was really thinking very far.
Hahah like "oh no, what if this is the last time we'll be going home? We are endangering our lives. What if we fall, what if we do not make it back out? Oh no, all the What ifs..."

Hahaha she's really made for drama eh.
Okay anyway, so it took us much effort to stride over this longkang,
and we held on to some overhead bridge the stairs while doing that.

Haha so adventurous right.
Then when we finally reached, we still had to cross this ditch that's quite big to get to the tracks.
And there were lotsa mosquitoes...

So in the end, the final verdict was that we went back up.

I got like about 10 mosquito bites on both legs altogether,
and that is a lot by itself already, not considering the fact that we were only at the grassy area for about 10mins?

Haha but it's okay, what's this compared to hives?
It's just equal to 10 hives. Haha.

Yeah, so we went to town after that. Haha really sad kids.
Luckily it didnt rain yesterday though :D

wait, sidetrack:
HAHA the rain just changed direction. Just now it was raining from west to east, now the direction is from east to west. Quite cute ah the rain HAHA. (i mean, now im at home)

Yeah, then it was also bad yesterday because my camera batt was low, and I forgot to bring my memory card -.-
But thank God renting brought an extra so yay :D
And at 7.. I had to go for dinner, so she had nowhere to go..

Then somehow, Jinhan called her for dinner! Haha and he lived quite near tiong bahru which is where we were eating :D
So yay, it's quite miraculous how things fit in so nicely huh?

Cos at first I didnt know we had dinner, so we brought tripod and everything- no actually just tripod, waiting for at night to take night shots.

She also brought hers uh, so we were supposedly supposed to stay until night..
But thank God that jinhan came/asked just at the right time so she didnt need to stay out alone or go home alone (and without food).

Yay so TODAY, i was supposed to have training.
I smsed my maid to wake me up at 745 uh.
And she did, but I didnt wake upppp !

I woke up looked at the clock "815" or smth.
So I just closed my eyes again.

Then later I was dreaming of this weird thing THAT MADE ME NOT WAKE UP.
I dreamt that I was some kid that can't find the mum.
Then there was something on me uh, a mole, birthmark or smth.
Then I saw my mum having the same thing, and in my dream I thought my maid was my mum!
Then I didnt wanna wake up cos I wanted to find my mum.

So irritating leh.
It'll be quite scary if you fell asleep during exams, and dream that you're doing your exam man.

Then in the end I woke up at 845, reached the bus stop at 9.(trng starts at 9)

But in the end I went home and decided not to train.
Tmr then go. Haha.

Ok anw, some random photos that I took when I was bored/had nothing to do.

It's focused on the cupboard. I found it so cool man hahah.

Take a second look.

2008-11-15T23:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUAHUA!!!! (151194)

Teehee, you've been a great friend, a great person, a great hua!!!
Haha I think you're very encouraging and very motivating (certain times).
And really "wow" you for your hungry spirit when you just came in.
I'm really amazed by how you're so eager to learn more about God and the Bible and everything. :D
Like how you read carm, download podcasts etc etc just to learn more.
And even though with all these knowledge, you are still so child-like and so cheerful!!
Love your innocence (although many a times you may not be.. hahaha)
But yeah, you've really grown so so so much ever since you came in :D
And know you're in the pioneering team!!!
Also, goodjob in bringing your bro tooo :D
See now you have two of you to change your family (:
Keep on growing, keep on going, because you know and I know that this thing that we're investing in is going to be the only thing that lasts!
God bless you girl! Happy Birthday! (you are "forever 14" now HAHA)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!!!! (161194)

Hi Charrrrrz! (: Hope you enjoyed your birthday celebration hehheh ^^
Although it isn't VERY pleasant, but so many people said happy birthday to you, you should be pleased!! :D
Hahaha. Anyway, you've been a very enjoyable person to be with for the whole time I known you!
Really, haha I think your smile is good too,
even though ppl like to make fun of you, but don't care about them ah.
You've really showed me simplicity in walking with God too (:
I like how you're so open to things, as in if I ask, you will say kinda thing.
And kudos to you for that! Haha (I wasnt like that when I was your stage)
Thanks for being a great support too! I know I can always count on you ^^
Heehee, I always thought you've had potential to go far far far! (though I've never told you, now I am!)
And you gotta believe in yourself! (sounds cliche but true.. haha)
Because if I can, YOU can. Literally.
I think that you've really grown a lot though, since you came in.
You've grown to be a leader of someone's Life. (if that's not impt, what else is?)
From leading your own life, to being responsible for someone elses.
I wanna affirm you for your ok-lets-do-it spirit :D
Whenever things are suggested, you would follow along and do it even though you might feel inadequate or when you dont want to.
And because of the right heart attitude you have, you will be blessed (: really.
Thanks for being such a nice friend/sheep :D
I'm looking forward to serving with you big time many years ahead!!!
And I'm grateful that God has given me such a sheep as you too! Woohoooo^^
God bless you toooo!! And have a happy 14th!!! :D

2008-11-14T00:14:00.002+08:00

God is my bubble (that doesnt burst).
Must remember to keep talking to Him and hold his hand so that I wont fall down.
People can keep trying to throw things to hit me but the bubble will bounce it all off!

Look in front(at where you're going), not at the sides.
Only then you can be sure you're walking the right way.

Those suddenly came to mind and I decided to write it down before it slips away. Haha.
The body is strong but the mind is weak HAHA ok doesnt apply here but wtv.

Anyway, dance today was tiringg.
Haha we learnt one more portion.. The bridge part I think.

I hope we can really do it welllll at the end.. Hahah it's for Jesus' Birthday!!! (just to scare myself)

I think I gotta start slowing down my life..
Take time to dream...

I got a feeling that I'm trying to run ahead of God or leaving Him behind or smth.
Heh really man. I don't know why I'm so busy, such that when I am free, I'll feel weird.. Haha.

Ok nvm, I'm gonna find out the root of what's wrong during QT later..
I think I'm lost in my own world. Haha.

Alright, I've yet to get pictures from Renting, sad ):
Gotta go bathe, qt, fasting verse hehheh. BYE!

2008-11-12T12:11:00.011+08:00

Pictures!!!!
(those from my camera and raphael's only, gonna get from Renting soon)

These are the ones he took:

HAHA the bangsai position. He say cannot squat like that, must be one leg in front, the other leg down. Hahah but it's comfortable and I can go lower lorrrrrrz ):

Ghosting! :D

Can't take water for nuts..
The Flyer, tons of people have pictures of this alr, but ah anyway..
Panning! (or penning?) Teehee.. But I wonder how they do it for F1 cars..

Clarke Quay.. Near there.
My wallet lol.

fish tank haha

disgusting crabbbb.

ok this is just because it's interesting. haha, just point and shoot. but eh! so cool man haha, take wedding photo here. (lol see the photographer's camera there, can just steal and run luh)

Yay, that's all from my camera (:
Much more in RT's.

Haha I think I really suck at this kinda photography.....
I can't take architecture!!! Can't take nature...

Maybe next time I do a people-shoot.

Teehee, okay if there are any constructive criticisms/comments, just give yeah.
Thanks!

Byebyee.

2008-11-12T02:24:00.003+08:00

I shy, bu yao pai!

Hihihihi!

Today was a good good and fulfilling day (:
Haha I never felt so good about spending my time in a relaxing-yet-fulfilling way in a very long timeeee.

Fulfilling is most of the time, doing work. And it's neither fun, nor relaxing.

Haha but anyway,
I went shooting today with Renting and my friend's cousin - Raphael.
Haha he's the pro photographer that I talked about in some previous posts uh.

But not say those super pro until he makes a living out of it kind, more of freelance and stuff.

So, we went to esplanade, clarke quay, CBD area to shoot.
The weather wasn't the best of weathers..
The location wasn't the best either..
Idk, I feel that alot of people have pictures taken there.
So whatever you take, people already taken before.

And being noobs, we won't be able to take uhm.. interesting photos..?
Along that line la.

But I guess we still managed to learn quite a lot :D
At least now I know how to use the functions in my camera and not just waste my money by using the auto mode. Haha.

But I've still got a lot a lot a lot to learn uh.

Okay cos we were like shooting tgt, all three of us.
So we have our own camera, own pictures.. Right?

Haha so just now, I was editing my batch and he sent me those he took, with me and Renting in it.

So it's like, after I edit one, then click next, then edit, then next etc etc.

And the thing is that, when it came to the pictures that he sent, it was super distinct that it wasn't a picture from my set.

Normally you go, next next next next next,
But this is like, next next next next, then suddenly, PAUSE.

Hahaha cos it was a picture he took, and it's suddenly like,
Wow, this is what you call a REAL photograph!

Ahh but it's his lens also.
He bought other lenses so the quality and everything is different!

Mine is the noob kit.
Haha the one that comes with it when you buy the camera.

So it can't really do those kinda photos where you have a clear subject with a super blur background.

Can la, but only when I zoom super close..?
So like, maybe I can take people's... limbs? Hahah with the bg blur.
I only can take when the background is something far.

So ah ya, nvm, stick with mine for now.
AND ANYWAY, Nikon doesn't HAVE those kinda lens..

Cos his camera is canon..

So I gotta wait for it to be made.. ):
And man, I kinda regretted buying the D40x.

People are like "Damn X" on the forum.
They were comparing D40x with D40, and I also just found out that D40x has stopped its production, because of smth bad luh. Like price to high, not much functions etc.

It has no motor!!! ):

Idk what that is for, but I know it has to do with the kinda lens I buy.. So....
Hahah you know when you're just a noob, you'll want all the functions in the world so that you won't be left out.
Yeah.

No la, but I know the motor is quite important.
Things like megapixels aren't that impt.

OKAY, I feel like I'm talking to myself haha.

Lol I think my english is quite bad..
I had a hard time understanding when I skimmed through.

Ok wtv, it's understandable if you really read each word.

Haha pictures another day!!
I love having new pictures to post :D
(just dont like posting them)

Ok, tuition at 830 tmr (ha ha ha) good luck in getting up, Cleo!
It's 246am woohoo.....

Bye world!

2008-11-08T02:17:00.002+08:00

Ohmygoodness, I'm really so amazed at how many talents there are around the world.
And I really can't help but to be led on to think, how God has blessed them with these talents, and how powerful they are gonna be in the future if they use it for Him.

This boy has sorta like Desperation in his voice, although it might be touched up abit by computers and stuff, can you hear the power man!!

Teehee, Connie again. This video made me tear!
Heh, based on what the judges say and what I feel,
I think she really sings with understanding of the song.
That's why she's able to captivate audience. And here she's singing to her mum.
So touching right!
):
Goodness.. Lil kids nowadays.

You know I played the video of her singing "You raise me up", tgt with the original one by Josh Groban.
And I was quite shocked eh!
The power was like, the same!!

And you know Josh Groban has a really powerful voice right.
I so envy these lil kids ):

Then this one, THEY ARE THE CUTEST THINGS IN THE WORLD, REALLY.
Haha watch the entire performance ya.
I like Charlie!!! He's so adorable; like his acting, dancing (esp since he's a guy), his innocence and everything. Quite charismatic man. Haha. I hope when he grows up he doesnt become those..... dont know what kinda people. Haha.

But when I watched their performance, it was like a happy feeling. Idk why man.
But I think their innocence as children really made it so enjoyable!
Dont know how to say, but yeah.. They're so innocently-cute! Hahaha.
Go watch their Semis and the others also :D

2008-11-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

I felt so tired when I reached home today..

Haha. It was a super mind-ful day.
But I thought CG was great (:

I felt touched, someway or another.
Heehee, we shall continue our questionaire next week too!!

Anyway, I think dance is cool haha.
There was dance today with Justis and he taught us a new choreo (:
You know somehow I think even just by WATCHING videos... There's some improvement somewhere HAHA.

Or maybe not, maybe it was the practises for Xmas that got me more ready to learn new stuff. Haha.
But it was cool anyway (:

It really helps me relax my mind all those.
Hey cool, I just realised.
In this few stressful weeks I have sessions of dance to relax (:

So instead of it being another taxing thing that takes up time, must look on the bright side. HAHA.

ANDDDD, I wanna start taking photos again omg.
I miss sexyy ):

I'm thinking of going shooting sooooooon, but I always can't make it.
Hehh.. And I do need to improve on the pictures. So depressing. Hahha.

Thennn, I need to complete my work.. Haha.

Got lots and lots and lots of work to do. It seems quite impossible. Seems.
I Can Do It! HAHA.

Ok great, I really hate my tablet, cos it distracts me from EVERYTHING.
I have lessons at 730 tmr, CRAZY right.

Earlier than normal school time.
And it's holidayzzzz, c'monnn?

Haha but nah lah, she fetched us in her car when it was raining, so now it neutralizes.
Hahah. See I'm such a fair person....

Okay I shall stop crapping, BRINGING SEXY OUT TMR! hawhawhaw ^^
Yay BYE!

Thank YOU God for today!
I Loved today teehee.

Oh yes, let me tell you something very saddening today.
Extra info: I am very broke, I have hives = need to sleep early, but cannot sleep early because everyday is a long day, which = sleep late = cannot wake up early.
AND, lessons start early (lessons are everyday).

Teehee sorry I like long sentences.

OKAY,
so today I thought I had physics at 730am.. (which is yes, tmr)
And I woke up AT 730.

So thinking I was late, I cabbed down.
And thatttttt driverrrrrr was so irritating..

The cab fare from Dover to Redhill cost me $8.15?!
The cab fare from my house to cuppage (somerset) costs me less! Like around $7..?

Argh and I went to school for nothing!

But ah. At least I didnt spend the time in bed, and I had some fun playing with the stamp stamp thing that Clara and Asyikin has. Haha imma buy it! (:

Thanks for your stamp stamp thingies you two heh ^^

But on top of all these, I had dance and then had to rush to CG.
Even though it was rushy and tiring, but I thought today was good good (:

Thank God for all of you (:
And Art, Chai, Ty, Naz, Filza, Shermin, Zuoen etc etc who cared hehheh.
They were bugging me to go see a doctor for my hives cos it was really really bad.

But yeah, thanks for all your concern (:
I dont think half of them even reads my blog HAHA.

kk, bye bye bye bye bye.

2008-11-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

My hives are back.......
So annoying.

3 or 4 times alr..?
Haha. Those who keep tracked can count.
My brother just healed from it, and now it's my turn.

But it doesnt pass luh, it's... an individual thing.

Anyway, my dad said I could go to australia this holidays!!!! :D
Happy happy happy(:

Plus we're going alone! (if we go)
My aunt's staying in australia, so we can go over to visit and stay in her house. Haha.
So cool so cool I wanna go!!

Then I'm gonna bring sexy along (guess who).
She'll be my best friend there wherever I go! (:

But I hope I have time to go.
It's. So. Packed - My hols..
I never knew I was such a busy person.

Hahaha I told you God was preparing me to be a business woman alr!!!!
K, kidding, I dont want also..

Meh, anyway, I think hives came at the right time, cos now I am in need of alot of time, and hives just eliminated training from my busy schedule!!!

So thank God for hives in a way (:

Okay, I've deadlines to meet :S
Seeya soon people!!!(I dont even know who I'm referring to)

(btw, if you seen any cool dance videos or anything, post a comment/ send me the link alright? I need it for research. HAHA. K kidding. But I do need it. Thanks!)

2008-10-29T00:15:00.005+08:00

HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!

There's a halloween event right here, OPEN TO ALL. (even chickens and ducks! :D )
Cos it'll be a place full of strangers anyway. Hahah.
Yeah lorzz.. So just come, and scare yourselves, or others.
If you don't have any costumes, it's alright too! :D

The mask only hides the true ugly, man!

Yeah, so just be yourself, come clean with yourselves.
Haha and let people see who you really are.
But of course, if you're afraid that you'd be a huge threat, then please get yourself a mask. Mhmm {:

Okay, enough of blabberings, details!

Location: Theresa Ville (the condo near tiong bahru)
Time: 630pm (dinner not provided. have to suit according to hungry ghosts yknow..)
Date: Me!

K, kidding.
Date: 31st Oct 2008!! (this friday ^^ friday night, babeh!)

Contact me for more details (:

Do come, if you've never celebrated halloween before, or even if you did..

Who says all halloween parties are the same ol' thing?

2008-10-28T20:56:00.002+08:00

Haha, how true.
Am so lousy at dealing with discouragements.
And I'm gonna claim this (:

Keep me in prayer :D

2008-10-27T22:29:00.004+08:00

I really get touched by simplicity sometimes..

I think all it takes is just a good heart, the right attitude and simplicity in our lives.
There's no need for bombastic words or long sentences.
All it takes, is just you and your right heart.

I wanna constantly keep the child-likeness (not childishness) in me.

God can use anyone.
Anyone is capable enough as long as they're anointed by Him.
Take heart, keep faith, press on, work hard.

Go Cleo!

(woah, the word Go Cleo looks so nice together hahah. Substitute Slow with Go people!)

2008-10-27T00:21:00.002+08:00

Talented Kids

Haha this guy can really win the peoples hearts man. Very goood haha.

And he's crazy!! Skilledded.

Teehee, I like her voice ((:

Hahaha just watch the videos.. They're talented kids man.
And I need to sleep so I can't type much alr.
Byezxzxxz.

2008-10-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

Haha I finally started to reply the comments although they aren't a lot but haha.. I'm lazy..

Anyway, I have this stupid cut on my lip that's caused by my braces.
Haha and it turned into an ulcer?!

Does that happen? Or is that supposed to happen?
Pain eh.

Eat salty things also pain.

Oh yeah anyway, FREEDOM svc was great! :D
The starting skit was so coool ahaha.

I was guessing it sounded like some musical, then in the end it really was!
Not the singing kind, but the instruments kind uh.

Hahah yay that goes to show that they performed and planned it very well (:
Then the dance was cool too! (: smth new.

And the music, woah crazy man. Haha.
DJ, beatbox, singing, drums etc etc.
Love it ((:

But we were blocked by the ppl in front so we could only watch the screen.. Sad.
But ah, it was still good! Hahah.

Okay, I feel tired and dirty, cos I havent bathed ):
Byezz.

2008-10-23T22:15:00.006+08:00

Was starting to feel bored (which shouldn't be the case!) so I uploaded the pictures from Sunday - the day we went to Henderson Waves...

Haha ok my nikon wasn't working so saddd so I had to use some chapalang camera.
Okay maybe not so luh, but haha not nice one...

Oh anyway!
I saw many people with DSLRs there! So fun :D
Then there was this guy, wah, bring his whole kit of stuff.
Got tall tall tripod, umbrella? Lens cleaner, all the lenses etc.

I felt so tempted to ransack all the stuff. Hehheh.

Jungle trail lol.

I dont know what they were doing. They were trying to jump and spin 360 degrees. Hahaha.

Mymomma.
So high man. If my SD card dropped... Haha. (cos I was fiddling around with it)

Lol.. I thought the colours were nice?
This was some showroom/exhibition/event thing nearby the carpark. Haha Idk what it's supposed to be, but it looks nice and that's enough. (:

Hahaha very cool. Look like smth in the photography studio.

It's actually quite nice to go on outings like this as a family. Haha.
Okay maybe only for me.. But eh. It's good (:

At least there are people to take photos for etc. Yay k bye!
I have school tmr ):

2008-10-21T00:33:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching facing the giants (:
Even without the atmosphere and stuff, I'd say it was very good!

Just a quickie before I do my QT.
What sums it all up is that,
God is soo real, so tangible.

Sometimes we dread reading the bible or learning more of His word, because we seldom experience His works in our lives.
But the thing about doing QT (in general) is that, because He is just SO REAL,
We gotta learn more in order to keep up with His pace for us.

I mean, if we want to that is.

And learning doesn't become a pain, it's a joy!
Because we know that once we learn more, we know more.
And once we know more, we're more sensitive to Him whenever He moves.

I think this movie has totally refreshed me on so many things.
1) The commonly overlooked phrase
"With men, these are impossible. With God, all things are possible"

2)You gotta prepare your fields for rain.
- Once you ask for something, expect to receive it.
(When you expect to receive it, you would prepare yourself for it and not just sit and do nothing)

3)And most importantly, whatever you do, give your best to God.
Do it for Him. When he is ready, he'll shower his blessings down.

4) It's easy to lead when you're strong, but when you get weak, that's when it really shows, that's when you're really supposed to lead.
(not only about leading, but also in things that require perseverance)

I think this has reinforced the point about having faith.
I think faith is really a thing that fluctuates like crazy.. Haha.
Okay for me at least..

And faith is something that you gotta keep having to pull you through.
And you needa keep doing in faith, to practise your faith.
Otherwise, what faith have you?

Lastly, I'm just so touched (when watching the production of it)
Since it was a church production, the actors were all from the church itself.
The audiences etc etc.

And really, I'm so amazed at how each one of them supports their church so selflessly, even though it was really tough work.

How each one of them became part of that community and really grew in Christ such that they chose to be part of this production to glorify Him even more.

How none of them received a single penny from their efforts.
Or rather, how each of them didn't mind not receiving money for their time put in.

The death crawl scene?
The people were really in the hot sun, and they had many retakes etc (i mean throughout the whole movie)

By watching the production section, I myself already felt so pekchek.
And yet, they handled things so well, really putting everything into God's hands.
Praying before they start work, when they're tired.

And also, how their heartbeats can be felt, through this movie, and right here.
In a totally different location.
I just love how we may be seperated over parts of the world, but each and every one of us has that same heartbeat (and now I'm more sure of what that means haha),
that same passion for Christ.

I know how the coach felt when he was overwhelmed by God's goodness.
It might not be entirely the same, but the gist of it was there.

And it.is.sooo.coooool!!!!

Goodness, it really feels like a family.
If I imagine myself talking to them,
I think we'd all be able to clique so well.

It's like strangers on the outside, family on the inside.

Hahaha, seriously.
How can a greater Love than this, ever possibly exist?

And now I'm off to QT (:
(This post would be a nice one to read when I'm feeling down ^^)

2008-10-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

Telok Blangah Bridge!! (: (what is its original name actually?)

Went to the telok blangah bridge on one of the sundays. It's a nice place to take pictures haha.
Too bad I didn't bring my memory card that day, so I had to use another camera.
I shall upload more pictures once I find the camera :O

He's the Lord of the sunshine,
the Lord of the rain.
He's the Lord of the good times,
the Lord of the pain.
He's the Lord of the mountains,
the Lord of the seas.
He's the Lord of the children,
the Lord of the music,
the Lord of,
You and Me.

2008-10-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

ah great, God is answering my prayer.

Ironically...

But thank You for doing so, at least I am growing.

I am quite looking forward to overcoming it already. Not that I can. (It really seems like - impossible)
But I'm starting to dream of what would I be like after it's done hehheh.

That's like at the back of my mind.
I know that after each setback comes greater uhhh results. Haha whats that word.
Yeah Im'ma try ): (more like die)

BUT YEAH!
God is good, all the time (:

2008-10-18T22:55:00.003+08:00

I have no right to say anything's too hard for me, because Jesus has been through it.
And he was human.

At times I feel like giving up, but I do it, because I Love You.

How privillaged I am,
To have known Him (:

But I'm very sad that I keep losing sight of the vision to serve, to keep on going.
Seriously, I've got lotsa catching up to do.

I mean, yeah I teach, I show, but I think what I need now is the big picture.
And, not my own picture, but His picture.
I wanna know his vision for the group.

Somehow I feel that "I wanna see Crescent growing bigger by dont know how many" seems too general.
Actually, I think it is.
Also, not just the vision of crescent "big-banging", cos really, that's my own near-sighted goal. I want Him to lead me.

Okay la, maybe I put a number in.
But I want that number to come from God, not me.

Is that the furthest a vision for a group can go?
I don't think so.

But if that's the vision, I'd be glad too. At least there's an aim you see.
But I want a clearer one, a more defined one.
And, I'm expecting. (AS IN, expecting smth from Him)

So, what do I get if I expect much? (:

Much.

(:

I really thank God that ppl saw potential in me,
That they chose me to rise up.
Honestly, I don't see myself as a person who'd be able to lead well at all.

Okay, from a typical perspective.
I am lazy, irresponsible and dont take initiative.(even in things that I like)
From God's POV, its obviously possible.
I think rising up for me wasn't an easy thing.

I mean, I don't know why man. But I see ppl outgrowing me so quickly.
Ppl rising up so quickly. That's my degree of incapability.
I was lazy and irresponsible, yet ppl trusted me to do this role well.
And everytime I do a bad job, I feel bad.

But this feeling slowly disappears over time.
And still, ppl trusted me.

Idk how and based on what man.
I mean, if it was patience, I think this would've been very patient of them.
So now I feel that I'm slowly growing in responsibility and laziness and also abit of initiative.

Yeah I'm nowhere near overcoming it,
but I think its starting to grow, still at the start though.

But I believe, as long as my heart is right, and though I dread doing certain things but which i'll still do because of Christ, he will bless me.
I'm pretty sure of that.

I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to take anything like this.
But hey, I think I'm getting a hang of it.
And I'd wanna grow into one who has tons of this skill, so that I'll be able to move on and grow in other impt areas as well.

I'm still quite a lazy person, so you could say I'm a slow learner, cos you needa do to learn you see.

But yea, I'm gonna try to keep doing.
And not be lazy.
Cos laziness really kills.

Haha and now, I'm really trying to dig out desperation in me.
Since vision night was about that, and since I've been hearing about expecting from God and definitely receiving, taught about it.
So I really gotta carry it out.

Haha yay I suddenly feel excited.
And I just thought about something too.
I found it quite funny.

"People call me cheekopek, but you can call me tonight"

Okay la whatever alr. I dont feel like blogging anymore.
My house is not an emo place, therefore I do not get any feelings and thoughts.
Which is quite sad.

Meh, bye.

2008-10-18T01:13:00.005+08:00

Just updating for a bit, results were alright (:
As in, I was quite pleased.

My last time's L1R5 is 39.
That was my imbalanced life, pretty much neglecting studies, seeing it as not much of an importance.
(Cos before I heard about glorifying Him in every area of my life, I thought about Him coming back, and they said, live as if he's coming tmr. Haha so if he's coming back tmr, studies wouldn't be much of a use, right?)

Hahaha okay it was quite a happy thought but too bad, I basked in my own joy.

Okay but now, my FYEs improved. 27.
I mean okay, it isn't that good, but hey, that's 12 grades man.
People said I would retain.

My emath teacher said so, so did my dad.
But HA, in your faces.
I mean, God has really been so good to me. I see how it works when you stay faithful even during exam periods now, it's truly amazing.
And like I shared during CYB, I didnt feel emo emo and cry when receiving results.
Cos I know that I've studied my best with whatever time I had left, and I think that within that little amount of time, I covered so much more than I could have.

Okay! So maybe I will type out my eng compo, the one I felt so motivated/inspired by when I was writing it.
HAHA sounds stupid but yeah luh.

Anyway, for that essay I got 22/30! So yay it ain't that bad too (:
Ohoh, HAHA my SS SBQ I bet, was a huge shock to the teachers. Hahaha.

Cos there's 1a,b,c,d.
So each part on a fresh piece of paper luh.
Then I didnt start with 1a.

When the exam was going to end, I took my pen and a piece of paper and wrote
"1a)"
"The purpose of Source A is to convince"

HAHAHA then the paper was totally blank except for that sentence. And I got L1/1!!

Okay,
I was watching some dance youtube videos,
And seriously, all of them were so pro!!!!!
Up to the point they become freaky. Haha. Esp THIS ONE!

I was like, omg, they make dance seem like a gift given to certain people, and no one else will ever be able to have it.

Another one. Their controlling is soo good ):
I like the whole story plot thingy, as in like, the music flow.

Hahaha, am gonna attempt to learn the "shifting body" thing, cos it's like the easiest.
Then maybe the pacman wave or smth HAHA
Meh.. I realised what noob really is. Lol okay.

Going to sleeeeep nowzzz :D
Enjoy the videos!

2008-10-14T22:15:00.003+08:00

Receiving results tmr!!!!! :S

I dont know what to expect and hope for the best.
But I really feel that I improved.. Compared to MYEs and CT2.

Some pictures from Syaz's house warming..
lol and its literally: HOUSE

And: WARMING

Not trying to be funny, but these are the only pictures I took.
(As in not only two, but this is the nicest of the same types)

Okay nvm. Haha we have car-free day tmr! So we can reach school at 8am! HAHA.
Thanks to our sec 2s for coming up with such an idea for their PBL proj and got it actually carried out.

Welldone ppl ^^

GOOODNIGHT!!!
Today was an awesome day coz I spent time with wise ppl ~ :D

2008-10-13T21:02:00.002+08:00

Am I the only one having a busy schedule or am I the only one unable to plan my time?

Okay I dont think I'm the busiest.. But I wonder if everyone else is like that?

K I realised using the computer for too long makes your eyes tired/makes you feel tired.

And I just got reminded,
Satan doesnt need you to backslide, but just to let you become an ineffective leader.

Okay bai I'm going off now.
I'm suprised 4h of sleep can last me this long.
(I had post exam activities today as well, tiring k haha)

Oh yes, school invasion tour today :D :D
Got a free guitar pick, file, and a sweatband. Hahah.

OKAY, goodnightzz! :D

(Time check: 9.39pm)

2008-10-11T23:16:00.007+08:00

Hihihihiz :D

I loved today's svc.
Nothing special as of that, but I think it really spoke and touched me quite abit (:

I think setting your heart right before service really helps huh. Haha.
I was like, Ok God, whatever ok today. I'll be ready to accept take in absorb, just shoot.
Cos before svc I was still kinda messed up and everything.

But then the sermon and P&W was good (:
So yeah, I'm quite refreshed ^^

Okay anyway, today had dinner at some korean restaurant.
BBQ hotplate kinda thing.
So when I came home my clothes smelt smelly, my hair, everything.
The BBQ smell. (like seoul garden!)

Oh yes, while I was doing QT yst, I counted how many more days to camp (in attempt to plan SMTH up, but yeah yknow im quite a failure in planning..)

And I realised, we have 45 more weekDAYS to camp! (starting 13oct)
(omgoodness i cant find my QT book!!!!!!) I think my maid anyhow pack until...

Ahhhh.. Nvm... I shall fret over it later haha.

Yes so anyway, 45 days means another 9 more weeks of weekdays?
Equals to 9 CGs, 9 shpdings each at least. Haha.
I must work within this time!!!! I dont know how to start. How?

Someone, plan with me! :D

Okay nvm. Picturesssss

Guess what this is.

I thought it was oil!!! You can drink it mannn. Hahaha it tastes like roasted barley or smth, and its good for your throat :D
HAHAHAHA dont you think my bro looks like that guy there, if you cant see the guy..
Here's a bigger version. Hahah. I think they look alikeee. Just add more hair and moustache around there, can already.
Okay then these were the towels they gave us. They rise when you add water to them! Add first they were flat tablet-like things. Super cool.
Ahaha the wok.
Jiejie angela!! (it feels weird just calling her angela, cos I call her jiejie angela. Hahah.
Anyway, this dinner was cos she's leaving tmr morning back to aussie. So yeahh ^^
Maha glowing rice.
The chicken + mushrooms :D They were great man!
Hahah okay. Eh need skill one k. My camera cant autofocus no more ):
And, this is GROSSSSSSS. I mean, cooked still okay la, but.. raw!!! hahaha. But still, good job. Lol.
He was being funny.. Trying to act like my cat. Hhahah.

I just thought this looked better in B&W lol.

Okay Goodnight I totally wasted my precious time ):
Bye worldddddd

2008-10-10T01:37:00.003+08:00

Oh I dreamt of this VERY SCARY ALMOST REAL thing today.
And I tell you.. It was really scary.
No not nightmare, but its like, in the dream, I could feeeeel.
Emotions were incurred! It's just so scary.
I woke up and started to stone about it.
And it's quite gross too, come to think of it.
Eeeew, bleh.

Oh yeah, I got a question.

Does
Judgement = Acting on your thoughts?

Meaning like, if you think something of someone, but don't do anything about it(such that it almost seems like you never thought about it), is that called not judging?

Because the main problem of judging is cause your impression of people is changed and thus you treat them differently and all.. right? Hahah.

So technically, if you don't act on your thoughts, it isn't really considered judging?

Anyway, I just saw these, and something came into my mind.
I think true beauty comes from within, no? (eh, not the usual cliche thing)

I think this girl has become so much more beautiful.
From when she first joined us as a lil sec 1 kid till now, she looks prettier, but I can't seem to identify the specific area on the external.
What else, it must have been the internal that blossomed {:
Kudos t you! ^^

2008-10-09T21:14:00.005+08:00

Hahohahohahohe exams are overr! :D

A very known fact, but oh well.
Actually, the only relief I feel is that the pressure to study for smth within a limited time is gone.

I don't really feel extremely overjoyed or what.
But anyway, on wed (the day that we end), went to watch House Bunny with V.tan and zwen.

Haha okay I totally didn't know about that show or what is it..
It was quite sick.. But it was funny luh.

It's those kinda dumb blonde jokes, bimbo show etc.

Yeah after that we went to play FOOSBALL ^^
For the first time, it was the challenging and tense yet fun.

Foosball iz coolz.

Hahah and watched Mamamia today! :D
Oh man it's nice.

Quite funny also in a way.
It makes you feel like you're in this happy land of teletubbies with no other care in the world but just dancing and singing.

Haha and after watching I felt as if I was in that kinda world.
Okay, I've been away from blogging from so long.. So now I dont know what to blog.

Haha okay I shall show some outdated picchas :D

Joel's Birthday!

Hahah I love the ceiling light, somehow.

HAHAHAH okay. To clear misconceptions, JQ's hand made a very big disaster.
They were playing; eating fries.. But somehow, they went super close. Daring ppl huh.
Yeah see, fries.
JUMP!!!
Ahaha okay I wanted to send something like this in for the canon thing.. But I didnt ):
JUMP!

Cleo is lazy to post more photos.
End of photo gallery today (:

Coz Cleo has many other things to do,
and Cleo is going to be a good girl and plan my everything properly,
so that I will prioritize and NOT stay up so late unknowingly, sleeping at 245am, knowing that the next day I have to wake up early and thus making the next day a bad day.
(I was referring to yst night)

Therefore, Cleo ending here is a good thing because it provides her with an early rest, more time to do the more important things, and the control over her tablet, which often seems like an addiction.

(I think I failed my SS..)

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G(ah, 'night!)

2008-10-06T00:27:00.004+08:00

Dont you think it's such a nice picture!!!!?? Although it's a bit pixelated. It's taken with a normal camera, doesnt have as good features as a DSLR, but it's nice!
Kudos to uncle!! ^^

I feel happy today!! :D
Like a piece of heavy molten rock just torn off me.
Okay not really.

But I feel a lighter heart.. (wrong use of words?)
Lighter at heart?

Yeah. Haha maybe it's linked to the exams coming up getting lesser..?
Hopefully not though. Haha.

One thing I realised is that being judgemental have lotsa effects and it took me quite long to change my mindset for the better.
I mean it is hard to control your thinking to a certain extent right..
Yes but I'm trying, and I think I can do it :D With a certain cautiousness.
Cos I feel it improving somehow, but I shouldnt speak too soon yeah. Haha.

So now I'm still at sq 1.

Yay, stupid me..
Okay, nvm. Off to study geog now!!

(studied with inez, huiwei, char, bh & zuoen today :D and it was great!! It's good to have great company with you while fighting through the work)

2008-10-04T00:05:00.003+08:00

Please save your eyes, dont read if you dont have to.
Posted due to sudden ____? (poor vocab me)

I am so furious I should've entered my (gummy bears) picture for the nuffnang photo thingy!!! The winner's picture is nice... but I hate it when I didn't even send in any picture and you know maybe stand a chance or something.
It's just many what if's.. luh huh.
I don't care I'm going to take part in the next contest haha. C'mon, the prize for this was a Canon EOS 100D!!!! ): I could use a good one, mine sucks, to be honest..

Cos it's like not here not there.
If you want it to be a pro one, then it should be better than this nikon D40x.
If amateur, then I shouldnt have spent so much.
Heh, okay I can't stand it really ): The winner is so fortunate!!
But I cant stand it, she camwhores too much!! Hahah. Okay I should be careful of what I say.
Grrrrrr, and ever since my D40x was dropped (not by me of course), it started screwing up here and there.
Tsk.. I am discontented.

Okay, I'm planning to do many things during holidays.
I should start saving up ^^
Am thinking of getting lenses and extra equipment (: Or maybe start saving up for a new compact camera.
I like ren ting's one ^^
Sorry I'm such a spendthrift, but ey, I would sacrifice quite alot of my materialistic things for the benefits of my camera..

Which just goes to show that I (L)(L)(L)(L)(L) my camera forever! Haha.

Hmm, I'm still planning to go shooting!! (: it'll be like a photography consultation heh heh. So exciting.
And plus i have a pro photographer as a "friend" even though I only "use" him when I need him.

HAHA okay nvm he wont see this anyway. JOIN ME PPL! Let's go shooting together :D (If you're lost, by shooting, I meant taking pictures).

I'm gonna be a electronics(?) freak in the holidays (maybe).
Im gonna improve my ptshp skills, editing skills and whatever else I find interest in.

THEN, on my mission trip (if im able to go), I'd bring my camera along and it would be just the two of us looking into each other's eye everyday (as in plus the purpose of the missions luh).
SO FUN! If you share the same joy, good for you. Haha.

I should name my camera someday. Any ideas?
I feel weird calling it "my camera".
It's like calling your pet dog "eh my dog, come here!"

Oh yes!!! how can I forget, im gonna try studio wu or smth.
With winnie and buanhua (are yall still on??) :D
If not then valencia. Teehee.
I know i cant dance but.... thats why im learning!

Yay i totally feel like an arts person now. Oh yeah, I did mention i wanna learn to draw. Sounds so noob, but yeah thats what i am.
Really eh, i was thinking la, since my mind is pictorial, meaning, i remember things by pictures (they're stickmen btw!),it'd help if i were able to convey my thoughts and feelings through pictures?
Im sure many have seen how horrible my drawings are.
If you've not, haha good for you luh huh.
Yeah, but that one.. Im not really interested teehee.
cos im lazy and i dont like formats and steps.

Alsooooo, i wanna read many many books!!!!!
Like, The case for (all three). Hahah. ah you know all those kind.. Hahah.
Yay im excited.

And then, i'm gonna go shopping!!
Okay that's not really on the list cos i have better things to spend money on..
AH I KNOW, i'll get my mum to get me to buy clothes from london!!! (omg im such a genius :D okay will elaborate abt london later)

her style is diff from mine though, so like what she buy i cant wear even though it looks nice alone? you know what i mean.. Haha.

I wanna play nice songs on the piano, on the guitar so that I can play more songs fluently SO THAT i can have a smooth worship time by myself.
I find myself so stupid.. Cos i try to play and sing together, but the playing always hinders everything haha.. yes shush.

I wanna go and decorate my room!!!!(but thats highly impossible cos i failed last year)paste it with drawings i draw that inspire myself (and hopefully others)
SO COOL I LIKE! :D

I wanna learn to be more efficient and plan my time better!!!
Yes im improving(Y) REALLY OKAY. I SHOW YOU AH.

ANDDDD, I wanna prepare my diary/journal/planner for next year! :D
so that i'll be motivated to plan more! :D

Yayyyyyyy and above all these, I wanna be able to grow many many in God.
Hols are the time man. i wanna wake up early everyday and not waste my day away by waking up at like what.. 12? and have only 6hours of brightness.
Mahaha kleoiskool.

Okay nvm, so maybe there's a reason why I wasn't selected for London, probably because then, I wouldnt be able to go for missions!! Maybe, just maybe. I'm trying to make myself happy here. Don't burst my bubble.
Wait you know what. My MUM's going to london!!!! I am so like (?!?!?!) with her. Hahaha. I dont mean angry or what, I meant.. WHAT THE HECK?

Why london of all places, purposely rub salt in my healing wound.
Hahah. Since when did we ever get to go to a place like London in our holidays!!! ):
She's going during 7-17 or smth so I CANT GO cos there's church camp! ):

forever make things clash with camp one lorrzz. But too bad, Camp>london. (i realised, its two totally diff places in terms of how spiritual hahaha.
London = wild and high etc. Camp = growth!! out of the world^^)

She'd be with my aunty and uncle anyway, so they'd be doing all the weird things that I had to join them in, like when I went Taiwan last year.

It was quite tiring and fattening cos they consume tons of food each meal and they never missed a meal!! Ok I hope they dont eat so much in London, cos srsly, the food there is oil.
Okay maybe not entirely, but you know.. fast food comes from the west.

OOH one more thing. I. Am. The. Ultimate.
I was late for sch today, 5mins late.
My dad fetched me though.

Because last night, I fell asleep while studying SS + Lit (GM.
I woke up at 3am and found that I fell asleep while studying! (I almost kicked my tablet off my bed)
So i cleared my stuff to the floor and went to sleep.
Aghh I hate it yknow.

I hate being late. I don't like councillors asking me for my name.
I don't like to write anymore essays cos I totally waste my pen ink scribbling nonsense about discipline, punctuality, respect and what else...

I have something against my sch too.
They are such result-freaks! As in the sch system not the students.
Everything given to motivate us is about STUDIES. Like what, without hardwork there is no success (cant rmb), and what,
perseverance is not a long journey, its many short journeys in one (talking abt o's)
And the worst of all, they contradict themselves saying, Character is destiny!
We must develop strength of character and promote our school motto.
Yes i totally agree on developing strength of character, but our sch doesnt even give us opportunity to develop it!!
All the trips given, are to aid in our Knowledge about more things in the world.
You'll seldom see a trip that brings you around in order to grow your moral values etc. Like maybe compassion, uhh resilience? wdv luh see now i dont even know what moral values there are haha.
i mean there WAS.. like trips to sarawak etc to help the ppl there.
but now its cancelled to save money for our sch facilities.. for the future sch thingy. its soooo wanna-kill-them.
they care too much abt sch reputation and carving a name and all. dont you think so?
when i first stepped in i could feel the boring kinda life.
at first it quite proved me wrong in sec 1 and 2, because of the sch culture last time and cos the sec 3s and 4s that time were gonna graduate alr.
but now.. haha.
and actually, i quite enjoy listening to cme lessons cos they were the only REALISTIC ones. the rest just kills.. and drives you up the wall (and maybe you can, cos you would've been a robot by that time)
They say, studies help you develop perseverance and moulds your character so that you'll be ladies and leaders of tommorow.
Mould what character? You dont need character to be able to score well..
And they use studies and results as a reason or itself, to mould our characters.
Seriously man.. I can't stand it leh. Not that it isn't a good school.
But I find there's something missing, and sch feels so dry.
I enjoy studying more now, but not because my sch is studyschool.
that would make me hate it actually.. ahhh well.
and because the sch moulds the students, its nowonder people also end up like the sch.
Ah maybe its not anything close to the truth, but haha i srsly feel there's something missing.
YEAH OKAY, my emotions are all thrown out alr, I feel quite peaceful now.

Thank you for your time, God bless you ^^

PS. Thanks Cheryl for your help in soooo many subjects and for all your notes love you man ^^ and zuoen for your amaths crash course in 30mins.
PPS. Yuxin's bday celebration rocks!
PPPS. I still need help in time management though (:
PPPPS. Cleo is so dead, cos she needs to bathe and do amath but its like 0106 now and i have amath rem tmr at 8 in sch. si le la.

2008-10-02T01:18:00.003+08:00

Pure randomness and impulsiveness and sudden urge.

No, I don't believe that it works this way. Haha I don't think that once you become christian your friends are only that of Christians.

I guess why many a times it turns out this way is because we feel much more comfortable being around our church friends because of the way all of us are as we are growing in Christ. (like people turning over a new leaf, becoming more patient to stand your crap and stuff like that maha)

Okay what crap, I think as we become Christians our friendships should grow outwardly(worldly) not the other way round man! Okay, maybe both ways, so that it'll be of equilibrium.

So, it's time to strike a balance huh ^^
Let's go study!!!

I think I'm becoming more successful in becoming a nerd! (:
Aw man, how cute..

Had cg today :D
I realised I get high for the weirdest reasons (where there isnt really one at all)
Which is why it's weird.

Okay goodbye, there's still something wrong I must go figure!

Oh and anyway, I thought of this cool-nerd phrase.. quote.. whateverrrrr!
*he he he (prawn laughter)*
(i totally spoiled the solemn-emo-whaddahellyouwant-atmosphere)

Life is like maths, you gotta go through many problems in order to improve.

Nerd-cool or what!!

"...Nerd-cool!"

2008-10-01T00:31:00.002+08:00

Haha. What do you think of when you think about the life of dogs?

A very stupid kinda topic/question.
But... Whatever, I didn't really mean it anyway. Haha.

That's my dog and my neighbour's (Chanel) dog. :D

Pan shi chen married a cute zebra in thailand lorry hits chinese society girls.
Okay, I've completed chem revision for this one topic.

2008-10-01T00:03:00.002+08:00

Something is seriously wrong but I don't know what.
I can feel it coming.

Or maybe its already here, just that it's still small.
Small as it may be, it spreads - like a cancer cell. (I'm positively sure it does)

Geez, I feel like running into a hole in the wall.
I'm too lazy to bury my head into the floor.

Hmmm I think I lost sight of many things..
Everything's too happening.
And they tend to get even more happening when it starts getting happening, if you know what I mean.

Like, why am I blogging now? Haha I kinda don't understand what I used to last time.
Oh man, senile dementia.

It's so frustrating, disgusting, sickening, embarrasing, self-kicking, mutilating, flicking, head-bangin', irritating.........

This is like, self-created trouble. How did I even start? I don't know either..

Ok I'm not being emo. Cleo is man/men's best magazine, didn't you hear?

I'm going to be the base, bottom, foot, underneath.... rump. (Hahaha)
(the cute word itself and the thing it's describing is so not complementary)

Going BTB ^^ (though it sucks..)

2008-09-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

Should I shift my blogg..?

I like my blogger skin though. Haha. But I don't really like the system.

Okay nvm, I shall be lazy for now.
Anyway, let me tell you my great adventure to school on Friday morning.
(It's the day that I had my Mother Tongue Paper. Generally papers start at 8 sharp)

SO, I left my house at 640 plus minus, well I would reach school at 705-710, depending on my route.

I have two routes to go to school btw.
One is by following the MRT line route (111, which goes directly outside sch)
and the other is the highway (33, I need to change to 111 or 51, which goes to the backgate of my sch)
And, I have bus concession so I can afford to change buses :D

Registered? :D (It's just nice to know)

Haha okay, SO it was raining heavily and since we were having exams in the HALL,
I decided to be a good girl and wore my legal, dark blue coloured shoes, which had holes (which was precisely why I bought a new orangey-red one, which is illegal).

And so, before I even REACHED the bus stop, my socks felt damp already. ):

Yes, so when I reached the bus stop, I realised 33 had just passed.
(that's the latest 33 that I could/should take, in order to not be late. Rhymes!)

But the bus was caught in the massive jam (cause its a school zone, Fairfielddd)

Then another two buses came and went, and were also caught in the jam.
So I figured I should go catch them, since if I walked, I can reach fairfield bus stop before the buses do.

Haha smart decision eh?

I did just that, and my shoes flooded.
Then I saw Louis Ong who encouraged me,"late again huh?"

Well, then after that, I took 166 to the next stop and alighted.

Okay i really don't wanna elaborate..
Then I got on 14 until alexandra hospital. Haha.

Then from there, I thought I could take 51 all the way to behind school.
So I took.

ANDDD, it was in the WRONG DIRECTION!
Trust me to be street smart I know..

So I ended up in some foreign land (not really, still singapore)
And I was stranded there, cos the rain got heavier. How wonderful right.

I wanted to cross over, but I had to walk some distance and my shoe, apparently,
was already SHOOTING water when I walked, not being exaggerating.

Hahah I was quite amused.

And since that bus stop was sorta below a slope, water was flowing down like.. endless.

So I had to stand on my heels to avoid water flowing into my shoes.

Yeah and I wanted to take taxi but there was none.

So I took 198 back to commonwealth, then 111.

So I was safe and saved, but after a few stops, I realised that I was travelling BACKWARDS.

Back to buona vista bus stop.
I got down and people were like crowding around to avoid drizzles.
Hahah I was so frustrated I just strode through them.

Come on man, I was already like some floppy chicken.
Plus I was holding my chinese dictionary + jacket + notes.
Capability = 120%

Ohyes, I was thinking of going to school to get notes from people to study k!
So judging by now, I had no time at all alr which = die.

Ok wdv, so I crossed the bridge and just nice 111 came :D
So I was a happy kid for a while.

I was busy memorizing the format in the bus cos I had nothing else to do,
and I didnt want to sit and do nothing cos I wanted to avoid the eyes of the working population.

They're kinda scary, cos they give off this cold and empty atmosphere.
Like as if.. I'm sitting with zombies..

Okay so I memorized, and it was the most productive session ever!!!!
I felt like Siya! HAHA.

It was a formal letter to praise this cleaner.

So I reached school and did like, a walkathon in, then after that I ran to the hall.
Apparently the exam had already started and I, still being wet and flustered and all, was not at all ready..

Except for that piece of thing (which had a hole in the centre by that time) I memorized in the bus.

So I sat on stage (cos I entered by backstage) and did my paper.
Lol yknow the stage is for people with problems, like can't see words properly, hand deficiency etc.

So yeah, but I felt it was quite enjoyable doing it there.
Like you get to be alone and in your own world, with no one beside you and stuff.

People, you should all try it one day.
Plus you get a personal lamp!

Yeah, and the other thing is, they gave me addtional 10mins!! :D
Which wasn't supposed to be allowed, cos there's this rule stating:
Any student who comes late for the exam would not be given extra time.

And another:
Any student who arrives 30MINS after the paper started, would not be allowed to take the exam.

So luckily, they started the paper later, plus I had extra 10mins! :D
And one more blessing was that, the paper I memorized, the exact format came out!

And you know how it is when you are able to take the paper right after reading the 'answer key'?

Yes, all the info is still stuck in your head fresh! :D

So I was like, ohmygoodness thank God! (cos really, I didnt know what is gong/si han until after the paper)

Yes, so I chionged that, and I wrote two pages full, signed off on the third piece of paper I think.

Then after that I did bao zhang bao dao, which was 2 + abit more pages long!!!
That is a miracle okay! For me.

I can never ever reach 1.5pages during normal lesson practices.
And so happened the night before I was studying my tuition practice bao zhang bao dao paper :D

So the format and stuff were also in my head, and I knew what to write cos I sorta, roughly, did that question before!

Haha in tuition or in school, I'm not sure.
But really, thank God man.

I think if I wasnt late and stuff, I wouldnt have memorized the format for gong han,
and then I wouldnt be able to rmb how to start off.

And, I wouldnt have gotten extra time! :D
Plus on stage, they sorta 'let me' fill in my blanks. lol.

Cos she still stand there let me flip through. So I took advantage and took my pen and added in some missing words lol.

BUT YEAH, all in all, it was such an eventful morning.
And I'll never forget it, cos my stinky shoes left such an impression on me,
but even more, how God can work through such time-wasting and poking-my-emotions kinda thing.

Yknow what I mean? Hahaha.
Like playing with your feelings kind.

But yeah, somehow, I wasn't as fearful as I was when I was late for listening compre for PSLE. (oh crap..)

Hahaha. Oh man, I can totally rmb.. Embarrassing as well.
My PRINCIPAL, told me to breathe.. And after the listening compre,
my friend said that I have peanut butter on my mouth. HAHA.

But yeah man.
I've learnt from today's sermon, to not box God up, but let Him work in His own ways.
It's not always "This will happen when this situation occurs".

But now it should be "This situation is happening. Hmm, Dad, what say you?"

Yup, gonna keep that in mind :}

AND YAY, thankyou sherlyn for your bag!!!! i wuvv you~
But im quite skeptical.. Maybe if you'd given it to others they might need it more?
Heh cos I know I openly asked, thick skinned-edly as well. Haha if you understand my english.

TEEHEE SORRY FOR LONG POST, if you did read everything you are WONDERFUL ^^
Welcome to my life~~ (:

2008-09-21T00:45:00.005+08:00

Tell me,

How much do you dare to accept honest advice?

And after this, go to http://tipboltshands.livejournal.com
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2008-09-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

I thought Zach's teaching today about leadership was good (Y)

He still say not teaching.. Haha got so many points to note.
But anyway, that was on perspective that i didnt really realize.
Mine was always, we're leading LIVES not people.

What he taught was abit more in depth than my idea.
Like bringing them from 0-10 and how everyone can be a leader (:

I thought that was refreshing and motivating(?) in a way.
And although it was noisy and itchy, i thought the message got across still. Haha.
Unless that's not the only one..?

Anyway, I realised self-awareness is really important.
Not in the insecure way luh. Like, be aware of your body language,
what message does it put across, those kind.

It's quite impt eh.
Like, that will cause your relationship with people, your impression on others.
But don't be aware of it because of a wrong motive luh.
Use them in the right way. Haha.

Okay, see I forgot to write down points i wanted to blog on my phone now i cant rmb.

Anyway, i think today was a great day. thinking day. Haha.
It's one of those days that you'll feel the emptiness despite the loud noises and activities around you, get what i mean?

But for me is not emptiness la (cos THAT specific emptiness is filled, its the stillness of God kinda thing) (:
and i really love that feeling.

I've made a "rule" for myself, which is to send an encouraging msg to someone everyday.
hope i'll follow it haha.

Ok anw, i'm quite happy to see how crescent's moving along (:
I know my CGs haven't been up to standard (my standard, at least)
and I'm really sorry abt that.

But i thank God for clara and charmaine that they're my faithful sheep that i can count on :D
(they waited till 4+ when CG was supposed to start cos of my lessons)
And i think these people deserve much more.

It's because of God and because of people that i serve. Hahah yay i rmbed smth!

Yeah now its very true.
So yeah Clara charmaine!
Keep on doing what we're doing alright (:
(clara reads my blog not very often but soon enough she'll read this haha)

Hahah i'm sure you know we needa improve on our r/ship.
And i needa tell you somethings too.

But yeap, you're doing well and i hope you two get the significance of it too.
(Pls talk to me whenever you want okay <3)
I am really blessed to have them as my sheep. Hahah.
Means i dont think im ready for sheep bites yet.. i think. im noob for now. haha.

Ok but this sat was really a different one from usual. and i love it <3

It's almost the same as post-camp feel. Haha. but not as much uh.. heh.
Okay, this was a really heartfelt post and w/o motives.
I never dared to post such stuff.. Cos its too.. strong. Haha.

But heck, since now i dare i better do so.

Anw, wanted to talk about my eng compo too.
You know i was so happy about it after it ended man!

Not because i've finished one paper. But because of the content.
It's like, idk luh, but it felt like i shared a testi and that warm feeling from within just overcame me.

Oh man. I wanna be a motivational writer+photographer+psychologist!
(i think psychology is cool)

Living life to touch lives. isn't that nice? Haha.
Unlike hazel, living life to touch kids. (no, not literally hahah)
Naw, i love kids at certain points of time too, i just get bored of seeing them everyday HAHA.

Maybe i shall develop on my compo and post it up someday!
Although my english isn't good, but what i wrote myself inspired me.
Sounds crazy i know, but it's worth a read.. heh.

Okay I feel like im upside down.
Means i gotta stop blogging.

I love joanne and angelina (from impression) cos they're so patient :D haha.
If i were them i would be so irritated.

Okay, goodnight people!!

CLEO LOVES ME! :D

2008-09-18T11:02:00.001+08:00

GO CENTRAL C!

:}

2008-09-16T21:28:00.004+08:00

Heh joanne dont kill me.
Okay I'll give myself 30mins to blog this out. Haha.

It's quite a pointless post but I feel like relaxing for a while first..
Uhm. YEAH.

Okay, so I was bathing.

Then I spent the first 15mins (with the water running..) blowing my nose.
Haha its nicer to blow your nose in the shower than using tissue or the tap yknow.
Try it sometime.

Hahah cos if you blow at the sink, then the tap water will flow down your arms to your elbows when you wash your nose, you know what I mean?

Hahah. Then I blew my nose from my throat, which was why it took me a long time..
I think it feels quite cool HAHA.
Now I know how they blow the strand of spaghetti out their nose when they eat it through their mouth.

Okay when I bathe I always have random thoughts and they always make me laugh/ excite me/ inspire me. HAHA.

So I thought I wanted to share some..
for the fun of it la.

I saw my reflection of my arm on the floor while I was putting soap.
Haha then I was amazed.

I thought it was quite cool. Haha cos its just the outline of the arm, plus shiny shiny abit. Like how aerobics people perspire when they do aerobics.

Super sexy man. (in context of: "my sexy phone!")
Yeah you know what I mean la huh. Haha.

Then when my feet started sliding because of the soap, I tried doing the slide and glide thing.
HAHA cos I thought it was quite cool to be able to at least do it, realistically. HAHA. Once in a while cheapthrills la yknow.

Okay guess this thing.
Haha its like a maths + lit combined kinda question.
I thought of it in the shower too.. And I got a feeling its kinda true.. Abit la.

disclaimer: Im standing up and looking down at all times.

I think (my feet seems to look smaller and smaller everyday !!:D )

I won't give clues yet.. Use your brain! It's quite a simple answer, don't think too hard or you'll feel like killing me if I reveal the answer.

Hahah okay it's a logical thing..
It's a not lame sentence. (though the way that sentence you're supposed to guess is kinda lame..)
And don't take it literally, at all ((:

Okay! It's 0954!!~~ Woohoo I kept to time! :D

LAST OF ALL: Don't judge me by what I do/did. HAHA.

2008-09-15T20:33:00.002+08:00

Complete the sentence..

When I feel down, sad and hopeless, I........

(Haha can tag at the 'comment' at the bottom of the post)

2008-09-07T22:34:00.002+08:00

I realised I am seldom able to balance everything.

Eg, when family goes up, studies drop drop. when studies goes up, many other things drop.

Eee sucks.
Haha okay I feel guilty using comp.

Eoys in 12 days time! :D

Who's 50% prepared? or more.

2008-09-03T01:13:00.003+08:00

Hi! I haven't been here for 10 years now.
Life's still good. Haha.

Ok anyway, Final Years are in 16 days time according to Lynette.

That is VERY little.

Yay but yesterday, only yesterday, Bridget and Ang helped me plan out my study timetable :D
Thanks for your time manz :D :D
I know I'm quite loser haha but yknow I hate timetables..
Though it feels very good following the timetable you planned.

Now all I have to do is to follow. Easy enough - when said.

Very stressful. Haha.

Hmm, I'm starting to find some sorta joy in studying, thanks to Angelina :D
I'm gonna be a cool nerd soon. Though I doubt I can make it (as a nerd - also got qualifications one k)

WE'LL SEE! :D

Anyway, I was just thinking.

Honestly.. I was quite frustrated. I mean, ok, we're not even supposed to judge.
But alright, opinions are fine too I guess?

But how can one make opinions without having fair comparison from both sides right?
How can you side one party without even finding out about the other?
Or rather, not even wanting to find out.. How fair is that.

As much as you think you are right, you'd still have to work from both sides to prove that you are right.
If you choose not to even consider the other side, it shows two things:

1. That you're either unsure of your stand, or 2. You just choose to drown in your own ignorance.

I wouldn't mind people wanting to challenge and find out about both sides.
I would gladly state points on my side.
Cos personally, I like to find faults with things I dont agree with as well.. so haha.

OH anyway, great newss!!
I FOUND MY I <3 JC SHIRT!!! haahahaha.
So happy. I lost it for a period of time.

Haha 'longitudinal' say it fast yo.

Okay, I'm going to stop typing this post.
WHO LOVES CLEO PLS BLINK YOUR EYE!

thanks I love you too <33333

2008-08-24T00:52:00.013+08:00

My School's National Day Celebration Photos + some random ones.

Say Hi to Siying Filza and I : }

Hahaha Phang looks fake/dead here, with her brown hair and hands and weird eyes..
Mr sun sun, Mr golden sun, please shine down on me! :D (who know's that song!)
Walao filza, very anti climax with the sun leh. You're supposed to look peaceful at least.. Haha.
PSC photographer ^^
Our sec one dancers!

Okay I dont know how to use my camera.. Soon soon nicer pictures are coming your way.

OHYEAH! hahahah how can I forget.
On wed, there was assembly, this prize giving thingy for the "Memorable Moments" in blablabla contest.. I got a shock seriously.

Anw, the prize sucked. Heh.
Sorry for being unappreciative.. But it really does. ):
Its a photoframe can you imagine!

Andddd, I think that winning photo was very ... ugly.
I thought the one with Amelia and Michelle running was nicer. Haha.
But my mom said that that one didnt show the feet (cos I went to crop) so thats why.

But wtv, the photography people didnt take part, which was why I even stood a chance.
Dang, shouldve joined photography club. Hahaha.

It's like free lessons somemore. Canoeing, waste my time ah.
HAHA okay expecting flamings soon.

But freedom of speech!!!!! (LIT STUDENT)
Yay love my camera(though it sucks..), going to shoot with pro photographer soon!!! YAYZ :D

ANDDDD I WANNA WIN THE CANON EOS100 bla camera! OMG. Hahahaha. If not, 2nd or 3rd prize is good as well. Heh.
If you don't know what im talking about, too bad (:
If you do, haha good for you! (help me by being the models for me)

Okay, the departments' competition. English.
Woohoooo whole school!

Walking signboard competition.
HAHA CHARMAINE! GGGF (: (gay girl gay face) meaning happy kinda gay.
you'll never see me looking chikopeh again..

needed peer support.
I was waiting at the rooftop garden of some HDB flat for a sunset.. And apparently, the sun didnt set!!!! >:/

But I just took a few to make my time worth. I held back going to the toilet just incase kkkk.
Until it was dark, seriously, the sun ran away from me, and then set!

Haha. I just realised, you can't smell your nose.
You won't know what your nose smells like even though its the organ that smells.

Cool, the organ that smells can't smell, though it smells.
(Smell - stinky)

Haha okay nvm it was quite random.

Anyway, to you,
I dont know what's wrong.
If what you do solely affects me, then its okay.
But I don't think it's only affecting me, it's affecting others in the walk with God.
I mean, that's what I think is gonna happen/might be what's happening now.
I think they deserve the privellege to know him as much as I did.
Twice you did it, and honestly.. I wasn't at all pleased.
I wonder how long I can accept all this actually..
Just so you know, I'll be here for you though.
So.... I'll see what I'll do.. Soon.
Depends on you, mate!

Don't deprive others, and I'll be just fine (:
I know I've done nothing to deserve this attitude and I really don't feel much of a friend to you by the way you treat me.. But idk, maybe this is how you treat everyone else?

If it is, I think you've been more than a friend to me then.
Yup, so yeah, great! :D

Okay apart from thattttt.
Dance today was great :D :D
Haha continued from last week.

Teehee, its a dance choreographed by himself, and to be performed in NUS for some dance thingy.
So no one else learned it yay :D

I realised after much practice, I still do have some hope. Hahahha.

Oh yea JUMP was superr niceeee (:
The dance was damn good, I'm amazed. Hahah.
And we managed to catch a little glimpse of fireworks from where we were ^^

Haha huiwei, changi airport is productive. Will make up for lost hwk-done.

Eeeee sucks, I don't know what I wanted to blog about.
Happens everytime.

Anyway, EOYs are coming soon..
And I better pray hard that I will do well.. As in, WELL.

I'm gonna die if it doesnt.
You can see me in sec 3 again.. Haha.

But for nowwwww, BYE!

2008-08-20T00:00:00.003+08:00

What links to pride? Anger? Impatience?

Or no link.. Haha.

Okay nevermind, I just hate pride.
Can't stand it. How do you help people with pride?

Anyway, prayer meet on Monday was good (:
I was shocked by the prophecy made by Daniel.
"Gone are the days of dryness, coming are the days of overflow."

Haha as much as I'm afraid yet excited for what's to come, I decide to trust what he said. It's gonna show if it comes true or not, but I really hope so.

And yeah, I take it that the overflow was meant in the good way.
Haha. Not what ang said, overflow until all die.

But yeah, anyway, shep, I'm getting hungry again!!!! Foooooodddd ~~

(my dad just bought ice-cream home!! :D )

Mehhhhh.
Anyway, I had this sudden feel of passion again. Haha.
I've noticed my needs and I'm waiting (sorta) in the queue to get'em.
I know with what I have, I have to give all I can.
Blood is in my hands. Make my hands leak-proof for all it can.

Yeah!! 22nd AUG aka THIS FRIDAY
JUMP concert
@ Fort Canning Green,
730-930pm.

FREE ADMISSION!

Do come down if you are free! It's a FRIDAY NIGHT man! ^^

2008-08-16T00:15:00.002+08:00

Random thought

The devil's army is big,
the Lord's army is quite clearly, smaller, but growing.
That's why, the more we shouldn't step out.

We do want to overpower the devil don't we?

Anyway, I'm waiting for my results quite excitedly (:
I've already put in the most I can for that period of time that I have to study (along with Dad.G of course, haha I made it a point to.)

Wonder what I'll get.. But SO FAR, my chinese has improved from last time :}

Thank You man ^^

2008-08-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

Alright, common tests over!! (:

And I already got back my chinese results.. ZHB is effiecient.
Or whoever who marked it.

I feel like complaininggggggg.
About what I don't know, it's the little things that compile together.
But actually, I kinda feel that I've no right to complain. Haha.

I want a peace of mindddd, a peaceful mind. That can make me feel at ease at least.
Then from there I continue.

Everywhere I look I see scary things, of the world.
I mean not like its extraordinary or what, but its scary.

Okay, uh.. I shall go bathe nowww (:

SAI(weng zi ma) manz.
BYEEEEEZX.

2008-08-11T01:08:00.004+08:00

Heyheyheyhey people. THERE'S NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!

Heehee. I had tuition(s) today (:
And very smartly, I went to buy choc milkshake from macs before that..
So during tuition I was feeling really dreadfulllllllll. My stomach was aching like mad.
I was quite sure it was c__ at first. But then again I felt like it was stomachache.

And i realised, the final verdict was, it was both C_ and D_. Woohoo.
I was literally squirming on my chair in pain haha.

I'm having tuition again tmr, and i'm lovin' it :D
I like tuition leh. Its so enjoyable.
I like my tutor. Hahah.

Hmm anyway, I realised, its so easy to fall off track even when you're doing well.
Haha like, if you're always doing something regularly, say QT, and then you grow very well during that time.
And after a while, you think that you've grown enough and you get lazy to do QT.
Your growth level won't stay at that.

It will drop.

And after that, you gotta start all over again to build up what you could've originally retained.

I see the importance of consistency now. Haha.

Yeahh, I think the cc meet on sat was good (:
Hahah. I think the part abt "being Godly is not choosing God all the time, its choosing what/where/how God wants you to do/be at that point of time."

It was a nice point, summarizes how decisions should be made. Haha.
Like sometimes, people say they wanna skip tuition to go for fellowship..
But in actual fact, they want to pon tuition.

Nowonder I felt guilty when I skipped training for evax for CG08..
But really eh, I didnt know what to choose.

Training wasnt compulsory.
was only for a few days before the common test break
didnt really need to train for any upcoming competitions
and i was going evax for like almost everyday alr.
bad testimony if i dont go.. haha.

Evax..
was the only time the whole central would be down doing it tgt.
matters to the KOG much more.
was the final chiong.

So yeah , basically these few la.
I didnt want to but I felt that something was wrong when I skipped training even though i dont like it.

But anyway, I think it was very worth it going for evax :D

That point was really cool haha.
I mean, it sorta tackles all those excuses that people give which results in a bad testimony to the church. I'm gonna apply that as much as I can (:
Hopefully. Haha.

But anyway, I really wanna be a good shpd, sheep, wtv ):
I know I havent really been.. Heh joanne.
Sometimes she really potrays herself as someone so strong that nothing was seem to stumble her such that I don't bother to help in her growth? in a way la you know what i mean.

all i feel is that i just take and take and take from her and never return anything back. not that she asks of it, she would never. but... its not supposed to be like that anw.

okay, so common tests are nearingggggggggg.
in two days time. byeeeee.

oh anyway, was watching olympics.
The long qingquan person from weightlifting is very cute!!!!! HAHA.

As in those small boy cute kind luh.
He won gold for weightlifting anyway.

Okayyyyyy going off to bathe, pack up stuff, do qt, do hw, sleep, wake up bye 10am tmr.
Time check: 235am.

Possible?

2008-08-08T00:42:00.001+08:00

I'm really trying to study as hard as possible.. Trying.
The key is to see the reason/benefits of it. And I know what it should be for..

Yet I just can't glorify Daddy.G in this area. Seriously..
Glorify in all areas.. The rest are fine (: Pretty okay, momentum rising.
Just this aspect (okay maybe others also) I'm not living up to the standard.

If people used only this as a judgement of Christians.. I think I'd just hide myself away.
I really want to do welllllllll, but I can't study hard enough.

Haha but this really encourages me:
We're just COG who happens to be students.

Be the best in everything you do, or try to, at least. Cos you'll never get to be a student again.
Like at each part, teenager, young adults, adults, senior citizens - we were given a chance (in a way) to be at these stages in order to glorify Daddy.G to the best we can (:

Owell. Haha.
Anyway, had shpding with Janeennn on Mondayyy!! Hahaha.
Was kinda cool, we saw P.2H!!

Lol Paul Twohill.

With this other guy and the guy's gf. She was from some .. IJ school..
Yet she looks too old to be in that uniform. Hahah maybe retain until now uh. Haha I shan't be mean.

We were eating Pepper Lunch then after that went to borders and bought a Nice Book ^^
Not for ourselves though.. Hehe the lucky person shall find out soon (:

Then today went to queenstown library with Clara and Charmaine cos the food was nice heh.

But it was expensive la.. So it'll be quite a while before we ever go back there again eh?

Okay national day tomorrow and this is post is super messy and disorganised.
BYEGOODNIGT!

2008-08-03T01:05:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder if some things I do give off the wrong signals to others.

Of course some may have.. But the things that I deliberately do (that are right) as an example. Not say deliberately go and do, but when a certain situation comes or smth then I do yknow yknow.

Yeah, it seems like even though I checked my motives before doing and they are right, it might still send out wrong signals? If im not wrong..

I feel that somehow it does.

Wdv, haha I cant wait for JUMP concert!!!!
It's gonna be at Fort Canning green same as Singfest can. HAHA.

Anyway, I just saw this ad on Bridget's blog.

the old heineken ad.

Wah super coooooool. Makes me feel like learning dance more. Hahahah.
Doesnt ittttt? Lol. Nvm, gotta go bathe alr.

Svc today was greatt!!!! (:
Lotsa people from our sch and nice songs today and funny teaching (:

Great day today yay ^^